I really don’t see the reason why automatic Rifles are necessary. I can accept handguns (self defense) and shotgun or regular rifles (hunting) but I don’t see a reason why automatic rifles are not being made harder to get ahold of…the only use of AR weapons is killing people..
Trying to get books ready for publication, writing more, and recovering from a really nasty infection…means the blog caught neglect. So here is a poem written today titled The White Whale…
I find myself judging me for things done in anxiety. The things I should be doing eat at me, whispering in my ear deafeningly. I cannot grow a care… Though I know the reasons that I should.
The things that would happen are just as bad, telling me how important it is and why I should be sad. Instead the urging only reverses my mind to anger quixotically, making a monster of the rage building deep inside of me.,
The could be is somehow worse, for in me, these are the ones that hurt. I feel like I am not enough, because I can not make them happen no matter how hard I try.
So the should, the would, and the could, each have their place in stretching my anxiety into another day. They make me into a nervous wreck, weighing each mistake as a possibility. Fighting the trio I become a careless me.