Hello my lovely readers. Today I have a nice cold green tea, how about you? I hope this finds you all keeping cool in this heat.
I have very few announcements but I figured I would update you all as I could.
One, we are diligently working at Fae Corps to get the Into the Glen anthologies out. Those should be out in August, As well as the Poetry book by the Lovely Beulah Vega, A Saga For the Unrequited. I am quite busy trying to get both together and will post links as soon as I have them.
I am supposed to be in Indie Blu(e)’s upcoming anthology But You Don’t Look Sick with a bit of Poetry…again links upcoming.
My resin art is for sale on my Facebook page. I am taking commissions. If you are interested in what I can make I have posted a album full of the molds I own on my personal Facebook. It is public, as not much is.
I have added a new thing for Fridays to try to bring more fun to my blog. I will start it tomorrow. Let me know what you think.
I have been adding my art to Deviant art (the link is on the side). I have also been trying to do recordings to make mine and Serena’s Books into Audiobooks. So the occasional poetry reading is going up on YouTube in the meantime.
So, that is all of mine…what are you doing for the summer? Any fun plans?
Those who follow me probably noticed that I have been awol for a few days – nearly two weeks… That is because I went on a vacation. I visited my parents, my brother, and my son and his youngest son. The poem in the picture is one that I wrote as a child and my dad held onto. Next week I will be back to posting, and I am hoping to be back on track… But I wanted to enjoy the family time, as it is a rare beast.
Lyrics – Hey, your glass is empty It’s a hell of a long way home Why don’t you let me take you? It’s no good to go alone I never would have opened up But you seemed so real to me And after all the bullshit I’ve heard Refreshing not to see That I don’t have to pretend She doesn’t expect it from me So, don’t tell me I Haven’t been good to you Don’t tell me I Have never been there for you Just tell me why Nothing is good enough Hey little girl, would you like some candy? Your Momma said it’s okay The door is open, come on outside No, I can’t come out today It’s not the wind that cracked your shoulder And threw you to the ground Who’s there that makes you so afraid? You’re shaken to the bone And no, I don’t understand You deserve so much more than this So, don’t tell me why He’s never been good to you Don’t tell me why He’s never been there for you Don’t you know that why It’s simply not good enough Oh, so just let me try I will be good to you Just let me try And I will be there for you I’ll show you why You’re so much more than Good enough So, don’t tell me why He’s never been good to you Don’t tell me why He’s never been there for you Don’t you know that why It’s simply not good enough Oh, so just let me try I will be good to you Just let me try And I will be there for you I’ll show you why You’re so much more than Good enough
My 2 cents – It’s Pride month Y’all. For those who don’t know, I am Pan sexual. I am Non Binary. And I will be posting more on that topic throughout June. For now, enjoy a great song, and here is a playlist that I made of Girlfriend songs.
Lyrics – I haven’t always been this way I wasn’t born a renegade I felt alone, still feel afraid I stumble through it anyway I wish someone would’ve told me that this life is ours to choose No one’s handing you the keys or a book with all the rules The little that I know I’ll tell to you When they dress you up in lies and you’re left naked with the truth You throw your head back And you spit in the wind Let the walls crack ‘Cause it lets the light in Let ’em drag you through hell They can’t tell you to change who you are (That’s all I know so far) And when the storm’s out You’ll run in the rain Put your sword down Dive right into the pain Stay unfiltered and loud You’ll be proud of that skin full of scars That’s all I know so far That’s all I know so far So you might give yourself away, yeah And pay full price for each mistake But when the candy coating hides the razor blade You can cut yourself loose and use that rage I wish someone would’ve told me that this darkness comes and goes People will pretend but, baby girl, nobody knows And even I can’t teach you how to fly But I can show you how to live like your life is on the line You throw your head back And you spit in the wind Let the walls crack ‘Cause it lets the light in Let ’em drag you through hell They can’t tell you to change who you are (That’s all I know so far) And when the storm’s out You’ll run in the rain Put your sword down Dive right into the pain Stay unfiltered and loud You’ll be proud of that skin full of scars That’s all I know so far That’s all I know, that’s all I know so far That’s all I know, that’s all I know so far That’s all I know, that’s all I know so far That’s all I know, that’s all I know so far I will be with you ’til the world blows up, yes Up and down and through ’til the world blows up, yeah When it’s right or it’s all fucked up ‘Til the world blows up, ’til the world blows up And we will be enough And until the world blows up Just throw your head back And spit in the wind Let the walls crack ‘Cause it lets the light in Let ’em drag you through hell They can’t tell you to change who you are And when the storm’s out You’ll run in the rain Put your sword down Dive right into the pain Stay unfiltered and loud You’ll be proud of that skin full of scars That’s all I know so far That’s all I know, that’s all I know so far That’s all I know, that’s all I know so far That’s all I know, that’s all I know so far That’s all I know, that’s all I know so far I will be with you ’til the world blows up, hm
My 2 cents – This speaks wonders about being a parent. My relationship with my mom has never been real close. She was busy working and I was busy fighting. So we never really clicked. I wanted better. So when my daughter was born I was determined to have better. I didn’t want a mini me. Mom kept telling me I was so much like her. I hated that because I felt so misunderstood. I did not want to make my baby feel like she had to be me. I wanted to let her make her own mistakes in life. I guided her and told her the truth about the mistakes I made. I stood with tears in my eyes watching the mistakes that she could have avoided. And She tells me that she is so much like me. I stand at her back and she is the best person she can be…and I will be there for her until my world ends.
I’ve seen people go under I’ve seen people move on But the voices getting louder Until there is none
They said I was special They said I could fight it I said it was painful I told them I’ll lose it
I wanna be special I wanna be you But I don’t belong here I see it in you
They said I was special They said I could fight it I said it was painful I told them I’ll lose it
They said I was special Yeah!
I’ve seen people in battle I’ve seen people give up But they’re all just like cattle They don’t know when to stop
I thought they were special I thought they all knew But they are just assholes They’re all just like you
I said it was painful I told them I’ll lose it
If you’re coming back home tonight I’ll be all long gone I’ll be all long gone [x2]
I thought it was easy I’ll be all long gone I’ll be all long gone [x2]
My 2 Cents- We all have those moments. where we feel left alone, like we are not as special. Each of us are individuals. It doesn’t always feel like it though. And to me this song speaks to that depression that gives us the mental gremlins telling us that we are not anything worth having. The gremlins lie.
Ok, I am sure in this day and age, you have seen on social media and other sites about self care. Whether you think that it affects you, or not, it really does. Not just those who are affected by illness have issues with self care, and the importance it has on life.
We can get busy in life, and there are factors that assist in making this worse. The four listed on the picture are the ones that should happen every day. Add in exercise for a good self care, but if you miss that occasionally, you will not die. These four on the picture are life threatening if you miss them…
Now I can see the look as you glance over the list. Missing a shower doesn’t seem life threatening, heck people do all of the time and survive. But I am talking about quality of life too. Let’s look at each point individually.
Eating – well the human body is designed to do amazing things, but it needs fuel. If you don’t eat then you will find the muscles and your brain start to malfunction. You will not be able to move or think as well as before. We are only able to live for one week without eating… And the body and mind both start to suffer after one day without food.
Hydration – we are mostly water. And as we move we use a portion of said fluid up. The human body can only go three days without drinking water… Mind you I said water. Sugary drinks such as cola will only add to dehydration, though they do taste good. As we dehydrate, our muscles cramp. Our mind clouds, making concentration harder. We get dizzy spells and start feeling light headed. (Though the last symptom is also true of lack of food.)
Sleep – in today’s fast paced environment, we tend to tell ourselves that sleep is not necessary. The problem is that the brain is an organic computer. If you fail to allow your computer to have a break, well it will end up crashing because the memory does not clear of what has been done. The brain is much the same. Sleep deprivation can cause so many side effects. Google it, it is an interesting read.
Showering – ok this one is not immediately lethal. There are diseases that are made worse by being unclean. This one is a lot more about making yourself feel better. A shower makes the body clean and often makes us feel a little bit more alive.
I would recommend that you also, preferably before the shower, at least go for a small walk. It helps to get the body working properly to do at least some exercise daily.
This is good for everyone, but those of us with illness (chronic or mental) sometimes find just doing the self care checklist hard. And that is OK, as long as you do what you can. Keep in mind that this isn’t just a thing so that we are able to be socially acceptable… It is something that can be life threatening. Please do take care of you.
*I wrote this a while back. I am not sure if I ever posted it here. This was a busy weekend and I felt the need to do some self care myself, so I decided to use it for my Monday post. I am hoping to post poetry later this week.
Lyrics – And I feel that time’s a-wasting, go So where ya going to tomorrow? And I see that these are lies to come So would you even care? And I feel it And I feel it Where ya going for tomorrow? Where ya goin’ with the mask I found And I feel, and I feel When the dogs begin to smell her Will she smell alone? And I feel, so much depends on the weather So is it raining in your bedroom? And I see, that these are the eyes of disarray Would you even care? And I feel it And she feels it Where ya going for tomorrow? Where ya goin’ with the mask I found? And I feel, and I feel When the dogs begin to smell her Will she smell alone? When the dogs do find her Got time, time, to wait for tomorrow To find it To find it To find it When the dogs do find her Got time, time, to wait for tomorrow To find it To find it To find it Where ya going for tomorrow? Where ya goin’ with the mask I found? And I feel, and I feel When the dogs begin to smell her Will she smell alone? When the dogs do find her Got time, time, to wait for tomorrow To find it To find it To find it When the dogs do find her Got time, time, to wait for tomorrow To find it To find it To find it To find it To find it To find it
My 2 Cents – This week has been crazy, on a personal level. I know that this song is about murder…but sometimes in order to become who we need to be, it feels like we kill parts of ourselves. I am struggling with decisions that may leave parts of me behind and I am not sure if it will allow me to continue my life as it is or if things will change. This song to me talks a lot of patience.
Well hello my lovelies. It has been a hot minute hasn’t it? I am drinking a touch of orangeade. I feel like the vitamin C can only help…What are you drinking?
Next week is going to be busy, for Fae Corps Inc and Serena Mossgraves. Faery Playground drops on May the first then Serena’s Madness and truth releases on the fifth. Both are very much worth the read.
Faery Playground is about faery children, but all of the stories are not fun and light. Actually the stories follow a range of dark and whimsical. One is straight out horror. The poetry and art seems to be lighter though.
Madness and Truth is a ghost story that follows an island through two stories. Two journals to be specific. From the view of Kiera Dunwillow, esteemed historian, to the view of a secretary for a ghost hunting group. The stories tell the history of the Isle of Truth, but do they add to the ghosts on the Island?
I have been working on illustrations for Afraid of Shoe Mountain, which I hope to release this year (date yet unknown.) Serena is back to writing, after putting Kingdoms of Sin on hiatus. She will return to it…one way or another it will be published. We are discussing whether it will be as a novel or as a Game book for running in a tabletop RPG. She is stuck.
I have struggled with the writing of poetry in April, as I have been overwhelmed with all of the other stuff that I had on my plate. I have been slowly lessening my stress…but I am still having responsibilities that are expected of me, and It is making it harder on me to catch up. However, I will get there, just be a little patient with me, I beg of you.
On a personal note, Today is My mommy’s birthday. Happy Birthday MOM!!!!
The week has started badly with my laptop dying. I have lost a few files (Google drive back up got a lot of it…) And I am just over it. Forgive me please for the lack of update that is likely to be this week. I will be trying to get it handled, but I am going to take a couple of days getting the desktop computer that was not prepared for the writing and publishing set up. Then I will try to get it back on the proper track. I will squeeze the grief for the part of my soul that was attached to the dead laptop later.
Pattimouse 