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Tuesday Tunes

A day for me to discuss music

Lyrics –

Please, forgive me, I’ve got demons in my head
There’s something in the water
I don’t like the flavour, I don’t like the taste
Searching for nirvana
Something that’ll take it all away from me
Don’t bother me, my misery
It’s holding me
Won’t let me speak
Please, forgive me, I’ve got demons in my head (in my head)
Please, forgive me, I’ve got demons in my head
Tryna eat me, tryna feed me lies until I’m dead (’til I’m dead)
Please, forgive me, I’ve got demons in my head (in my head)
It’s creeping in, it’s gonna get me by the end of the night
I’m sinking deeper, still I’m reaching for the end of the light
Burning in the lava
You can’t go and pray this type of pain away
Don’t bother me, my misery
It’s holding me
Won’t let me speak
Please, forgive me, I’ve got demons in my head (in my head)
Please, forgive me, I’ve got demons in my head
Tryna eat me, tryna feed me lies until I’m dead (’til I’m dead)
Please, forgive me, I’ve got demons in my head (oh, head!)I feel like I can’t breathe
I feel like I can’t sleep
How did I not see?
I’m unwell
I feel like I can’t breathe
I feel like I can’t sleep
How did I not see?
I’m unwell
Please, forgive me, I’ve got demons in my head (in my head)
Please, forgive me, I’ve got demons in my head (oh, head!)
Please, forgive me, I’ve got demons in my head (in my head)
Please, forgive me, I’ve got demons in my head
Tryna eat me, tryna feed me lies until I’m dead (’til I’m dead)
Please, forgive me, I’ve got demons in my head (oh, head!)In my head
Please, forgive me, I’ve got demons in my head (in my head)
Please, forgive me, I’ve got demons in my head

My 2 Cents-
Ok…. I am behind on Loki. Just got to watch episodes 3 & 4 this weekend. (Me and a couple of friends are watching it together. This song began episode 3 and I just had to look it up. The lyrics feel, much like many of my favorite songs, like someone is watching my life too closely. The best songs always feel like they rip your heart out. You can understand it far better than you really want to. What song tears you apart?

Tuesday Tunes

A day for me to discuss music

Lyrics –
[Verse 1]
Thought I’d bite my tongue
Just this once, maybe twice, but the harder I bite
Now it’s drawing blood
There’s a trace on my lips, leaves a taste when we kiss
Try to cover up
All of the lies and all of the lines that I
Bottle up
To keep you safe and sound

[Pre-Chorus]
But echoes of warnings
Like whispers of morning, like
It creeping through cracks in my memory
It’d make me lose my mind

[Chorus]
But every time I close my eyes
It’s calling in like a siren
Threatening to comе alive
Unless I pay the pricе, yeah
But if my heart is right this time
And I can finally bear my secrets
Maybe you won’t run and hide
But love the monster inside me

[Verse 2]
Maybe all the love
Is a switch that we flip when we’re losing our grip
And it’s close enough
Taking good with the pain, go a little insane
All we really want
Is someone to hold until we grow old
And no matter what (No matter)
Can’t be scared away

[Pre-Chorus]
Echoes of warnings
Like whispers of morning, like
It creeping through cracks in my memory
It’d make me lose my mind

[Chorus]
But every time I close my eyes
It’s calling in like a siren
Threatening to come alive
Unless I pay the price, yeah
But if my heart is right this time
And I can finally bear my secrets
Maybe you won’t run and hide
But love the monster inside me
[Bridge]
Beauty in the chaos, all that’s left to save us
Now
Beauty in the chaos, all that’s left to save us
Now
Beauty in the chaos, all that’s left to save us
Now
Echoes of warnings like
Beauty in the chaos, all that’s left to save us now
Echoes of warnings like
Beauty in the chaos, all that’s left to save us now

[Chorus]
But every time I close my eyes
It’s calling in like a siren
Threatening to come alive
Unless I pay the price, yeah
But every time I close my eyes
It’s calling in like a siren
Threatening to come alive
Unless I pay the price, yeah
But if my heart is right this time
And I can finally bear my secrets
Maybe you won’t run and hide
But love the monster inside me

My 2 Cents –
I have always fought the stigma of my mental health. I am a survivor. That being said, sometimes the labels are easier to fight than others. Now I am trying to help my teenager fight them. She wants to write horror. She is into the creepy and dark. When she told her therapist that (New therapist) the therapist tried to claim that she was homicidal. She doesn’t want to hurt anyone. She is a gentle soul with a rich imagination. She wants to write dark stories so she is apparently Homicidal. I raised all kinds of hell with the office. The supervisor talked to my daughter and agreed that the therapist was way off base. So I am left with a wonderful beginning writer who is struggling because of labels. Seems to me that the world wants to label madness too easily and the monsters that truly exist are allowed too much leeway. so today at least I think I love the monster inside me and will revel in the beauty in chaos.

Tuesday Tunes

A day for me to discuss music

Lyrics
How can you see into my eyes, like open doors
Leading you down into my core
Where I’ve become so numb
Without a soul
My spirit’s sleeping somewhere cold
Until you find it there and lead it back home
Wake me up inside (save me)
Call my name and save me from the dark (wake me up)
Bid my blood to run (I can’t wake up)
Before I come undone (save me)
Save me from the nothing I’ve become
Now that I know what I’m without
You can’t just leave me
Breathe into me and make me real
Bring me to life
Wake me up inside (save me)
Call my name and save me from the dark (wake me up)
Bid my blood to run (I can’t wake up)
Before I come undone (save me)
Save me from the nothing I’ve become
Bring me to life
I’ve been living a lie
There’s nothing inside
Bring me to life
Frozen inside without your touch
Without your love, darling
Only you are the life among the dead
All this time, I can’t believe I couldn’t see
Kept in the dark, but you were there in front of me
I’ve been sleeping a thousand years it seems
I’ve got to open my eyes to everything
Without a thought, without a voice, without a soul
Don’t let me die here
There must be something wrong, bring me to life
Wake me up inside (save me)
Call my name and save me from the dark (wake me up)
Bid my blood to run (I can’t wake up)
Before I come undone (save me)
Save me from the nothing I’ve become
Bring me to life
I’ve been living a lie
There’s nothing inside
Bring me to life

My Two Cents
I think that we have a part of us that questions if we even have a reason to go on. Not meaning die, but just change who we have become. A reason to be more. The person the song is talking to could be anyone, but I half wonder if she is not begging herself. Just wishing for a chance to become something more.

Tuesday Tunes

A day for me to discuss music

Supervillain by Stilletto & Silent Child

Lyrics –

Why am I the bad guy?
Maybe I wanna be the hero sometimes
So used to people treating me like I’m evil
Yeah no one ever wants to play nice
I just wanna be the good guy
But every time I try someone loses their life
Maybe I wasn’t born to be a hero, I should be evil
Well
Fuck it I’ll try it
Monster
Demon
Savage
Heathen
If I’m no, hero
Maybe I should bе a super villain
Maybe I should be a supеr villain
Maybe I should be a super villain
Maybe I should be a super villain
I’ve been, fucked up
Time to give into my demons
Heartless, bad blood
Like medusa undo ya, ice cold like the queen of hearts (of hearts)
Got a head full of snakes now they all gonna pay
I’m done
I’m done
Yea I’ma be a
Monster
Demon
Savage
Heathen
If I’m no, hero (hero)
Maybe I should be a super villain
Maybe I should be a super villain
Maybe I should be a super villain
Maybe I should be a super villain
Maybe I should be a super villain

My 2 cents –

Again a song about labels. How hurtful they are. I feel like this one takes that and turns it around. Oh you see me as this evil thing? Fine I am gonna rock it!

Tuesday Tunes

A day for me to discuss music

Lyrics –
I haven’t always been this way
I wasn’t born a renegade
I felt alone, still feel afraid
I stumble through it anyway
I wish someone would’ve told me that this life is ours to choose
No one’s handing you the keys or a book with all the rules
The little that I know I’ll tell to you
When they dress you up in lies and you’re left naked with the truth
You throw your head back
And you spit in the wind
Let the walls crack
‘Cause it lets the light in
Let ’em drag you through hell
They can’t tell you to change who you are
(That’s all I know so far)
And when the storm’s out
You’ll run in the rain
Put your sword down
Dive right into the pain
Stay unfiltered and loud
You’ll be proud of that skin full of scars
That’s all I know so far
That’s all I know so far
So you might give yourself away, yeah
And pay full price for each mistake
But when the candy coating hides the razor blade
You can cut yourself loose and use that rage
I wish someone would’ve told me that this darkness comes and goes
People will pretend but, baby girl, nobody knows
And even I can’t teach you how to fly
But I can show you how to live like your life is on the line
You throw your head back
And you spit in the wind
Let the walls crack
‘Cause it lets the light in
Let ’em drag you through hell
They can’t tell you to change who you are
(That’s all I know so far)
And when the storm’s out
You’ll run in the rain
Put your sword down
Dive right into the pain
Stay unfiltered and loud
You’ll be proud of that skin full of scars
That’s all I know so far
That’s all I know, that’s all I know so far
That’s all I know, that’s all I know so far
That’s all I know, that’s all I know so far
That’s all I know, that’s all I know so far
I will be with you ’til the world blows up, yes
Up and down and through ’til the world blows up, yeah
When it’s right or it’s all fucked up
‘Til the world blows up, ’til the world blows up
And we will be enough
And until the world blows up
Just throw your head back
And spit in the wind
Let the walls crack
‘Cause it lets the light in
Let ’em drag you through hell
They can’t tell you to change who you are
And when the storm’s out
You’ll run in the rain
Put your sword down
Dive right into the pain
Stay unfiltered and loud
You’ll be proud of that skin full of scars
That’s all I know so far
That’s all I know, that’s all I know so far
That’s all I know, that’s all I know so far
That’s all I know, that’s all I know so far
That’s all I know, that’s all I know so far
I will be with you ’til the world blows up, hm

My 2 cents – This speaks wonders about being a parent. My relationship with my mom has never been real close. She was busy working and I was busy fighting. So we never really clicked. I wanted better. So when my daughter was born I was determined to have better. I didn’t want a mini me. Mom kept telling me I was so much like her. I hated that because I felt so misunderstood. I did not want to make my baby feel like she had to be me. I wanted to let her make her own mistakes in life. I guided her and told her the truth about the mistakes I made. I stood with tears in my eyes watching the mistakes that she could have avoided. And She tells me that she is so much like me. I stand at her back and she is the best person she can be…and I will be there for her until my world ends.

Tuesday Tunes

A day for me to discuss music

Lyrics-

I’ve seen people go under
I’ve seen people move on
But the voices getting louder
Until there is none

They said I was special
They said I could fight it
I said it was painful
I told them I’ll lose it

I wanna be special
I wanna be you
But I don’t belong here
I see it in you

They said I was special
They said I could fight it
I said it was painful
I told them I’ll lose it

They said I was special
Yeah!

I’ve seen people in battle
I’ve seen people give up
But they’re all just like cattle
They don’t know when to stop

I thought they were special
I thought they all knew
But they are just assholes
They’re all just like you

I said it was painful
I told them I’ll lose it

If you’re coming back home tonight
I’ll be all long gone
I’ll be all long gone
[x2]

I thought it was easy
I’ll be all long gone
I’ll be all long gone
[x2]

My 2 Cents-
We all have those moments. where we feel left alone, like we are not as special. Each of us are individuals. It doesn’t always feel like it though. And to me this song speaks to that depression that gives us the mental gremlins telling us that we are not anything worth having. The gremlins lie.

Tuesday Tunes

A day for me to discuss music

Lyrics –
And I feel that time’s a-wasting, go
So where ya going to tomorrow?
And I see that these are lies to come
So would you even care?
And I feel it
And I feel it
Where ya going for tomorrow?
Where ya goin’ with the mask I found
And I feel, and I feel
When the dogs begin to smell her
Will she smell alone?
And I feel, so much depends on the weather
So is it raining in your bedroom?
And I see, that these are the eyes of disarray
Would you even care?
And I feel it
And she feels it
Where ya going for tomorrow?
Where ya goin’ with the mask I found?
And I feel, and I feel
When the dogs begin to smell her
Will she smell alone?
When the dogs do find her
Got time, time, to wait for tomorrow
To find it
To find it
To find it
When the dogs do find her
Got time, time, to wait for tomorrow
To find it
To find it
To find it
Where ya going for tomorrow?
Where ya goin’ with the mask I found?
And I feel, and I feel
When the dogs begin to smell her
Will she smell alone?
When the dogs do find her
Got time, time, to wait for tomorrow
To find it
To find it
To find it
When the dogs do find her
Got time, time, to wait for tomorrow
To find it
To find it
To find it
To find it
To find it
To find it

My 2 Cents –
This week has been crazy, on a personal level. I know that this song is about murder…but sometimes in order to become who we need to be, it feels like we kill parts of ourselves. I am struggling with decisions that may leave parts of me behind and I am not sure if it will allow me to continue my life as it is or if things will change. This song to me talks a lot of patience.

Tuesday Tunes

A day for me to discuss music

Lost Within by Fivefold

Lyrics

Crawl out of the hole you’re in
Who you are is not who you’ve been
Now’s the time to sink or swim
Will you fight the tide or get lost within
And I know you’re feeling low
Feel like you’ve lost control
But the darkness that you know
It’s not your home and you’re not alone
And all you’ve wanted was just so much more
This world has taken ahold
Don’t let ’em get your soul
The silence
You feel it cold as a winter storm
This world has taken ahold
Don’t let ’em get your soul
Iron bars are hell to break
Tell me now, do you know what’s at stake?
Your whole life in a blank stare haze
You walk around like the end of days
And I know you’re feeling low
Feel like you’ve lost control
But the darkness that you know
It’s not your home and you’re not alone
And all you’ve wanted was just so much more
This world has taken ahold
Don’t let ’em get your soul
The silence
You feel it cold as a winter storm
This world has taken ahold
Don’t let ’em get your soul
I’m callin’ out to you
Can you hear me?
They can’t break you down
Let you hit the ground
I promise you it won’t be long (Won’t be long)
You’re feeling overwhelmed here
Drowned by the pain and the fear
The sun will come with the dawn
All you’ve wanted was just so much more
This world has taken ahold
Don’t let ’em get your soul
The silence
You feel it cold as a winter storm
This world has taken ahold
Don’t let ’em get your soul…
Get your soul…

My 2Cents –
Though this song sounds like it is about being depressed, And it most certainly is, I feel like it is about picking yourself back up when you are depressed. I have been here, and it feels impossible. then it doesn’t. Somehow you just survive, and you don’t know how you did it. but you did.

Tuesday Tunes

A day for me to discuss music

Lyrics –

Forward yesterday
Makes me wanna stay
What they said was real
Makes me wanna steal
Livin’ under house
Guess I’m livin’, I’m a mouse
All’s I got is time
Got no meanin’, just a rhyme
Take time with a wounded hand
‘Cause it likes to heal
Take time with a wounded hand
‘Cause I like to steal
Take time with a wounded hand
‘Cause it likes to heal
I like to steal
I’m half the man I used to be
(This I feel as the dawn)
(It fades to gray)
Well, I’m half the man I used to be
(This I feel as the dawn)
(It fades to gray)
Well, I’m half the man I used to be
(This I feel as the dawn)
(It fades to gray)
Well, I’m half the man I used to be
Half the man I used to be
Feelin’ uninspired
Think I’ll start a fire
Everybody run
Bobby’s got a gun
Think you’re kinda neat
Then she tells me I’m a creep
Friends don’t mean a thing
Guess I’ll leave it up to me
Take time with a wounded hand
‘Cause it likes to heal
Take time with a wounded hand
Guess I like to steal
Take time with a wounded hand
‘Cause it likes to heal
I like to steal
I’m half the man I used to be
(This I feel as the dawn)
(It fades to gray)
Well, I’m half the man I used to be
(This I feel as the dawn)
(It fades to gray)
Well, I’m half the man I used to be
(This I feel as the dawn)
(It fades to gray)
Well, I’m half the man I used to be
Half the man I used to be
Yea
Take time with a wounded hand
‘Cause it likes to heal
Take time with a wounded hand
Guess I like to steal
Take time with a wounded hand
‘Cause it likes to heal
I like to steal
I’m half the man I used to be
(This I feel as the dawn)
(It fades to gray)
Well, I’m half the man I used to be
(This I feel as the dawn)
(It fades to gray)
Well, I’m half the man I used to be
(This I feel as the dawn)
(It fades to gray)
Well, I’m half the man I used to be
Half the man I used to be
Half the man I used to be

My 2 Cents –
This is a song that I have always loved, but not one I knew the name of. I always asked to hear Stone Temple Pilot’s Hand song. Lol Luckily my boyfriend knew me well enough that I always got the song I was looking for. The song itself has a melancholy feel. one that I kinda dug.

Tuesday Tunes

A day for me to discuss music

Lyrics –
I know your life is empty
And you hate to face this world alone
So you’re searching for an angel
Someone who can make you whole
I cannot save you
I can’t even save myself
So just save yourself
I know that you’ve been damaged
Your soul has suffered such abuse
But I am not your savior
I am just as fucked as you
(I am just as fucked as you)
I cannot save you
I can’t even save myself
So just save yourself
Please don’t take pity on me
Please don’t take pity on me
Please don’t take pity on me
Please don’t take pity on me
My life has been a nightmare…

My 2 Cents –
The broken attract the broken. I feel like we try to lean on those like us because we know that they will understand. Most days that is neither good or bad, but we need to learn to stand alone and heal as well.