Category: struggle

Saturday Thoughts

This is my work in progress list… and how I keep track of my word count. And I found myself needing to change it recently to add details.

As you can see I made quite a lot of progress this week. unfortunately Much of it was yesterday and today I am feeling like I have overdone.

I am still healing. Yesterday I felt better than I have in at least the last three years. So, I fixed breakfast. I body doubled so my son could get some dishes done. I sat with him to help him do a chore I promised to do myself 3 months ago and flaked on. I was up and out of the bed all day. Which felt so good. And now I am in so much pain that just sitting here waiting for the meds to kick in is excruciating.

I will be moving slower today. I am likely to be napping at least some time today. And I have to give myself that grace because surgery was just a little bit more than a week ago. I want my body to heal.

However, I am feeling better.  So, that means that the surgery is worth it.

Now, I Do realize that my adjustments will probably open up questions. so I am not doing a book review tomorrow…instead I will post a Q&A ASk me anything day. see you tomorrow.

Too tired tuesday

Meme-emotional description

Okay I tried…seriously. but I couldn’t think well enough of anything but the surgery to pick a song. Yeah I know my son or my boyfriend would have suggested a great song… but one of my personal rules for the music on Tuesday is I want to at least have SOMETHING to say about the song. And well I am stressed enough that I would not have much to say. I hope to bring a good choice next week.

Stepping out of my comfort zone

Okay, I am the original wallflower…but I signed up for an online poetry reading. I don’t step out of my comfort zone often but there is supposed to be other poets reading….the event listing on Facebook is here.

2026 PAD Challenge Day 15

2026 PAD Challenge Day 15

my response is:

our forefathers set up hope 
in a nation so young...
it was supposed to be freedom 
for all and welcoming arms 
for those who need sanctuary.

the new government are pirates 
stealing the dream.
piracy of hope seems to be 
unbelievable and profane...
for the reality of this country 
is nowhere near what everyone 
believed it would be.

2026 PAD Challenge Day 9

2026 PAD Challenge Day 9

my response:

Let us live together
as shadow people,
outside of society 
outside of the binary 
outside of the world 
              in its current state.

it was tried in the sixties 
as communes but again
did human nature invade.

I do not want to be human 
I do not want to be afraid
I just want to exist in my life 
im my own way.

Sleepy Sunday

I forgot to do the book review for today and I overslept. I thought about hurrying up and trying to post it but I didn’t really feel like it..

so I will try to get it done next week

Talking Tuesday

okay I will admit that a lot of the poetry I write has a darker tone. my art is more childish but it too has some dark tones. I will say it is because of my life thus far.

There’s whimsy and love notes mixed in the dark things. I recently got a comment on one of my poems that bothered me. I am sure that it was from a good place, but what if it wasn’t.

I mean I don’t want my poetry or art to push someone to the point of no return. please if my words make you feel like you need to do something drastic ….stop. you are a light in the world whether you realize it or not.

No one in all of heaven or earth is unimportant.

if you need to send me a message. I will always respond even if I only get to do so once.

This felt more important than Tuesday Tunes. that returns next week.

did you miss me?

I know I missed the post yesterday. i was mostly imitating a corpse. Saturday night I was feeling pretty exhausted and I checked my blood sugar. it was 595 before I ate. so I ate and took my night meds then went to bed.

Yesterday my youngest son forced me to get up to eat and take my shot and meds. my blood sugar was 210. but I was still so tired.

i woke up around 630 am this morning. my sugar was 200. and I am feeling better. I believe that the high blood sugar was the reason why I crashed. so I apologize for the missing post yesterday but I was just too sick to deal with it.

A Reader’s frustration

FAQ
My self reflections and Rants

okay I have always been a voracious reader…and I am also easily distracted. I try to set up a goal for book reading of at least half an hour a day – which can be a good amount of time considering that I am quite a fast reader. the problem is that no one else will ever understand the half hour is my mind focused on the book.

that being said … I realized something earlier. in any given day I will read a dozen news articles and perhaps half as many stories that are sent to me for publication or put up on A03…(no I will not ever reveal my tags) so I spend still quite a bit of time reading even if I don’t go through books as often as I used to.

It’s fairly frustrating as I used to go to the library and get 20 books for 2 weeks and easily return them on time.  I have always loved reading. And now I am finding myself changing what I am reading to shorter pieces. Not by choice but by the way people around me are. I am no longer left alone with my books for hours on end.

oh. and my son bought me a new book for my upcoming birthday. So now I have to find time to enjoy it. It looks like it will be a wonderful read.

New Volume and details of the rest

This one was the one with the most votes. I will be using the other ones as the choices for the next one. Due to the chaos of my life and health I believe Rising Madness will be releasing in April.

I am currently looking for people who are interested in review copies (ebook only ) of any of my own books in exchange for an honest review on any of the online outlets. I want to boost my books on the algorithm a bit. This includes my work and Serena Mossgraves work. If you are interested just let me know and we’ll talk about the format you would like to get and an email to share it to.

I am already starting the new volume so maybe I can get back into the daily routine again.