Quotes to live by…well there are a lot of inspirational quotes out there. All are worth using as a life model. However truth be told…I tend just to use my brain and my heart to decide how to live. What quote do you use to live by if any?
Category: self introspection
Day fifteen
To be honest this took actual thought. Quite a bit of thought. Not much really irritates me…I am something of an easygoing person. I even asked those who know me best to get a feel for what I would be perceived as having as a pet peeve. My daughter figures my pet peeve (once I explained the term ) was her misbehaving and disrespecting me. I really don’t think of her random teenage moments (as she is actually a really good kid) as being worth counting as my pet peeve. I am just her mother. That means I hide the amusement when she is acting as stubborn as she does. My boyfriend of twenty years just I don’t knowed at me….so I must not really have one that stands out to him. My sister told me it was stupid people. Okay uhm…yeah. I really have issues with those who are purposely ignorant or hurtful. So my pet peeves list is a total of one… that’s not bad.
What’s yours? And why?
Day thirteen
(Just an fyi…day fourteen may be late. I have an event I am doing… a very public event selling my crafts… which is btw making me neurotic….. so I am not sure how up to anything I will be afterwards…. but I will do the blog asap. I promise.)
I am a stay at home sort. Hence the neurotic meltdown… lol. I really am introverted. However I am wanting to make an honest attempt at seeing how my crafts sell… so my first ever event. I have approximately 100 hair clips. About 150 hook style earrings, nearly a hundred post style. About fifty pendants /necklaces. At least Six picnic utensil holders. Some painted rocks. Some bracelets, broach pins, keychains. Some clothes pin dolls. Aaaaand I feel like I am not going to have enough to sell. so I am making bookmarks to keep my sanity. If you are anywhere near Keyser, WV on Saturday come see me. We will be in the south end park over by the tennis courts. There will be two food vendors, face painting, a bounce house. There is quite a few vendors signed up. Potomac Valley Hospital is going to be having an event there too.
So don’t mind me….
I’ll just keep making and see y’all there.
Day twelve
This really depends on my state of mind and how tired I am. When I am exhausted and in the sleep deprived silliness… Penis is the funniest word. Otherwise it really is more about context. Any word placed properly can be funny. Although I admit my humor is often very juvenile… uranus is able to elicit more snickers than I care to admit.
Day Nine (only slightly late )
This is a concept that has always bothered me. My great grandma was seventy five when I was born. She bowled in three leagues until I was ten. For me I see people at thirteen who are more mature then people who are nearly thirty. I believe each person should be judged (if they must be judged at all) on their own merits, not based on silly things like age or gender. What about you? What is your opinion?
Day Seven
I have four. A pentacle, a blue rose piercing through a heart, a faery, a blue rose with an infinity symbol surrounding it’s stem.
They each have meaning. Although in truth each of the tattoos were chosen merely because I liked them. Nothing more or less than that.
The pentacle is a symbol of protection. It banishes the negative. My tattoo artist was a high priest, and as he finished the circle, he blessed it.
The faery is a symbol of nature and of belief in the fantastic. Mine is faded and nearly nothing but her wings and toadstool remains.
The blue rose is a symbol of death. Which is also a beautiful sign of life. The one that pierces a heart was my first tattoo. I have wanted it since i was fifteen.
The other one is supposed to symbolize infinite hope.
Day six
This is a bit harder to answer. Historically there are several who fascinate me.
Lady Jane Grey – because for all the tragedy surrounding her, and the grace with which she handled her inability to affect her own life.
Lucretia Borgia – Because she was strong and independent during a time when it was not acceptable for women.
Ellspeth Bathory – Because she was truly Bat shit crazy. Everyone should be fascinated by at least one bit of crazy.
Edgar Allen Poe – Because for all his Talent, he died an unknown. He was an extraordinary writer.
Emily Dickinson – Because she wrote only for herself. She was not published until after she died. Her poetry touched me deeply.
Jack the ripper – because he is an unsolved mystery.
There are quite a few that fascinate me…and I would be here till tomorrow trying to list them all. I am often fascinated by strength (of character and physical) and intelligence.
What are you fascinated by.
Day four (May the fourth be with you )
1. I am very diverse in my interests. Art, Anime, animals, old movies, crafts, reading, computers, games, amateur photography, history, science, religion, nature…. and so on.
2. I am a survivor. And that is part of why i write.
3. I am geeky and into several fandoms….but not always am I truly fanatical about the fandoms I enjoy.
4 I don’t do politics… really… just no.
5. I am really into pikachu, miss piggy and Eeyore.
6. I wanted to be a teacher when I was in High school…. mostly because of the amazing English teachers I had then.
7. I am my own worst critic. I do not see much of what I do as being worth being read or seen.
8.I believe that all art, music and writing enriches the lives of anyone it touches.
9. I kill houseplants… unintentionally.
10. I got my nickname in high school. I am called mouse because someone (who became my friend ) chose to on a prank on me. He slipped a dead mouse in my purse. I had a cat at the time who was always giving me a gift. So I just calmly dealt with it. Soon after i was called mouse.
Emotional secrets
Here recently I accused someone I love of having secrets from me. It caused a fight. I wasn’t saying in a cheating sort of way, and I was right. He was hiding his misery. Each of us do this. We tell only part of our lives because we don’t want to be seen as weak or wanting. We all want to be strong, if nothing else as an illusion to ourselves. It is truly in human nature. We expect those around us to see what is bothering us, and are often disappointed when no one does.
Our minds are mazes that we even occasionally have trouble navigating. Add in the mental mazes that exist in those we love, And that is where confusion lies. What makes relationships work, all sorts of relationships, is a truly open line of communication. Trust and honesty make for strong and lasting relationships.
So next time you feel doubt as to what someone feels or may be hiding, Ask… Don’t accuse. It may make all the difference.
Nightmares
I have had them for as long as I can remember. I have looked into the idea of controlling my dreams. However once they dream starts, I am helpless. I know that some who have never been in my place would suggest that I just “shake it off.” Waking from a nightmare for me isn’t logical. The fear and helplessness follows me. I wake confused about where I am. I wake with my heart racing and my breathing uneven. Depending on how long I was in it, I even sometimes awaken to bloody places where I have scratched myself or been hitting the wall.
Add to that the fact that I rarely get back to sleep after, doing so is very often a herculean effort. So if I tell you I am tired. Or say I am having trouble sleeping…. please don’t feel the need to suggest I cut down on my coffee. Most weeks I have less than a cup a day. Please understand, if i tell you I am tired, it is merely me explaining that I am not at my best. Even with nightmares, I am not stopping… Don’t ask me to tell you what is so scary. Most of the time all i remember is the fear. The feeling of being helpless. No details other could I give you.
This nightmares are not a sign of weakness. They are the a sign that I am mentally unstable. They are merely another reminder of my survival. I made it through a lot of things. I have lived an interesting life. How my mind handles some of it, well, it could be worse.
