Month: August 2019
I Hurt Myself Today…
Please be kind to yourselves.
No, it’s not what you’re probably thinking…
I hurt myself today
To see if I still feel
I focus on the pain
The only thing that’s real— Johnny Cash
I totally let myself get worked up over something that really isn’t a big deal. I had a meltdown. I cried just enough to make it hard to sleep (not that I generally sleep at “normal” times, anyway). You know the feeling, dull headache and burning eyes to match. And for WHAT?
A small but necessary change in my schedule gave me a mental nuclear meltdown. The thing I got upset about even feels dumb to me in retrospect (which, I’m sure, is going to be a topic of conversation with my therapist this afternoon).
I did, however, have…
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Prompts
I.)
If you could live in any place or time (or both) where/when would it be?
II.)
You stumbled and fell into a hole in the ground. You find yourself in a new time /place(the one from the question above). You are alone with nothing more than what is usually in your pockets /purse. What are you going to do? Where will you go?
III. )
Would you seek to return home? And why? Is it something or someone you want to return to?
IV. )
Lastly, what sort of adventure will it take to return home? What adventure if you stay? What changes will your presence cause in the timeline?
Good writing! 😍
Tech Thursday
Ok. I have stated before that I use my phone for everything. I have a computer, it is a little outdated and slow, but I do have a system. Though I love computers, I rarely use mine. Why, you ask? Simple. I despise Windows 10. I ended up with a crappy copy of Ubuntu Linux… And I just got frustrated. So when I got this system I left windows alone. I prefer open source programs. In the first days of my owning computers I was rigid. I had to get certain programs, and there was no substitutes. Since I have found an open source for all of what I need to do.
With my system having windows 10 on it… I only used it for layout. It was painful to work on. Tonight I was given access to Linux Mint. I am looking forward to exploring the new os. Yes, I still have a program that requires Windows. Kindle Create by Amazon. It is their layout application. However, Linux has a few windows emulation programs. This allows me to work with the programs that are only found in windows.
So, I am setting up my system tonight. This includes installation of the os, searching for the programs that I need, customizing settings and appearance, and enjoying the “new computer smell” of it all.
So, tell me, what is your os of choice?
Webcomics Wednesday
Ok… This is a segment that I have been considering. I used to follow hundreds of webcomics. I have gotten behind due to the small screen I am most often working with. It makes checking the pages more difficult. Add in chaos… And I am far behind. I want to change that.
Some of my favorite comics have ended. And I have been needing to update the links. I follow quite a few comic creators on social media. I find them to be fairly interesting people. Well one of my absolute favorite comics is being continued again.
The artist moved on to another comic. He has grown since the first part of his comic. I used to check in daily. He is still one of my favorite creators. His stories are amazing.
I asked if he was only going to update past the summer. He said that he intends to continue on until further notice. I am so excited! He is doing a m/w/f update schedule. His current continuation is called The Legacy of Dominic Deegan. Help me show him that his work is truly appreciated.
What is your own favorite webcomic? And why?
Wordless Wednesday
Quicksilver poetry
©2019 Patricia Harris
Someone said that war is Hell…
And for them it may be true,
For me, I think that I see
Hell so much differently.
Hell is being locked within,
Hearing your memories
Stuck on repeat again and again.
Hell is trying to reach out
For sanity, for comfort,
And realizing that those
That you love do not care
About your hurt.
Hell is mostly repetition,
The same pain and the same joys
With no end in sight.
Nothing to grow from,
No new light.
The devil ruling hell
Is a true beast,
He is your own mind
Stuck again in rewind.
Playlist abuse
*Tw- please don’t listen to any of these songs if you are in a bad place.
Due to the nature of these I am not going to do links. This is by no means all of the songs of this nature, feel free to comment any that I have missed.
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“25 Years”, by Pantera
“13 ‘N Good”, by Boogie Down Productions & KRS-One
A
“Aawaz – Speak Up Against Sexual Violence”, by Jim Ankan Deka
“Adam Raised a Cain”, by Bruce Springsteen
“Alive”, by Pearl Jam
“All Day Long” , by New Order
“Alyssa Lies”, by Jason Michael Carroll
“Amelia”, by The Mission
“Anger Rising”, by Jerry Cantrell
“Ask Me”, by Amy Grant
“Apollo”, by Hardwell
“A Gunshot to the Head of Trepidation, by Trivium
“Angels” by Within Temptation
B
“Bachpan”, by Rameez Khalid
“Baby’s Romance”, by Chris Garneau
“Bad Wisdom”, by Suzanne Vega
“Ballerina”, by Nicole 12
“Because of You”, by Kelly Clarkson
“Black”, by Okkervil River
“Bang my Head against the Wall”, by Sia
“Blown Away”, by Carrie Underwood
“The Blue Flashing Light”, by Travis
“Broken Angel”, by Boyce Avenue
“Broken Girl”, by Matthew West
“Brisbane Hotel Sutra”, by The Mountain Goats
“Break The Chain (One-Billion Rising)”, by V-day
“Broom People”, by The Mountain Goats
“Beer Bottles”, by Arek Mahaga Bryant
“Bottle Dreams”, by Eyedea
“Barbarism Begins at Home”, by The Smiths
C
“Camisado”, by Panic! at the Disco
“Candles”, by Daughter
“Candyman”, by Siouxsie and the Banshees
“Carnival”, by Natalie Merchant
“Castle on a Cloud”, from Les Misérables
“Child Called ‘It'”, by Buckcherry
“Children Of The Night”, by Richard Marx
“Concrete Angel”, by Martina McBride
“Confessions of a Broken Heart”, by Lindsay Lohan
“Cleanin’ Out My Closet”, by Eminem
“Cleaning Out My Closet”, by Angel Haze
“Clown”, by Korn
“Cradle”, by Mudvayne
“Convex, Concave”, by Biffy Clyro
“Cousin Kevin”, by The Who
D
“Daddy”, by Korn
“Daddy didn’t love me”, by Andrew Jackson Jihad
“Dance Music”, by The Mountain Goats
“Damaged”, by Plumb
“Daughter”, by Pearl Jam
“Day Six: Childhood”, by Ayreon
“Down with the Sickness”, by Disturbed
“Drunk Daddy”, by the Cherry Poppin’ Daddies
“Disarm”, by Smashing Pumpkins
“Dead Babies”, by Alice Cooper
“Devil in a Midnight Mass”, by Billy Talent
“Don’t Let Daddy Kiss Me”, by Motörhead
“Daddy’s Girl”, by Scorpions
“Dear Mr. Jesus”, by PowerSource
“Dirty Night Clowns”, by Chris Garneau
“Dollhouse”, by Melanie Martinez
E
“Enough’s Enough”, by Alice Cooper
“Eva”, by Nightwish
“End Of Me”, by A Day To Remember
“Evidence”, by Tara MacLean
“Everyone’s Gone to the Movies”, by Steely Dan
“Expose Yourself to Kids”, by GG Allin
F
“Face Down”, by The Red Jumpsuit Apparatus
“Facade” by Disturbed
“Falling Away from Me”, by Korn
“Family Portrait”, by P!nk
“Family Tree”, by Megadeth
“Father”, by LL Cool J
“Father”, by The Front Bottoms
“Family Portrait ” by Pink
“Fee Fi Fo”, by The Cranberries
“Fiddle About”, by The Who
“Fire On Babylon”, by Sinéad O’Connor
“Five”, by Machine Head
“For Adrian (Many Years Ago)”, by Jim White
“For The Love of a Daughter”, by Demi Lovato
“For You”, by Staind
“From Daughter to Father”, by Secret Scapegoats
“Fistful Of Love” By Antony And The Johnsons
G
“God Gave Us Life”, by Half Man Half Biscuit
“God Has a Plan for Us All”, by Angtoria
“Gunpowder & Lead” by Miranda Lambert
“Goodbye Earl” by the Dixie chicks
H
“Hast Thou Considered the Tetrapod”, by The Mountain Goats
“The Day the Aliens Came (Hawaiian Feeling)”, by The Mountain Goats
“He”, by Jars of Clay
“Hell Is for Children”, by Pat Benatar
“Hello” by Evanescence
“He Hit Me (It Felt Like A Kiss)” by the crystals
“Hero”, by Superchick
“His Daughter”, by Molly Kate Kestner
“Holy Water”, by Big & Rich
“Howard’s Tale”, by Sick Puppies
“Homeless”, by Marina Kaye
“Hopeful”, by Bars and Melody
“Harvester of Sorrow”, by Metallica
“How Could You Leave Us”, by NF
“The Hush”, by Hellyeah
“His Daughter” by Molly Kate Kestner
I
“I am One of Them”, by Aly & AJ
“I Have a Right” by Sonata Arctica
“Innocence”, by Seventh Day Slumber
“Independence Day” by Martina McBride
“In Harm’s Way”, by Metal Church
“In Your Care”, by Tasmin Archer
“In the Night”, by The Weeknd
“Insane”, by Eminem
“I’m OK”, by Christina Aguilera
“I’ll Pay You to Shoot Him”, by Megan McCauley
“In a Darkened Room”, by Skid Row
“I’m a Boy”, by The Who
“I Left My Heart in Papworth General”, by Half Man Half Biscuit
J
“Janie’s Got a Gun”, by Aerosmith
“Jordan, Minnesota”, by Big Black
“Just Like You”, by Three Days Grace
“Just Because of What You Did”, by Secret Scapegoats
K
“Kristy, Are You Doing Okay?”, by The Offspring
“K.Y.A.” by Flotsam and Jetsam
L
“La La La”, by Naughty Boy
“Leave the Light On”, by Beth Hart
“The Little Girl”, by John Michael Montgomery
“Little House”, by The Fray
“Little Toy Guns”, by Carrie Underwood
“Lion’s Teeth”, by The Mountain Goats
“Love – Suicide”, by Monster KID
“Luka”, by Suzanne Vega
“Let You Down”, by NF
“Little Susie”, by Michael Jackson
L
“La La La”, by Naughty Boy
“Leave the Light On”, by Beth Hart
“The Little Girl”, by John Michael Montgomery
“Little House”, by The Fray
“Little Toy Guns”, by Carrie Underwood
“Lion’s Teeth”, by The Mountain Goats
“Love – Suicide”, by Monster KID
“Luka”, by Suzanne Vega
“Let You Down”, by NF
“Little Susie”, by Michael Jackson
M
“Magdalena”, by Frank Zappa and the Mothers
“Mansion”, by NF
“Millie Pulled a Pistol on Santa/Keepin’ the Faith”, by De La Soul
“Missed Me”, by The Dresden Dolls
“My Mom”, by Eminem
“Me and Little Andy”, by Dolly Parton
“Mommy”, by Mushroomhead
“Mr. Tinkertrain”, by Ozzy Osbourne
“My Decision”, by Eric Himan
“A Million Men”, by Melanie Martinez
“My Skin” by Natalie Merchant
N
“Never Again”, by Nickelback
“Never Too Late”, by Three Days Grace
“No Place Like Home”, by Mesh
“No Son of Mine”, by Genesis
“Nowhere To Stand”, by k.d. lang
“Numb”, by Linkin Park
O
“Open Wounds”, by Skillet
“Oh, Father”, by Madonna
“Oh, Mother”, by Christina Aguilera
“Outside Of That” by Bessie Smith
“One and Only”, by The Young Dubliners
“Ohio”, by Jacob Whitesides
“One Last Breath”, by Creed
P
“Pale Green Things”, by The Mountain Goats
“Papa”, by Prince
“Petals”, by Mariah Carey
“Points of Authority”, by Linkin Park
“Perfect ” by simple plan
“Polly”, by Nirvana
“Pretty”, by Korn
“Prison Sex”, by Tool
“Pushit”, by Tool
“Praying” by Ke$ha
Q
“A Question of Time”, by Depeche Mode
“A Quick One, While He’s Away”, by The Who
R
“Razor Blade”, by Blue October
“Remember Everything”, by Five Finger Death Punch
“Runaway Love”, by Ludacris
“Runaway Train”, by Soul Asylum
“Rusted from the Rain” by Billy Talent
S
“Saturday”, by Hedley
“Sandy Fishnets”, by Evelyn Evelyn
“Shine”, by Cold
“Show Me the Way”, by Styx
“Sleep”, by Stabbing Westward
“Sleep Like a Baby Tonight” , by U2
“Slide”, by The Dresden Dolls
“Steven”, by Jake Miller
“Secrets” by David Hodges
“Suggestion”, by Fugazi
“Superficial Addiction”, by Monster KID
“Superheroes”, by The Script
“Sippy Cup”, by Melanie Martinez
“Suffer Little Children”, by The Smiths
“Stone Cold Dead In The Market (He Had It Coming)” by Ella Fitzgerald and Louis Jordan
T
“Tell Me There’s a Heaven”, by Chris Rea
“The Ballad of Dwight Fry”, by Alice Cooper
“The Dreadful Hours”, by My Dying Bride
“The Evangelist”, by Spawn of Possession
“The monster”, by insane clown posse
“Three Points on a Compass”, by Martin Rossiter
“This Life Is Mine”, by Jeff Williams
“This Year”, by The Mountain Goats
“Tier”, by Rammstein
“A Trophy Father’s Trophy Son”, by Sleeping With Sirens
“Too Beautiful”, by He Is We
“The Father Who Must Be Killed”, by Morrissey
“The Hand That Rocks The Cradle”, by The Smiths
“The Other Side”, by Smile Empty Soul
“Two Beds and a Coffee Machine”, by Savage Garden
“Till it happens to you ” by Lady Gaga
U
“Uncle Jack”, by Mötley Crüe
“Uncle Salty”, by Aerosmith
“Universal Child”, by Annie Lennox
W
“Waking Up to The Big Drill Pad”, by Flatsound
“Wash Away Those Years”, by Creed
“What About”, by Janet Jackson
“What’s It Gonna Take”, by Ronnie McDowell
“What’s the Matter Here”, by 10,000 Maniacs
“When Did This Storm Begin”, by Shiny Toy Guns
“Wonderful”, by Everclear
“Warrior”, by Demi Lovato
“Wrong again” by Martina McBride
Y
“Years Ago”, by Alice Cooper
“You”, by Everclear
“You Knocked the Love (Right Outta My Heart)”, by Millie Jackson
Tuesday Tunes
Hello my lovelies. Welcome back for another song. Tell me in the comments what you are listening to today?
Today I bring you
Lyrics –
[Verse 1]
Dum, dum, dum, honey what have you done?
Dum, dum, dum it’s the sound of my gun
Dum, dum, dum, honey what have you done?
Dum, dum, dum it’s the sound
[Chorus 1]
Janie’s got a gun
Janie’s got a gun
Her whole world’s come undone
From lookin’ straight at the sun
What did her daddy do?
What did he put you through?
[Verse 2]
They said when Janie was arrested
They found him underneath a train
But man, he had it comin’
Now that Janie’s got a gun
She ain’t never gonna be the same
[Chorus 2]
Janie’s got a gun
Janie’s got a gun
Her dog day’s just begun
Now everybody is on the run
Tell me now it’s untrue
What did her daddy do?
He jacked a little bitty baby
The man has got to be insane
They say the spell that he was under the lightning and
The thunder knew that someone had to stop the rain
[Chorus 3]
Run away, run away from the pain yeah, yeah yeah
Run away run away from the pain yeah yeah
Yeah yeah yeah yeah yeah
Run away, run away, run, run away
[Chorus 2]
Janie’s got a gun
Janie’s got a gun
Her dog day’s just begun
Now everybody is on the run
[Verse 2]
What did her daddy do?
It’s Janie’s last I.O.U
She had to take him down easy and put a bullet in his brain
She said cause nobody believes me. The man was such a sleeze
He ain’t never gonna be the same
[Chorus 3]
Run away, run away from the pain yeah, yeah
Yeah yeah yeah
Run away run away from the pain yeah yeah
Yeah yeah yeah yeah yeah
Run away, run away, run, run away
[Guitar Solo]
[Chorus 2]
Janie’s got a gun
Janie’s got a gun
Janie’s got a gun
Now everybody is on the run
[Outro]
Janie’s got a gun
Her dog day’s just begun
Now everybody is on the run (Honey honey, what’s the problem?)
Because Janie’s got a gun (Tell me it ain’t right)
Janie’s got a gun (Was it Daddy’s cradle robbing that)
Her dog day’s just begun (Made you scream at night?)
Now everybody is on the run
Janie’s got a gun
My two cents :
This song brought me comfort as a teen. I am an abuse survivor… And I was not believed. So I was a very angry teenager. I really think that most teens are angry. The injustice of being too young to do adult things and too old to be a kid. But I was fighting battles that I had no idea of how to deal with. This song spoke about vengeance against abuse. It spoke to the angry in me. I still love the song for that reason. It speaks to the part of me that has never seen justice. I have a lovely playlist that I may share… There is a lot of songs that talk about abuse… A lot more than most people realize exist.
Pattimouse 