So, I have said that my family is falling apart.

In some ways it has been doing that for a while now. My Boyfriend and my youngest child have finally decided that they cannot stand each other. Father and child have reached the point where the child has grown and has been for a few years but the father could not see it. There are other factors…but this is the gist of my current situation.

The child called my parents to generally see about getting advice/help. And left out context. So my parents were worried. My father decided that he needed to scream at me. So I am stepping back from contact there.

My eldest is having family issues of his own. Nothing that I can help with, Though I ache for the pain he is feeling.

So, I am struggling with the ties that family bring. I am about to have an empty nest as my youngest child is looking at moving out. Which is not a bad thing for them, but I will miss seeing them most days. While they do not get along with their father, We are close.

I don’t know how the next few months are going to be for me mentally. I am trying to look at the brighter side of this.

My studio will be moved inside to my child’s former room. This means I will have electricity in my studio. (The current one does not have electric, which means I am limited on the time I can be in it.)

My Boyfriend’s room will be moved downstairs. That means My bedroom can be moved into his current room. My current bedroom will be turned into a full office space for me. Allowing me to have more space. The Bathroom upstairs is in his room. So I will have an easier access to the bathroom in the middle of the night.

I will be able to have time with my child without the normal irritation that comes from the interaction they have with their father. I am just going to have to drive to them. Perhaps that is going to be a minor vacation once a month. I am planning to spend the weekend once a month at their house…so I may end up having a late blog one week out of the month. Though I don’t Know. If I can gather a laptop that might not be a thing.