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Tuesday Tunes

A day for me to discuss music

Lyrics

Watch the torch set aflame
Watch it burn, watch it fade
Watch the armies gather suit
Someone’s gotta win and lose
They say my heart is almost black
Well baby, who’s to blame for that? (Ah, ah, ah)
Who’s to blame for-

Count your blessings, count your minutes
Played my game, hell, now you’re in it
Bittersweet, my renegade
And I’m anything but tame
Grab your sword, you might just need it
‘Cause I’m not afraid of cheatin’
Oh, I hate to tell you this way
But villains aren’t born
Darlin’, they’re made

Scream my name when they run
Honestly, it’s kinda fun
Scream it louder when they fall
I’m never satisfied at all
They take, they take until you give
You taught me well, now watch me win
Now watch me win

Count your blessings, count your minutes
Played my game, hell, now you’re in it
Bittersweet, my renegade
And I’m anything but tame
Grab your sword, you might just need it
‘Cause I’m not afraid of cheatin’
Oh, I hate to tell you this way

I aim before I kill
Live only for the thrill
It’s bad, I know, but still
There’s nothing left to lose
Don’t tell me it’s not fair
Believe me, I’ve been there
I’d much rather be alone
If I’m sitting on a-
Sitting on a-
Sitting on a throne

Count your blessings, count your minutes (oh)
Played my game, hell, now you’re in it (oh)
Bittersweet, my renegade
And I’m anything but tame
Grab your sword, you might just need it
‘Cause I’m not afraid of cheatin’
Oh, I hate to tell you this way
Villains aren’t born
Darlin’, we’re made

My 2 Cents –

So, I survived the birthday. And on midnight of my birthday this song came across my fyp on TikTok. It got me wondering. A villain era does not have to be me doing anything bad… Ursula is considered a Villain…all that she does is expect Ariel to follow a contract. Maybe I should have a villain era. Self care will seem villainous to all of the people who expect me to be at their beck and call…

Tuesday Tunes

Unlike Pluto – Villain in my own Story

Lyrics –

I was the one who wanted nothing
I was the one who lived in pain
I was the one who strived for nothing
I was the one who stood in rain
I feel like I’m no good I should run away
I feel like failure’s one step ahead of me
Fuck all the people with the Bentley’s with their nice lives
Fuck all the people in the mansions with their bright skies
Fuck all the people sitting pretty with their sane minds
Fuck, think I’m becoming the villain of my story
I am the one that’s holding grudges
I am the one that lives in pain
I am the one who’s out of touch and
I am the one inflicting pain
I feel like I’m no good I should run away
I feel like failure’s one step ahead of me
Fuck all the people with the Bentley’s with their nice lives
Fuck all the people in the mansions with their bright skies
Fuck all the people sitting pretty with their sane minds
Fuck, think I’m becoming the villain of my story
And I’ve been the bad guy for so long, I’m growing tired
Is it too damn late to twist the plot to turn it round

My two cents –

I have been doing a lot of thinking about perspective lately. Especially since writing my memoir. We are all the villain in someone else’s story. When we become the villain in our own story is when we start to change. I know that my story as seen by others was different than it was for me. I can’t speak from their point of view. I can only speak my truth. So, when I tell my story… It will always be shaded by my perception. How it affected me. How it changed me. I try to look at others perspective, but it is not easy with some situations.

Inspiration without a home is a memoir. My story. It is not completely linear… Nor should it be. There is stories about abuse, about rape. There is a life in those pages. Not a good life, but one lived. That life created the woman I am today. And I am at least remotely sure that I was the villain of some of the story as told by others.