Category: family

Feeling like I did Something

Well…I finished writing Queer Verbage which will not release until April…it seems so far away…but it is one less thing I have hanging over me. I can do the formatting and get the stuff done for publishing.
I cannot explain why the need to finish it was so strong, but having it done is a weight off. Now I have Tears of the Broken, Dream Drops, Fighting Ignorance, Ocular Dystopia, Occult Madness in progress for me and Chasing Ghosts for Serena.
When I mentioned to my Daughter how I felt like I was struggling with it, she said I was pushing too hard. She said that if I worked any harder she would never get to see me. Sorry, she comes first there. But it did make me wonder…what is the right amount? I try to write as I feel the urge, but I also try to set a daily goal so I actually get forward progress on more than just the poetry volumes…because I tend to get easily distracted from my stories. I am aware there is a discipline to this…and I am a child of chaos.
So where is the happy medium for me? That is something I am going to be working with over the next few weeks. I need to set me a workable time schedule for writing and work that I can stick to…or at least attempt to. Let’s see how that goes?

Wild Wednesday

I was searching for the theme…

I wanted Halloween Music. I came across this List.

I love it. When I had searched for the same sort of thing on Movies…Well I found I was disappointed in the list. Scary movies most of these are not…at least not to me.
Boyfriend says I am desensitized.

He might be right. I was reading horror books back in elementary school – like real ones. Steven King and the like. My parents did not limit what I read. (I was reading College level by time I hit 4th grade.)

I remember being scared by some really well written stories.

And My imagination is far richer than most movies.

So, I end up being disappointed by the movies because they can not live up to the full richness of the stories in my head. I get people who get mad at me when I say that I am not a video person…because the shows rarely are worth the time I have to spend away from my books.

And I have no way to explain that without sounding strange. I love music. I love books. Movies and television however often disappoints.

Old radio programs and Theater shows are amazing however…

Drawtober

Day 12 prompt (my daughter asked me to draw a chibi her) I am terrible at chibi. The bottom is the first one I drew. The second one is more “chibi” and honestly looks more like her.

Drawtober

Day 11 I revisited the moth prompt at my daughter’s request for the fuzzy moth

Wild Wednesday

I am a certifiable board game geek.

I love all sorts. Today I am going to introduce you to one of my favorites.

Give me the Brain. You pay $4 get a pdf and print some cards. it’s neat as all get out. this is how I did it. The game is so fun. the concept is you are zombies running a restaurant. There is one brain between you. Some tasks require the brain to do. some don’t. The winner is the one who ends up with no cards.

There is a version of cards already made on Amazon…But I like my printed cards best. We went and had them laminated. Found a fake brain at the dollar tree that we keep with it and a six sided dice. (You need the dice) It has been hours of fun for us.

A single game usually takes around 15-20 minutes to play and can be anywhere from 2-10 players with no problems. The flavor text on the cards are a source of humor…and it really is good clean family friendly fun. (we got the deck when my daughter was around six. She loves it.)

Poetry Marathon Hour Six

I didn’t use the prompt. We had a pet die this morning and I chose to instead use my hour six poem to write about the chicken.

Nugget 

You were sweet and onery

Quick to escape and a little bit of fun.

We are sorry to see you go

You started out one of the most mean

Of the litter we received,,

But you mellowed quickly.

We named her nugget because

She was onery and quick witted,

Damn it nugget was often heard…

Now we say that for the tears

Cried because we miss you.

Your funeral pyre was glorious

Go ahead, show the gods

You are magnificent!

Artsy Fartsy Thursday

I drew a ghosty. My daughter said the ghost needed a teddy. so…updated.

Smile…

For the ones that follow me on Facebook, I just changed my profile picture back to this one. It is a good picture, in my opinion. But I had a good friend tell me I should smile more… I am far prettier when I smile…. well I am smiling in this picture. But it doesn’t reach my eyes. Because I was nervous when I took the picture, the smile is a plastic thing. Forced for the picture. My grandma Ethel used to tell me that she hated my pictures because the smile never reached my eyes. This picture fits that discription.

I don’t want to be pretty. I don’t care if anyone sees me as such. However it was bugging me that she said that I should smile, as I was smiling. That is when I remembered what Grandma said. I still think it’s a good picture. I feel like I am androgynous in it. Which I love. I don’t really understand a lot about gender and the binary of it. But I don’t have to. I can be comfortable with myself and not really understand what I am.

Fun new toy

My sister just brought me a new toy for my art. This is going to take me a few days to get it hooked up to play with. (Especially when I have my computer in a state of disarray) Still I am so excited and wanted to share this news with y’all.

Memorial Day

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My great grandparents are buried in Arlington National Cemetery. My Great Grandfather was one of Black Jack Pershing’s Own. My family is filled with many who served. Today in America we honor those who served and are gone. (Veteran’s Day is for the living, Memorial Day is for the dead.) Today…I remember my Great Grandparents.