

Landscapes are fun to do. The trick with landscapes is setting a natural horizon. This is the part where the sky and the land separate. Too many try to make it an even line. Horizons are not straight in nature. There should be a curve. Even slightly

My 2 Cents-
Some songs I want to share because they are so beautiful, even if I have nothing to say about them. This is one of those. I am a supernatural fan…and Jensen has a gorgeous voice. This is a good song,


This is the first thing that I ever learned how to draw. It is a pup. My mom showed me how to draw this when I was a little girl. I never believed that I could draw because this was the only thing I knew how to draw, then my daughter was born. She had an interest and a talent for art, so I drew with her. It gave me the confidence to try again.
Confidence is a lot of art. Art without confidence is self-torture. I have found with art that practice helps. I have been improving as I continue to practice. I have very little of what I think of as talent, Instead, I think of my art as a skill. Because without practice I would not have gotten to the point I have reached. What do you create? What is your art? This can be multiple things.

My 2 Cents-
There is a lot of things that can make someone feel like they are to blame for relationship failings. This song makes me feel like I am not alone. I have been dealing with personality changes in the man I love due to brain abnormalities…and It makes me feel like a monster that sometimes I don’t love the person he has become. Sometimes when life changes those we love sitting there wondering if we can handle it is normal, even if it doesn’t feel like it.

Okay, I have been sharing my art on Wednesday and making it wordless… But Words are what I do best. It had been bothering me. I do art in so many different mediums. I actually enjoy talking about it. I don’t plan to share art every week. Some weeks I just want to discuss technique and such. Or share links to art that I found online and love. This gives me a platform that I am not wordless. I have lost my voice in the past and with it my power. I hate being powerless. Art is not about being powerless. Art is an expression of self. There is no greater power than being yourself. So, Let’s learn about art and share the journey of the artist together. Join me and share who you are as well.

Lyrics-
First, you’re on top of the world (a-ah)
And then that world just ended (a-ah)
You think you’re driving down the highway (a-ah)
But then you’re in the trenches (a-ah)
Butterflies are kinda nice, I guess
But my tummy hurts, I’m getting sick of it
Been bruised over, over again
So, you know what?
Screw feelings, I don’t want ’em any more
One second I’m on fire, then I’m bored
When I try them on, I end up insecure
Screw feelings, screw feelings (you know what?)
Screw feelings, I don’t want ’em any more
One second I’m on fire, then I’m bored
I just took ’em off and throw ’em on the floor
Screw feelings, screw feelings
Scared of the day it hits me (a-ah)
A baseball bat to my heart (a-ah)
Butterflies are kinda nice, I guess
But my tummy hurts, I’m getting sick of it
Been bruised over, over again
So, you know what?
Screw feelings, I don’t want ’em any more (any more)
One second I’m on fire, then I’m bored (then I’m bored)
When I try them on, I end up insecure
Screw feelings, screw feelings (you know what?)
Screw feelings, I don’t want ’em any more
One second I’m on fire, then I’m bored
I just took ’em off and throw ’em on the floor
Screw feelings, screw feelings
Screw feelings (yeah)
Screw feelings (yeah)
Screw feelings (yeah)
You know what?
Screw feelings (yeah)
Screw feelings (yeah)
Screw feelings (yeah)
You know what?
A-ah, a-ah, a-ah (yeah, a-ah)
A-ah, a-ah, a-ah (yeah, a-ah)
You know what?
I feel like this song
A-ah, a-ah, a-ah (yeah, a-ah)
A-ah, a-ah, a-ah (yeah, a-ah)
Yeah!
My 2 Cents-
The Last few months have just been hard. This song’s message is easily heard and it is a fun video. We have to feel things, it is in the human condition, but that does not mean we have to like what we are feeling. Today, Screw feelings.

So I haven’t been around. Not surprised if you noticed. There has been a lot of activity in my life. Changes that have caught me by the throat. I don’t plan on bleeding those changes all over my blog, it would just open wounds that are starting to close. However, I am going to still be on hiatus a short while longer. It started with a nasty bout of bronchitis and then some nasty emotional baggage. I am slowly unpacking the baggage and starting to put things away. I think I will give myself grace through the month of December and start 2022 fresh. I need this time to deal with the mess that I got myself into. This time of year often ends me up with an emotional downside that I have been at a loss to prevent.
For me that means I will continue to work on myself and the issues that have arisen in my life. For you it merely means I am asking for patience. January will see more poetry, art, and discussion of the foibles of life that my blog has come to present on a regular basis. I thank you for the patience and I wish you all the best of holidays.

Ok, I am sure in this day and age, you have seen on social media and other sites about self care. Whether you think that it affects you, or not, it really does. Not just those who are affected by illness have issues with self care, and the importance it has on life.
We can get busy in life, and there are factors that assist in making this worse. The four listed on the picture are the ones that should happen every day. Add in exercise for a good self care, but if you miss that occasionally, you will not die. These four on the picture are life threatening if you miss them…
Now I can see the look as you glance over the list. Missing a shower doesn’t seem life threatening, heck people do all of the time and survive. But I am talking about quality of life too. Let’s look at each point individually.
I would recommend that you also, preferably before the shower, at least go for a small walk. It helps to get the body working properly to do at least some exercise daily.
This is good for everyone, but those of us with illness (chronic or mental) sometimes find just doing the self care checklist hard. And that is OK, as long as you do what you can. Keep in mind that this isn’t just a thing so that we are able to be socially acceptable… It is something that can be life threatening. Please do take care of you.
*I wrote this a while back. I am not sure if I ever posted it here. This was a busy weekend and I felt the need to do some self care myself, so I decided to use it for my Monday post. I am hoping to post poetry later this week.

The week has started badly with my laptop dying. I have lost a few files (Google drive back up got a lot of it…) And I am just over it. Forgive me please for the lack of update that is likely to be this week. I will be trying to get it handled, but I am going to take a couple of days getting the desktop computer that was not prepared for the writing and publishing set up. Then I will try to get it back on the proper track. I will squeeze the grief for the part of my soul that was attached to the dead laptop later.
Lost Within by Fivefold
Crawl out of the hole you’re in
Who you are is not who you’ve been
Now’s the time to sink or swim
Will you fight the tide or get lost within
And I know you’re feeling low
Feel like you’ve lost control
But the darkness that you know
It’s not your home and you’re not alone
And all you’ve wanted was just so much more
This world has taken ahold
Don’t let ’em get your soul
The silence
You feel it cold as a winter storm
This world has taken ahold
Don’t let ’em get your soul
Iron bars are hell to break
Tell me now, do you know what’s at stake?
Your whole life in a blank stare haze
You walk around like the end of days
And I know you’re feeling low
Feel like you’ve lost control
But the darkness that you know
It’s not your home and you’re not alone
And all you’ve wanted was just so much more
This world has taken ahold
Don’t let ’em get your soul
The silence
You feel it cold as a winter storm
This world has taken ahold
Don’t let ’em get your soul
I’m callin’ out to you
Can you hear me?
They can’t break you down
Let you hit the ground
I promise you it won’t be long (Won’t be long)
You’re feeling overwhelmed here
Drowned by the pain and the fear
The sun will come with the dawn
All you’ve wanted was just so much more
This world has taken ahold
Don’t let ’em get your soul
The silence
You feel it cold as a winter storm
This world has taken ahold
Don’t let ’em get your soul…
Get your soul…
My 2Cents –
Though this song sounds like it is about being depressed, And it most certainly is, I feel like it is about picking yourself back up when you are depressed. I have been here, and it feels impossible. then it doesn’t. Somehow you just survive, and you don’t know how you did it. but you did.