Ah an end of a cycle

Meme - Overthinking

I have been posting daily for over 60 days now. Between the PAD challenge and the MerMay challenge I have been sure to get something up for the last two months.

  Fae corps publishing is doing a short story prompt a day for June but it is just a bit too much for me. I am going to be trying to get caught up with the publishing work I am slightly behind on. so I am going to be going back to the weekly posts and weekends off except for the occasional random ones. I will be doing a few things differently for the weekday posts. I hope you enjoy it. I want to squeeze an art post in somewhere. I am hoping to post a bit more….but I don’t know if I will. I am back to running both my own personal blog and Fae Corps Publishing’s blog. so I am bound to mess up some where. I do the schedule for the week on Sunday for both.

I hope you have enjoyed the art and poetry.

MerMay day 31

prompt was Dolphin

MerMay day 30

prompt was Hippo

MerMay day 29

prompt was fantasy

MerMay day 28

prompt was baby

Perfect is overrated

Meme - Feeling Invisible

So I was talking to my therapist about how inadequate I felt when it came to my art…she laughed and said stop trying to be perfect leave some for the rest of us…and it got me thinking.

I feel inadequate and insecure but honestly how many people are intimidated by what I do manage. I might seem to be handling it perfectly to the outside…but so many do not see how close I get to jumping off my own personal cliff.

No one judges me as badly as I judge myself. So I promise you that I am not perfect. I drop more balls than I catch on any given day. I work myself to exhaustion and then I get mad at myself for napping.

So, trust me I am not perfect. I am kind hearted and I will gladly help those I can. Which has gotten me called a door mat a few times. I have boundaries but most people don’t know when I get done, because I don’t keep contact with the people that break boundaries.

There’s still days where I don’t see my own light. Days I struggle with my demons. I am doing better….but I am not done yet.

MerMay day 27

prompt was masculine

Memorial Day

Memorial Day

MerMay day 26

prompt was deep sea

Don’t judge progress on word count alone

Today I only managed to do one poem and one art piece….at least on paper. I also scheduled a week of blogs for Fae corps publishing. I got 3 books adjusted on Ingram and one on Amazon. I squeezed in my daily routine for my games. I fixed most of an epub. I designed a new cover. I ate two meals (which is an accomplishment by itself). I helped my son with the sick chicken (she is getting better). I finished the editing from the betas for the story Serena is submitting to Killing Stroke. (Adding another 280 words there) Note how little of what I did is on the list of word counts?

    some days I don’t have the ability to do even the amount I have listed, some days I manage more. If I were to base my self esteem on my words count – well I would be miserable. I do more than I often think I do. I am willing to bet that you are too.