Today my youngest turns 18. The first picture was of her at around 6 months, the second at 16. (She still looks much the same) I was given the gift of a lifetime in her. I am grateful. Happy Birthday Gabrielle, and may you enjoy many more.
Hello, My Lovelies! This is my first Saturday Tea Party. I am sitting here drinking Mocha coffee and thinking that is a funny thing for a tea party…maybe I will make some green tea next just to feel less strange about it.
I will be getting an interview on Friday with the Library in the Blue Box in April. It will be a video interview.
I will be releasing the Next Pip book (Pip and Friends) in April on the 29th.
Serena’s Poetry volume – Death Becomes Her – will release on June 1st.
My next poetry volume (Gathering Teardrops) is probably going to release in May but until I am certain it will be done I have been reluctant to set the release date.
Fae Corps has been putting the release dates and submission deadlines on google calendar. This is public and allows the readers to know when things are scheduled.
I am working on getting art I have done inked and layout done for a coloring book from my art. It will be titled Color My Art.
This is the upcoming announcements for the next year…subject to updates of course 😉
I am still trying to get back into the habit of updating the blog. I may still miss here and there. I will do my best not to though.
The Schedule for 2022 is fairly busy. There are 3 indie Author books currently on the schedule., not including mine and Serena’s books. There are currently 3 Anthologies planned. I have at least one poetry volume and at least one Kid’s book releasing this year. Serena has a poetry volume releasing this year. That is on top of everything else we might do. I will be posting a better calendar on the Fae Corps blog. This is my personal blog, so Why do I post it here? Well, because I am excited about the options. Fae Corps will be posting a PAD challenge for April, as usual. And I will be giving a live interview(link upcoming when I get it.)
There are two Anthologies that will be coming out at the end of March, and Ashira Datya’s Second book will release at the beginning of March. Raz T Slasher is about to release book 2 in his series on 4/20. In May I will be releasing the next Pip Book. I am hoping to have another book by Serena done in time for release this year. Her poetry volume will release in November. I am not certain when I will be releasing Gathering Teardrops. It is half done. I am hoping for a June release, but we will have to see.
We already have an author on the schedule for 2023. Fae Corps is rocking this, and I am learning so much in the doing of it.
Lyrics –
[Verse 1]
I must be the kings of gambling
‘Cause I’m no ace of hearts babe, as you know, mmm
People say pick yourself up from the ground
But I just keep on sinking, like a stone, mmm
[Post-Verse]
When I drift closer you float further, out
And I hate, yeah I hate it
It’s like I’m the story’s villain
And you are the heroine
And I can’t win
[Pre-Chorus]
I tried to say I’m sorry but it sounds like it’s your fault
And every compliment just sounds like you’re no good at all
Yeah I hate to be the reason for you walking out that door
But right before I fix it, I fuck it up
[Chorus]
Fuck it up some more
I fuck it up, fuck it up
Fuck it up some more
I fuck it up, fuck it up
Fuck it up some more
I fuck it up, fuck it up
Fuck it up some more
I fuck it up, fuck it up
Fuck it up some more
[Verse 2]
You’re the best I’ve ever had
Hope I’m not your worst, but I don’t know, mmm
Sorry I’ve dragged you down through every circle
Down through my inferno
Should’ve cleaned first, mmm, mmm
[Post-Verse]
When I drift closer you float further, out
And I hate, yeah I hate it
It’s like I’m the story’s villain
And you are the heroine
And I can’t win
[Pre-Chorus]
I tried to say I’m sorry but it sounds like it’s your fault
And every compliment just sounds like you’re no good at all
Yeah I hate to be the reason for you walking out that door
But right before I fix it, I fuck it up
[Chorus]
Fuck it up some more
I fuck it up, fuck it up
Fuck it up some more
I fuck it up, fuck it up
Fuck it up some more
I fuck it up, fuck it up
Fuck it up some more
I fuck it up, fuck it up
Fuck it up some more
I fuck it up, fuck it up
Fuck it up some more
I fuck it up, fuck it up
Fuck it up some more
My 2 cents –
I can’t help feeling like this song is reading my mind. I often feel like a screw up. Whether I am or not. This one has been stuck in my head lately.
Lyrics –
Please, forgive me, I’ve got demons in my head
There’s something in the water
I don’t like the flavour, I don’t like the taste
Searching for nirvana
Something that’ll take it all away from me
Don’t bother me, my misery
It’s holding me
Won’t let me speak
Please, forgive me, I’ve got demons in my head (in my head)
Please, forgive me, I’ve got demons in my head
Tryna eat me, tryna feed me lies until I’m dead (’til I’m dead)
Please, forgive me, I’ve got demons in my head (in my head)
It’s creeping in, it’s gonna get me by the end of the night
I’m sinking deeper, still I’m reaching for the end of the light
Burning in the lava
You can’t go and pray this type of pain away
Don’t bother me, my misery
It’s holding me
Won’t let me speak
Please, forgive me, I’ve got demons in my head (in my head)
Please, forgive me, I’ve got demons in my head
Tryna eat me, tryna feed me lies until I’m dead (’til I’m dead)
Please, forgive me, I’ve got demons in my head (oh, head!)I feel like I can’t breathe
I feel like I can’t sleep
How did I not see?
I’m unwell
I feel like I can’t breathe
I feel like I can’t sleep
How did I not see?
I’m unwell
Please, forgive me, I’ve got demons in my head (in my head)
Please, forgive me, I’ve got demons in my head (oh, head!)
Please, forgive me, I’ve got demons in my head (in my head)
Please, forgive me, I’ve got demons in my head
Tryna eat me, tryna feed me lies until I’m dead (’til I’m dead)
Please, forgive me, I’ve got demons in my head (oh, head!)In my head
Please, forgive me, I’ve got demons in my head (in my head)
Please, forgive me, I’ve got demons in my head
My 2 Cents-
Ok…. I am behind on Loki. Just got to watch episodes 3 & 4 this weekend. (Me and a couple of friends are watching it together. This song began episode 3 and I just had to look it up. The lyrics feel, much like many of my favorite songs, like someone is watching my life too closely. The best songs always feel like they rip your heart out. You can understand it far better than you really want to. What song tears you apart?
I lost a friend today. He actually passed away on the 7th… But I found out today. He was so bright and compassionate. He would at least once a month send me a digital hug. He was a veteran and a good man. I will miss him.
I normally put poetry on pictures with a copyright notice… This one hurts too much.
Lyrics –
[Verse 1]
Thought I’d bite my tongue
Just this once, maybe twice, but the harder I bite
Now it’s drawing blood
There’s a trace on my lips, leaves a taste when we kiss
Try to cover up
All of the lies and all of the lines that I
Bottle up
To keep you safe and sound
[Pre-Chorus]
But echoes of warnings
Like whispers of morning, like
It creeping through cracks in my memory
It’d make me lose my mind
[Chorus]
But every time I close my eyes
It’s calling in like a siren
Threatening to comе alive
Unless I pay the pricе, yeah
But if my heart is right this time
And I can finally bear my secrets
Maybe you won’t run and hide
But love the monster inside me
[Verse 2]
Maybe all the love
Is a switch that we flip when we’re losing our grip
And it’s close enough
Taking good with the pain, go a little insane
All we really want
Is someone to hold until we grow old
And no matter what (No matter)
Can’t be scared away
[Pre-Chorus]
Echoes of warnings
Like whispers of morning, like
It creeping through cracks in my memory
It’d make me lose my mind
[Chorus]
But every time I close my eyes
It’s calling in like a siren
Threatening to come alive
Unless I pay the price, yeah
But if my heart is right this time
And I can finally bear my secrets
Maybe you won’t run and hide
But love the monster inside me
[Bridge]
Beauty in the chaos, all that’s left to save us
Now
Beauty in the chaos, all that’s left to save us
Now
Beauty in the chaos, all that’s left to save us
Now
Echoes of warnings like
Beauty in the chaos, all that’s left to save us now
Echoes of warnings like
Beauty in the chaos, all that’s left to save us now
[Chorus]
But every time I close my eyes
It’s calling in like a siren
Threatening to come alive
Unless I pay the price, yeah
But every time I close my eyes
It’s calling in like a siren
Threatening to come alive
Unless I pay the price, yeah
But if my heart is right this time
And I can finally bear my secrets
Maybe you won’t run and hide
But love the monster inside me
My 2 Cents –
I have always fought the stigma of my mental health. I am a survivor. That being said, sometimes the labels are easier to fight than others. Now I am trying to help my teenager fight them. She wants to write horror. She is into the creepy and dark. When she told her therapist that (New therapist) the therapist tried to claim that she was homicidal. She doesn’t want to hurt anyone. She is a gentle soul with a rich imagination. She wants to write dark stories so she is apparently Homicidal. I raised all kinds of hell with the office. The supervisor talked to my daughter and agreed that the therapist was way off base. So I am left with a wonderful beginning writer who is struggling because of labels. Seems to me that the world wants to label madness too easily and the monsters that truly exist are allowed too much leeway. so today at least I think I love the monster inside me and will revel in the beauty in chaos.
Lyrics-
“L’il Red Riding Hood”
(originally by Sam The Sham And The Pharaohs)
Hey there little red riding hood
You sure are looking good
You’re everything a big bad wolf could want
Little red riding hood
I don’t think little big girls should
Go walking in these spooky old woods alone
What big eyes you have
The kind of eyes that drive wolves mad
Just to see that you don’t get chased
I think I oughta walk with you for a ways
What full lips you have
They’re sure to lure someone bad
So until you get to Grandma’s place
I think you oughta walk with me and be safe
Gonna keep my sheep suit on
‘Til I’m sure that you’ve been shown
That I can be trusted walking with you alone
Little red riding hood
I’d like to hold you if I could
But you might think I’m a big bad wolf so I won’t
What a big heart I have
The better to love you with
Little red riding hood
Even bad wolves can be good
I try to keep satisfied
Just to walk close by your side
Maybe you’ll see things my way
‘Fore we get to Grandma’s place
Little red riding hood
You sure are looking good
You’re everything a big bad wolf could want
Little red riding hood
I don’t think little big girls should
Go walking in these spooky old woods alone
What big eyes you have
The kind of eyes that drive wolves mad
Just to see that you don’t get chased
I think I oughta walk with you for a ways
What full lips you have
They’re sure to lure someone bad
So until you get to Grandma’s place
I think you oughta walk with me and be safe
My 2 Cents-
I know I have posted the song before. It is a favorite of mine. I felt like it is whimsical enough to bring a smile. I want to create smiles.
Hello my lovely readers. Today I have a nice cold green tea, how about you? I hope this finds you all keeping cool in this heat.
I have very few announcements but I figured I would update you all as I could.
One, we are diligently working at Fae Corps to get the Into the Glen anthologies out. Those should be out in August, As well as the Poetry book by the Lovely Beulah Vega, A Saga For the Unrequited. I am quite busy trying to get both together and will post links as soon as I have them.
I am supposed to be in Indie Blu(e)’s upcoming anthology But You Don’t Look Sick with a bit of Poetry…again links upcoming.
My resin art is for sale on my Facebook page. I am taking commissions. If you are interested in what I can make I have posted a album full of the molds I own on my personal Facebook. It is public, as not much is.
I have added a new thing for Fridays to try to bring more fun to my blog. I will start it tomorrow. Let me know what you think.
I have been adding my art to Deviant art (the link is on the side). I have also been trying to do recordings to make mine and Serena’s Books into Audiobooks. So the occasional poetry reading is going up on YouTube in the meantime.
So, that is all of mine…what are you doing for the summer? Any fun plans?
Those who follow me probably noticed that I have been awol for a few days – nearly two weeks… That is because I went on a vacation. I visited my parents, my brother, and my son and his youngest son. The poem in the picture is one that I wrote as a child and my dad held onto. Next week I will be back to posting, and I am hoping to be back on track… But I wanted to enjoy the family time, as it is a rare beast.
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