Category: struggle

Thursday thud.

I have nothing to offer you today or tomorrow. I am sorry. This week has wiped me out. I have been under the weather for nearly two weeks. Nothing serious… Just generally sick. Then Monday Joe had to get an scope from both sides to see what is going on with his health. My angel has a weird mass in the bone of her left jaw and she was sick last week with the stomach bug that I have been dealing with. She had surgery yesterday to biopsy that mass. All told I am wiped. Add in my grandson being sick and me unable to go see him… And this writer has no words. So please forgive me. Blog will be back Monday, I have another poet spotlight planned.

Wednesday wisdom

Today is a bit of a recovery day. I had a birthday girl, she just turned fifteen, on Monday. Which we spent in the ER because she caught a stomach bug. So I am worn out.

I find myself glad that I have less responsibility right now than usual. I was not chosen to create for the spring issue of Creatives Rising. And the editor apologized because she wanted to include everyone, but so many applied… So she was forced to choose. I think that I will let you in on a secret. I was relieved. The topics offered did not truly speak to me. This time of year is harder for me to create. I end up wanting to hibernate. I force the creation but it is a struggle. So I was grateful to not have been chosen. I applied because I love the E-zine. I will be letting you guys know when it is coming out, I asked the editors to include me in the cover announcement so I could share with you. I have a reserved spot in the summer issue. It works wonderfully for me.

This week Thursday will be a review of my friend Deedra’s young adult novel. I do hope that you will check back here to see that. Next Tuesday I have another guest scheduled.

This week I have to settle down and focus on Serena’s second zombie novel. It is at 13k. Goal is to get it to 60k and to the editor by my birthday (march 13).

Friday, this week, is going to be me posting a dozen poetry prompts. I hope that you will be willing to share your poetry with me.

Monday Madness

So I normally do Monday poetry… But I didn’t feel it this week. This week I wanted to be absolutely all over the place… Chat about phone wallpaper and fun nonsense. To be honest I have been needing a lighter tone the last few days. My mind has been in some weird places… New story ideas for Serena and she still has to finish the one she is working on. This week will be both of us settling in to write, and it scares me. I have been running away from the computer and writing since thanksgiving, letting the inner voice get to me. Poetry has happened. Poetry always will. It does not scare me as bad. I know that I have skill and talent there. The demons that eat at the mind there were slain a long time ago. The demons attached to the stories and the art… They still claw at the tender bits in the back of my mind.

See every artist, no matter what their medium is, faces those demons. That wee bit of our inner soul that tells us that we are not worthy. That we will never be enough. Some, like Vincent Van Gogh, fight with the demons and lose. Not because they were not amazing, but because the demons are strong. The call to art, to create, is unbearable. But not all create on the same level. I am no Van Gogh. But I sit and question if it matters? Can I create and just be Patricia Harris? Is that enough? Well I have decided that with my poetry, it is. Now I have to get to that point with each medium I use. Serena’s macabre tales, my own children’s stories, acrylic paints, resin and jewelry art, watercolor paints, digital art, and even simple pencil drawing. I seem to have an endless imagination. Just not the confidence to back it up.

And look at this… I was supposed to chat about lighter topics. I have two phones… One that is active and one that I use as a tablet… I change my wallpaper on both about once a month. How often do you change your background on your devices? Care to share your background? Here are mine.

I considered sharing my lockscreens, but as both devices are my grandsons pictures (2 boys, 2 devices) I don’t think I will. Though I am proud of both I limit who I share my boys with because of the bad people in the world. I share that with people I trust.

So, what are your demons about? And do you want to share your wallpaper?

Release links

So I normally do a link post only once a month… But since I did just release of a new volume… It was time to do one. However, I will only give my links. I will do Serena’s in march as usual.

Come see me on Patreon (http://www.patreon.com/pattimouse)

my author page on Amazon
https://www.amazon.com/Patricia-Harris/e/B012U5ZRD2

This is what’s out for all editions.

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A Pocketful of Poetry
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<Mobi>

<Paperback>

<Everywhere Else>
https://www.books2read.com/u/mVB1np

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Creative Juices
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<Mobi>
https://tinyurl.com/ydgqoept

<Paperback>
https://tinyurl.com/y9s5xrom

<Everywhere Else>
https://www.books2read.com/u/3J8AKK

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word play
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<Mobi>

<Paperback> http://www.amazon.com/Word-Play-Patricia-Lynn-Harris/dp/1519794983/ref=la_B012U5ZRD2_1_6_twi_pap_2?s=books&ie=UTF8&qid=1451694114&sr=1-6

<Everywhere Else>
https://www.books2read.com/u/bMQ0YB

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Sacks of Wit
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<Mobi>

<Paperback>

<Everywhere Else>
https://www.books2read.com/u/bWzaKM

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Pip the Pup
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<Everywhere Else> https://www.books2read.com/u/bWzaKM

<Mobi>

<Paperback>

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Bedtime Tales I:
The Teddy Bear Picnic
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<Mobi>

<Paperback>

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Bedtime Tales II: The Princess Lost
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<Mobi>

<Paperback>

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Life Drops
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<Mobi>

<Paperback >

<Everywhere Else>
https://www.books2read.com/u/4DlaNP

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Wayward Dreams
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<Mobi>

<Paperback>

<Everywhere Else>
https://www.books2read.com/u/m2vjer

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Prompted Prose
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<Mobi>
https://tinyurl.com/mqua3so

<Paperback>

<Everywhere Else>
https://www.books2read.com/u/boZzGv

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Dream Webs
———————
<Mobi>

<Paperback>

<Everywhere Else>
https://www.books2read.com/u/38rNMZ

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Literary Drops
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<Mobi>

<Paperback>

<Everywhere Else>
https://www.books2read.com/u/md0eWy

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Word Petals
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<Mobi>

<Paperback >

<Everywhere Else>
https://www.books2read.com/u/bMQ0YB

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Soul’s Door
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<Mobi>

<Paperback>

<Everything Else>
https://www.books2read.com/u/47ZpYE

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Music for the soul
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<Mobi>

<Paperback>
https://www.amazon.com/dp/1980990573/ref=cm_sw_r_cp_apa_KgKwBbF0F9934

<Everywhere Else>
https://www.books2read.com/u/bQ9o9w

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Poetry Kisses
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<Mobi>

<Paperback>
https://www.amazon.com/dp/1717918581/ref=cm_sw_r_cp_apa_ObKwBbE57D724

<Everywhere Else>
https://www.books2read.com/u/47Zpx8

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Temporal Verse
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<Everwhere Else>
https://www.books2read.com/u/4jDOR2

<Mobi>

<Paperback>
https://www.amazon.com/dp/1386556556/ref=cm_sw_r_cp_apa_Fs2UBb8RTBX47

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Soul Drops
——————–
<Paperback>

<Everywhere Else>
https://www.books2read.com/u/m0g5QY
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Spilled Verse
———————
<mobi> https://www.amazon.com/dp/B07MXLYKQP/ref=cm_sw_r_cp_apa_i_d7GqCbCJRMQ2X

<paperback> https://www.amazon.com/dp/1794353003/ref=cm_sw_r_cp_apa_i_krXqCb4AFYYK4

<Everywhere Else>
https://books2read.com/u/3LGr6X
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Also… Due to illness I will not be doing the character development post tomorrow. I am so sorry, but I have been fighting with a migraine headache for three days.

Wednesday thoughts

Ever wonder what makes you unique? Is it your environment, your choices? The combined experience? Here lately I’ve been questioning whether I was as unique as I used to think. In high school it was my thing… I was unique and no one could tell me different. Well high school was nearly 30 years ago. In that time I have been taught lessons from life that made the lines blur.

I have met others who have similar stories to mine. Often ones who I see as stronger than I am. I often see myself as weak. Survival doesn’t mean that you are strong, at least not always. Some times survival is just doing what you have always done.

Yeah, my thoughts are fragments. But it still is a legitimate question, what makes you unique? What about you is different than the next guy?

Oh btw this is research on character development for me… So please do give me your thoughts.

Migraine madness.

I normally do either teaser Tuesday or tech Tuesday… And I still might. But as I am fighting back a terrible migraine…. It will be later in tomorrow before I am able. Thank you for your patience.

Scheduled snafus

So my schedule is thrown to the winds from the holidays. I apologize. I will be back on Monday (yes I realize it is New Years Day.) I want to get back on track. 2019 is going to be a busy year for me. I have a childrens book that will release in 2019, At least three poetry volumes will also release. Serena is going to be in an anthology and is hoping for her second book in the zombie series to release. I will be doing more with my art, and updates will be going up on Patreon (pattimouse) about that. Add to that this blog, the possible ezines, and other fun stuff. I will update you as I know dates and such. Thank you for continuing to read my simple blogs.

Also I will be continuing with world building for a couple of weeks. Fridays. Then I will start a series of character building posts. Not sure what I will work on after that.

Well it’s Wednesday.

I realize that I am not on schedule. I have an ear infection and some sinus problems. I did good to get yesterday out. Y’all I am couch daying. What that means is I had enough energy to get from my bed to the couch. And that is it. I really hate being sick. It leaves me feeling inadequate and useless. I am truly sorry, but the review is not likely to be done tomorrow either. I will attempt to do the world building on Friday. Thanks for understanding.

Straight talk Tuesday

Creative. I have my tools that I can work with. With words, technology, paint, Resin, beads, and wire I create. Well a few other things, but those are my main mediums. It came to mind because there are some other mediums I would love to try.

I shared a post that I saw on Facebook asking people to describe me in one word. I was not surprised that creative came up. Not even surprised that it was first. Then I was browsing what I call craft porn on YouTube. I like the videos of people making stuff. I usually go for stuff that with the right tools I could make… Then there is the glassblowing vids. They are addictive… Not because I think I can do it…. But because they are so freaking talented in a media I don’t ever see myself trying.

So it appears that I have limits to my creativity. I still want to explore clay, even to the point of a pottery wheel. I want to play with polymer Clay. And perler beads. Maybe some needle felting (though I have my doubts that I will enjoy it). Wood and metal working… So much of the ones I want to try require tools, or the medium itself is expensive.

I think that creating for the sake of creating is never a bad thing. So what medium do you use?

Apology time

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Ok….I realize that I just dropped away last week and failed to update this blog. I am truly sorry. I missed Wednesday on. I  had a tooth extracted and have been struggling to get back on things since. I am hoping next week I can get back on track. Thank you for understanding….also I will be adding a widget  to my posts to allow you to keep up with my progress on my writing. today I am only including Serena’s Next book, but Monday I hope to include shoe mountain and Spilled verse.

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