So I usually do a duplicate thing so I don’t have to go searching for the image for my post…I apparently fat fingered my post for last week’s wild Wednesday which erased it. I’m sorry 😞.
oops again
Category: fun
Artsy Fartsy Thursday
Title: Fog
this is the first one done on my android tablet I got for my birthday (early)
Tuesday Tunes
Lyrics-
You can tell me that you try
But you told me as you said goodbye
And all those things you couldn’t say
You just watched me walk away, again
But I was there for you to the end
As your lover and your best friend
So why’d you cross that line and destroy my life?
Please just tell the truth
‘Cause it’s a lot to defend and I can’t understand
How I’m still loving you
Why can’t you be by yourself?
Always needing to be with someone else
So uncomfortable in your own skin
I didn’t realize that time alone meant time with him
So why’d you cross that line and destroy my life?
Please just tell the truth
‘Cause it’s a lot to defend and I can’t understand
How I’m still loving you
We only have one life to get right
We had our second chance
And yet we fucked it up again
So why’d you cross that line and destroy our lives?
Please just tell the truth
It’s a lot to defend, I can’t understand
How I’m still loving you
How am I still loving you?
My 2 Cents –
Someone pointed out that the song I shared last week and this one when played together form a story – no matter what order you play them. I felt that and found the story too compelling to not share.
Tuesday Tunes
Lyrics-
When you imagine a prisoner of war, is this what you imagine?
“Under Your Scars” lyrics
Godsmack Lyrics
Play “Under Your Scars”
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“Under Your Scars”
Do we make sense? I think we do
In spite of everything that we’ve been through
Oh when you say black and I say white
It’s not about who’s wrong as long as it feels right
Don’t think those stars won’t align
Under your scars I pray
You’re like a shooting star in the rain
You’re everything that feels like home to me, yeah
Under your scars, I could live inside you time after time
If you’d only let me live inside of mine
Live inside of mine
Wish you were here right beside me
So I could watch you sleep
Hold your body closer, breathe you deep
And everything feels broken when you’re not next to me
Would you still be you if we weren’t we?
Under your scars I pray
You’re like a shooting star in the rain
You’re everything that feels like home to me, yeah
Under your scars, I could live inside you time after time
If you’d only let me live inside of mine
So hey, if you feel like coming down
If you feel like coming around
Just call my name out loud, na, na, na
Hey, if you feel like coming down
If you feel like coming around
Just call my name out loud, na, na, na, hey
Under your scars I pray
You’re like a shooting star in the rain
You’re everything that feels like home to me, yeah
Under your scars, I could live inside you time after time
If you’d only let me live inside of mine
Live inside of mine
My 2 Cents –
so I think I probably had something witty here…but in trying to get the posts done for the upcoming week I ended up sending it to the ether. However I planned on the song being here for the next week’s Tuesday tunes to reference… so I have to leave the mess up.
Artsy Fartsy Thursday
Title: Storm
Wild Wednesday
Ever seen something and felt like it was you?
My Daughter introduced me to a new anime. Ascendence of a Bookworm.
The lead character is a fragile little girl who is in love with books. It’s an isekai. She is reincarnated from Japan. Into a world where books are rare.
So since she can’t have books, she is determined to make her own.
The story is amazing and apparently there’s manga… so now I’m craving the manga.
I will be looking into getting them.
Setting A Goal
So, I have set up a goal of publishing Tears of the Broken in March. That means I have to get it written by no later than the middle of February. It’s about half done. So I might be able to get it done. I already have the next volume chosen – I know I usually ask for your opinion…but I have it calling to me. I will celebrate getting this one done by announcing that one.
Tuesday Tunes
Lyrics-
I saw somebody leap to the other world
Jumping off the edge left behind his hope
But he could fly for a second incredible
I wonder what it was like when he finally fell
They say you hit the water and then it’s gone
All the tears you cried all the pain you felt
But is it worth all the hurt that you’ve probably caused
When they find that you don’t make it back to shore
To be honest
Sometimes I think about all of the same things
I wish I could go back so I could change all of my memories
‘Cause all of them are sad
All the drinks I had
Turned into a pool of misery
I wonder if I’m better drowning
I tell myself
No no no no no no no no
No
I try to tell myself
No no no no no no no no
No
They celebrate the life that they never knew
Can’t point out the elephant in the room
Most people can’t understand what you’re going through
So in the end does it matter the path you choose?
To be honest
Sometimes I feel like I’m feeling the same things
I wish there was a way that I could tell this to my family
But they’d only be sad
Maybe I don’t have
Any point in being here
It’s so unclear if I’m swimming or sinking
I tell myself
No no no no no no no no
No
I try to tell myself
No no no no no no no no
No
I’ll turn my headlights on
Speeding ‘cross the bridge
No it won’t be long
But I got to be strong
And I tell myself
No no no no no no no no
I gotta tell myself
No no no no no no no no
And I tell myself
No no no no no no no no
I gotta tell myself
No no no no no no no no
I tell myself
My 2 Cents –
Sometimes we have to tell ourselves… and find the strength to hear.
Artsy Fartsy Thursday
Title: Shade
Feeling like I did Something
Well…I finished writing Queer Verbage which will not release until April…it seems so far away…but it is one less thing I have hanging over me. I can do the formatting and get the stuff done for publishing.
I cannot explain why the need to finish it was so strong, but having it done is a weight off. Now I have Tears of the Broken, Dream Drops, Fighting Ignorance, Ocular Dystopia, Occult Madness in progress for me and Chasing Ghosts for Serena.
When I mentioned to my Daughter how I felt like I was struggling with it, she said I was pushing too hard. She said that if I worked any harder she would never get to see me. Sorry, she comes first there. But it did make me wonder…what is the right amount? I try to write as I feel the urge, but I also try to set a daily goal so I actually get forward progress on more than just the poetry volumes…because I tend to get easily distracted from my stories. I am aware there is a discipline to this…and I am a child of chaos.
So where is the happy medium for me? That is something I am going to be working with over the next few weeks. I need to set me a workable time schedule for writing and work that I can stick to…or at least attempt to. Let’s see how that goes?
