Oh, oh Oh, oh I should be living the dream But I’m livin’ with a security team And that ain’t gonna change, no I got a paranoia in me And you wouldn’t believe Everything that I seen, no Comin’ apart at the seams And no one around me knows Who I am, what I’m on Who I’ve hurt and where they’ve gone I know that I’ve done some wrong But I’m tryna make it right To the one I love, paint me wrong Give me a light now (Oh-oh) You know that I love you But I’m still learnin’ to love myself (To love my, to love my, to love my) I’m still learnin’ to love myself (To love my, to love my, to love my) Yeah, yeahI should be livin’ the dream But I go home and I got no self-esteem (No) You think I’m swimmin’ in green But it’s passed around my family tree No man wants to really commit Intimidated ’cause I get paid and shit In the crowd, you’re readin’ my lips But no one around me knows Who I am, what I’m on Who I’ve hurt and where they’ve gone I know that I’ve done some wrong But I’m tryna make it right The same mistakes on and on To all my friends, I’m sorry for You know that I love you But I’m still learnin’ (I’m still learnin’) to love myself (To love my, to love my, to love my) Yeah, yeah I’m still learnin’ (I’m still learnin’) to love myself (To love myself) (To love my, to love my, to love my) Yeah, yeah (Oh, oh) Oh, I try and I try to remember sometimes If I breathe, it’s alright, but some things don’t change I’m still learnin’ (I’m still learnin’) to love myself (To love myself) (To love my, to love my, to love myself) Who I am, what I’m on Who I’ve hurt and where they’ve gone I know that I’ve done some wrong But I’m tryna make it right To the one I love, paint me wrong Give me a light now (To the ones I love) To the ones I love I’m still learnin’ to love myself (To love my, to love my, to love my) Yeah, yeah I’m still learnin’ (I’m still learnin’) to love myself (To love myself) (To love my, to love my, to love my, ooh) And I try and I try to remember sometimes If I breathe, it’s alright, but some things don’t change I’m still learnin’ (I’m still learnin’) to love myself (Love myself) To love myself I’m still learnin’ to love myself
My 2 Cents – I find it so easy to love everyone else. I struggle to love myself. I see too easily the flaws. So forgive me if I take a few…I’m Still Learning to love myself…
Please, forgive me, I’ve got demons in my head There’s something in the water I don’t like the flavour, I don’t like the taste Searching for nirvana Something that’ll take it all away from me Don’t bother me, my misery It’s holding me Won’t let me speak Please, forgive me, I’ve got demons in my head (in my head) Please, forgive me, I’ve got demons in my head Tryna eat me, tryna feed me lies until I’m dead (’til I’m dead) Please, forgive me, I’ve got demons in my head (in my head) It’s creeping in, it’s gonna get me by the end of the night I’m sinking deeper, still I’m reaching for the end of the light Burning in the lava You can’t go and pray this type of pain away Don’t bother me, my misery It’s holding me Won’t let me speak Please, forgive me, I’ve got demons in my head (in my head) Please, forgive me, I’ve got demons in my head Tryna eat me, tryna feed me lies until I’m dead (’til I’m dead) Please, forgive me, I’ve got demons in my head (oh, head!)I feel like I can’t breathe I feel like I can’t sleep How did I not see? I’m unwell I feel like I can’t breathe I feel like I can’t sleep How did I not see? I’m unwell Please, forgive me, I’ve got demons in my head (in my head) Please, forgive me, I’ve got demons in my head (oh, head!) Please, forgive me, I’ve got demons in my head (in my head) Please, forgive me, I’ve got demons in my head Tryna eat me, tryna feed me lies until I’m dead (’til I’m dead) Please, forgive me, I’ve got demons in my head (oh, head!)In my head Please, forgive me, I’ve got demons in my head (in my head) Please, forgive me, I’ve got demons in my head
My 2 Cents- Ok…. I am behind on Loki. Just got to watch episodes 3 & 4 this weekend. (Me and a couple of friends are watching it together. This song began episode 3 and I just had to look it up. The lyrics feel, much like many of my favorite songs, like someone is watching my life too closely. The best songs always feel like they rip your heart out. You can understand it far better than you really want to. What song tears you apart?
Lyrics – [Verse 1] Thought I’d bite my tongue Just this once, maybe twice, but the harder I bite Now it’s drawing blood There’s a trace on my lips, leaves a taste when we kiss Try to cover up All of the lies and all of the lines that I Bottle up To keep you safe and sound
[Pre-Chorus] But echoes of warnings Like whispers of morning, like It creeping through cracks in my memory It’d make me lose my mind
[Chorus] But every time I close my eyes It’s calling in like a siren Threatening to comе alive Unless I pay the pricе, yeah But if my heart is right this time And I can finally bear my secrets Maybe you won’t run and hide But love the monster inside me
[Verse 2] Maybe all the love Is a switch that we flip when we’re losing our grip And it’s close enough Taking good with the pain, go a little insane All we really want Is someone to hold until we grow old And no matter what (No matter) Can’t be scared away
[Pre-Chorus] Echoes of warnings Like whispers of morning, like It creeping through cracks in my memory It’d make me lose my mind
[Chorus] But every time I close my eyes It’s calling in like a siren Threatening to come alive Unless I pay the price, yeah But if my heart is right this time And I can finally bear my secrets Maybe you won’t run and hide But love the monster inside me [Bridge] Beauty in the chaos, all that’s left to save us Now Beauty in the chaos, all that’s left to save us Now Beauty in the chaos, all that’s left to save us Now Echoes of warnings like Beauty in the chaos, all that’s left to save us now Echoes of warnings like Beauty in the chaos, all that’s left to save us now
[Chorus] But every time I close my eyes It’s calling in like a siren Threatening to come alive Unless I pay the price, yeah But every time I close my eyes It’s calling in like a siren Threatening to come alive Unless I pay the price, yeah But if my heart is right this time And I can finally bear my secrets Maybe you won’t run and hide But love the monster inside me
My 2 Cents – I have always fought the stigma of my mental health. I am a survivor. That being said, sometimes the labels are easier to fight than others. Now I am trying to help my teenager fight them. She wants to write horror. She is into the creepy and dark. When she told her therapist that (New therapist) the therapist tried to claim that she was homicidal. She doesn’t want to hurt anyone. She is a gentle soul with a rich imagination. She wants to write dark stories so she is apparently Homicidal. I raised all kinds of hell with the office. The supervisor talked to my daughter and agreed that the therapist was way off base. So I am left with a wonderful beginning writer who is struggling because of labels. Seems to me that the world wants to label madness too easily and the monsters that truly exist are allowed too much leeway. so today at least I think I love the monster inside me and will revel in the beauty in chaos.
Lyrics- “L’il Red Riding Hood” (originally by Sam The Sham And The Pharaohs)
Hey there little red riding hood You sure are looking good You’re everything a big bad wolf could want
Little red riding hood I don’t think little big girls should Go walking in these spooky old woods alone
What big eyes you have The kind of eyes that drive wolves mad Just to see that you don’t get chased I think I oughta walk with you for a ways
What full lips you have They’re sure to lure someone bad So until you get to Grandma’s place I think you oughta walk with me and be safe
Gonna keep my sheep suit on ‘Til I’m sure that you’ve been shown That I can be trusted walking with you alone
Little red riding hood I’d like to hold you if I could But you might think I’m a big bad wolf so I won’t
What a big heart I have The better to love you with Little red riding hood Even bad wolves can be good
I try to keep satisfied Just to walk close by your side Maybe you’ll see things my way ‘Fore we get to Grandma’s place
Little red riding hood You sure are looking good You’re everything a big bad wolf could want
Little red riding hood I don’t think little big girls should Go walking in these spooky old woods alone
What big eyes you have The kind of eyes that drive wolves mad Just to see that you don’t get chased I think I oughta walk with you for a ways
What full lips you have They’re sure to lure someone bad So until you get to Grandma’s place I think you oughta walk with me and be safe
My 2 Cents- I know I have posted the song before. It is a favorite of mine. I felt like it is whimsical enough to bring a smile. I want to create smiles.
Lyrics How can you see into my eyes, like open doors Leading you down into my core Where I’ve become so numb Without a soul My spirit’s sleeping somewhere cold Until you find it there and lead it back home Wake me up inside (save me) Call my name and save me from the dark (wake me up) Bid my blood to run (I can’t wake up) Before I come undone (save me) Save me from the nothing I’ve become Now that I know what I’m without You can’t just leave me Breathe into me and make me real Bring me to life Wake me up inside (save me) Call my name and save me from the dark (wake me up) Bid my blood to run (I can’t wake up) Before I come undone (save me) Save me from the nothing I’ve become Bring me to life I’ve been living a lie There’s nothing inside Bring me to life Frozen inside without your touch Without your love, darling Only you are the life among the dead All this time, I can’t believe I couldn’t see Kept in the dark, but you were there in front of me I’ve been sleeping a thousand years it seems I’ve got to open my eyes to everything Without a thought, without a voice, without a soul Don’t let me die here There must be something wrong, bring me to life Wake me up inside (save me) Call my name and save me from the dark (wake me up) Bid my blood to run (I can’t wake up) Before I come undone (save me) Save me from the nothing I’ve become Bring me to life I’ve been living a lie There’s nothing inside Bring me to life
My Two Cents I think that we have a part of us that questions if we even have a reason to go on. Not meaning die, but just change who we have become. A reason to be more. The person the song is talking to could be anyone, but I half wonder if she is not begging herself. Just wishing for a chance to become something more.