Sigh.
I Didn’t know what to talk about. In some ways it was better that way.
Recently, I sent a text to a friend.
He saw that text as an attack, and started to call me a liar. So I lashed out.
I apologized. Then I told him why I said what I did. I told him I felt like I was owed an apology as well. He said he was defending himself and would not apologize for it.
The problem is… I am seeing a six on the ground, and he is seeing a nine. Neither of us are wrong. He felt attacked. Though I was not attacking him, his feelings are valid. But in feeling attacked…He reacted. I then was hurt because he was attacking me…and I reacted. My apology was genuine. I honestly should not have said what I did. It was because he often calls me a liar – I don’t lie. He seems to think that because I am female it is a default…That I am going to always lie. I regret reacting…But I find myself questioning why I am putting myself in the position that this is even an issue.
I think I need new friends.
Because these make me cry. And I am damn tired of crying over people that don’t care.
Pattimouse 
People who will not give you the benefit of the doubt when you give it to them make poor friends.
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The only problem is that they have been thusly for most of my life now. And I have so few people in my life.
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I know well what you mean. I have to remind myself some times to celebrate quality over quantity.
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Sometimes, people take offense, in what they hear us say, and, mistaken our words as, insulting, and, they react by, calling us out for it, and, we feel we need to, defend our points of view, and, it goes back and forth, back and forth, and, it never, ends, but, maybe, you just, need to, not try so hard to, explain yourself, because, the more you try to explain, the more the person will, take it, the wrong way, so, the best thing you can do, is, just, stop contact altogether, and, if, as the both of you had, “cooled down” and, feel that you want to, reconnect again, then, you, will start your friendship anew, and, if you don’t, then, it means, that, you two weren’t, as connected as you thought you were, so, you’d, learned something, so, that’s still, a good thing. You’d not lost a “friend”, you had, gained, a little more, understanding of the person you are, and, who the other person, is.
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That makes sense.
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I’m sorry.
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