Tuesday Tunes

A day for me to discuss music

Lyrics –

I’m sorry but your story isn’t adding up
Think your religion is a lie to keep my mouth shut
So I won’t testify the crimes you’re keeping score of
Why don’t you throw me to the wolves? I thought you were one
You were standing there like an angry god
Counting out my sins just to cross them off
Saying that my tongue was too loud to trust
And that my blood couldn’t keep you
My dear, you’re not so innocent
You’re fooling Heaven’s gates
So you won’t have to change
You’re no saint, you’re no savior
Your revelations don’t look nothing like the pictures
You read between the lines and don’t stick to the scriptures
You only follow rules if others follow with you
That doesn’t sound so holy only playing victim
You were standing there like an angry god
Counting out my sins just to cross them off
Saying that my tongue was too loud to trust
And that my blood couldn’t keep you
My dear, you’re not so innocent
You’re fooling Heaven’s gates
So you won’t have to change
You’re no saint, you’re no savior
So keep your judgment for someone else, I’ve had enough
And keep your judgment for someone else, I’ve had enough
So keep your judgment for someone else, I’ve had enough
And keep your judgment for someone else, I’ve had enough
My dear, you’re not so innocent
You’re fooling Heaven’s gates
So you won’t have to change
You’re no saint, you’re no savior

My 2 Cents –
I get so aggravated at judgmental people. You can only judge yourself for your own actions. You cannot judge another for you are not in their shoes.

Tuesday Tunes

Lyrics –

[Verse 1]
I must be the kings of gambling
‘Cause I’m no ace of hearts babe, as you know, mmm
People say pick yourself up from the ground
But I just keep on sinking, like a stone, mmm

[Post-Verse]
When I drift closer you float further, out
And I hate, yeah I hate it
It’s like I’m the story’s villain
And you are the heroine
And I can’t win

[Pre-Chorus]
I tried to say I’m sorry but it sounds like it’s your fault
And every compliment just sounds like you’re no good at all
Yeah I hate to be the reason for you walking out that door
But right before I fix it, I fuck it up

[Chorus]
Fuck it up some more
I fuck it up, fuck it up
Fuck it up some more
I fuck it up, fuck it up
Fuck it up some more
I fuck it up, fuck it up
Fuck it up some more
I fuck it up, fuck it up
Fuck it up some more

[Verse 2]
You’re the best I’ve ever had
Hope I’m not your worst, but I don’t know, mmm
Sorry I’ve dragged you down through every circle
Down through my inferno
Should’ve cleaned first, mmm, mmm

[Post-Verse]
When I drift closer you float further, out
And I hate, yeah I hate it
It’s like I’m the story’s villain
And you are the heroine
And I can’t win

[Pre-Chorus]
I tried to say I’m sorry but it sounds like it’s your fault
And every compliment just sounds like you’re no good at all
Yeah I hate to be the reason for you walking out that door
But right before I fix it, I fuck it up

[Chorus]
Fuck it up some more
I fuck it up, fuck it up
Fuck it up some more
I fuck it up, fuck it up
Fuck it up some more
I fuck it up, fuck it up
Fuck it up some more
I fuck it up, fuck it up
Fuck it up some more
I fuck it up, fuck it up
Fuck it up some more
I fuck it up, fuck it up
Fuck it up some more

My 2 cents –

I can’t help feeling like this song is reading my mind. I often feel like a screw up. Whether I am or not. This one has been stuck in my head lately.

Tuesday Tunes

A day for me to discuss music

Lyrics –

Lost in a dream
I had when I was young
No I never woke up
From itI broke a chain
I turned and ran
No I never looked back
AgainIs there anybody out there?
Hello can you hear me?
Or am I just screaming to the void?
I’m not looking for a savior
I just need somebody
Telling me I’m not in this alone
Cause I’m feeling like a creep here
Standing on the outside
Tunnel vision stares cut to the bone
I’m not looking for a savior
I just need somebody
Telling me I’m not in this alone
Is there anybody out there?
Are you a freak like me?
Getting kicked out somewhere
Are you a freak like me?
Tell me where you wanna go
And baby we’ll go
You don’t gotta walk that way alone
Fuck this place
We don’t gotta go back there
Is there anybody?It’s all on me
Yeah everything’s my fault
Locked in a bathroom stall right now
Death of a dream
It’s running down my cheeks
Won’t let ’em see me weak
Like thisIs there anybody out there?
Hello can you hear me?
Or am I just screaming to the void?
I’m not looking for a savior
I just need somebody
Telling me I’m not in this alone
Cause I’m feeling like a creep here
Standing on the outside
Tunnel vision stares cut to the bone
I’m not looking for a savior
I just need somebody
Telling me I’m not in this alone
Is there anybody out there
Are you a freak like me?
Getting kicked out somewhere
Are you a freak like me?
Tell me where you wanna go
And baby we’ll go
You don’t gotta walk that way alone
Fuck this place
We don’t gotta go back there
Is there anybody out there?
Is there anybody out there?
Is there anybody out there?
Hello can you hear me?
Or am I just screaming to the void?
I’m not looking for a savior
I just need somebody
Telling me I’m not in this alone
Is there anybody out there?
Are you a freak like me?
Getting kicked out somewhere
Are you a freak like me?
Tell me where you wanna go
And baby we’ll go
You don’t gotta walk that way alone
Fuck this place
We don’t gotta go back there
Is there anybody out there?
Is there anybody out there?

My 2 Cents –
Don’t we all feel alone sometimes? This song speaks to that lonely feeling. I often feel like this. I sit alone typing into a void…Is there anybody out there?

Tuesday Tunes

A day for me to discuss music

Lyrics –

Oh, oh
Oh, oh
I should be living the dream
But I’m livin’ with a security team
And that ain’t gonna change, no
I got a paranoia in me
And you wouldn’t believe
Everything that I seen, no
Comin’ apart at the seams
And no one around me knows
Who I am, what I’m on
Who I’ve hurt and where they’ve gone
I know that I’ve done some wrong
But I’m tryna make it right
To the one I love, paint me wrong
Give me a light now (Oh-oh)
You know that I love you
But I’m still learnin’ to love myself
(To love my, to love my, to love my)
I’m still learnin’ to love myself
(To love my, to love my, to love my)
Yeah, yeahI should be livin’ the dream
But I go home and I got no self-esteem (No)
You think I’m swimmin’ in green
But it’s passed around my family tree
No man wants to really commit
Intimidated ’cause I get paid and shit
In the crowd, you’re readin’ my lips
But no one around me knows
Who I am, what I’m on
Who I’ve hurt and where they’ve gone
I know that I’ve done some wrong
But I’m tryna make it right
The same mistakes on and on
To all my friends, I’m sorry for
You know that I love you
But I’m still learnin’ (I’m still learnin’) to love myself
(To love my, to love my, to love my) Yeah, yeah
I’m still learnin’ (I’m still learnin’) to love myself (To love myself)
(To love my, to love my, to love my) Yeah, yeah (Oh, oh)
Oh, I try and I try to remember sometimes
If I breathe, it’s alright, but some things don’t change
I’m still learnin’ (I’m still learnin’) to love myself (To love myself)
(To love my, to love my, to love myself)
Who I am, what I’m on
Who I’ve hurt and where they’ve gone
I know that I’ve done some wrong
But I’m tryna make it right
To the one I love, paint me wrong
Give me a light now
(To the ones I love) To the ones I love
I’m still learnin’ to love myself
(To love my, to love my, to love my) Yeah, yeah
I’m still learnin’ (I’m still learnin’) to love myself (To love myself)
(To love my, to love my, to love my, ooh)
And I try and I try to remember sometimes
If I breathe, it’s alright, but some things don’t change
I’m still learnin’ (I’m still learnin’) to love myself (Love myself)
To love myself
I’m still learnin’ to love myself


My 2 Cents –
I find it so easy to love everyone else. I struggle to love myself. I see too easily the flaws. So forgive me if I take a few…I’m Still Learning to love myself…

Tuesday Tunes

A day for me to discuss music

Lyrics –

Please, forgive me, I’ve got demons in my head
There’s something in the water
I don’t like the flavour, I don’t like the taste
Searching for nirvana
Something that’ll take it all away from me
Don’t bother me, my misery
It’s holding me
Won’t let me speak
Please, forgive me, I’ve got demons in my head (in my head)
Please, forgive me, I’ve got demons in my head
Tryna eat me, tryna feed me lies until I’m dead (’til I’m dead)
Please, forgive me, I’ve got demons in my head (in my head)
It’s creeping in, it’s gonna get me by the end of the night
I’m sinking deeper, still I’m reaching for the end of the light
Burning in the lava
You can’t go and pray this type of pain away
Don’t bother me, my misery
It’s holding me
Won’t let me speak
Please, forgive me, I’ve got demons in my head (in my head)
Please, forgive me, I’ve got demons in my head
Tryna eat me, tryna feed me lies until I’m dead (’til I’m dead)
Please, forgive me, I’ve got demons in my head (oh, head!)I feel like I can’t breathe
I feel like I can’t sleep
How did I not see?
I’m unwell
I feel like I can’t breathe
I feel like I can’t sleep
How did I not see?
I’m unwell
Please, forgive me, I’ve got demons in my head (in my head)
Please, forgive me, I’ve got demons in my head (oh, head!)
Please, forgive me, I’ve got demons in my head (in my head)
Please, forgive me, I’ve got demons in my head
Tryna eat me, tryna feed me lies until I’m dead (’til I’m dead)
Please, forgive me, I’ve got demons in my head (oh, head!)In my head
Please, forgive me, I’ve got demons in my head (in my head)
Please, forgive me, I’ve got demons in my head

My 2 Cents-
Ok…. I am behind on Loki. Just got to watch episodes 3 & 4 this weekend. (Me and a couple of friends are watching it together. This song began episode 3 and I just had to look it up. The lyrics feel, much like many of my favorite songs, like someone is watching my life too closely. The best songs always feel like they rip your heart out. You can understand it far better than you really want to. What song tears you apart?

Tuesday Tunes

A day for me to discuss music

Lyrics –
[Verse 1]
Thought I’d bite my tongue
Just this once, maybe twice, but the harder I bite
Now it’s drawing blood
There’s a trace on my lips, leaves a taste when we kiss
Try to cover up
All of the lies and all of the lines that I
Bottle up
To keep you safe and sound

[Pre-Chorus]
But echoes of warnings
Like whispers of morning, like
It creeping through cracks in my memory
It’d make me lose my mind

[Chorus]
But every time I close my eyes
It’s calling in like a siren
Threatening to comе alive
Unless I pay the pricе, yeah
But if my heart is right this time
And I can finally bear my secrets
Maybe you won’t run and hide
But love the monster inside me

[Verse 2]
Maybe all the love
Is a switch that we flip when we’re losing our grip
And it’s close enough
Taking good with the pain, go a little insane
All we really want
Is someone to hold until we grow old
And no matter what (No matter)
Can’t be scared away

[Pre-Chorus]
Echoes of warnings
Like whispers of morning, like
It creeping through cracks in my memory
It’d make me lose my mind

[Chorus]
But every time I close my eyes
It’s calling in like a siren
Threatening to come alive
Unless I pay the price, yeah
But if my heart is right this time
And I can finally bear my secrets
Maybe you won’t run and hide
But love the monster inside me
[Bridge]
Beauty in the chaos, all that’s left to save us
Now
Beauty in the chaos, all that’s left to save us
Now
Beauty in the chaos, all that’s left to save us
Now
Echoes of warnings like
Beauty in the chaos, all that’s left to save us now
Echoes of warnings like
Beauty in the chaos, all that’s left to save us now

[Chorus]
But every time I close my eyes
It’s calling in like a siren
Threatening to come alive
Unless I pay the price, yeah
But every time I close my eyes
It’s calling in like a siren
Threatening to come alive
Unless I pay the price, yeah
But if my heart is right this time
And I can finally bear my secrets
Maybe you won’t run and hide
But love the monster inside me

My 2 Cents –
I have always fought the stigma of my mental health. I am a survivor. That being said, sometimes the labels are easier to fight than others. Now I am trying to help my teenager fight them. She wants to write horror. She is into the creepy and dark. When she told her therapist that (New therapist) the therapist tried to claim that she was homicidal. She doesn’t want to hurt anyone. She is a gentle soul with a rich imagination. She wants to write dark stories so she is apparently Homicidal. I raised all kinds of hell with the office. The supervisor talked to my daughter and agreed that the therapist was way off base. So I am left with a wonderful beginning writer who is struggling because of labels. Seems to me that the world wants to label madness too easily and the monsters that truly exist are allowed too much leeway. so today at least I think I love the monster inside me and will revel in the beauty in chaos.

Tuesday Tunes

A day for me to discuss music

Lyrics-
“L’il Red Riding Hood”
(originally by Sam The Sham And The Pharaohs)

Hey there little red riding hood
You sure are looking good
You’re everything a big bad wolf could want

Little red riding hood
I don’t think little big girls should
Go walking in these spooky old woods alone

What big eyes you have
The kind of eyes that drive wolves mad
Just to see that you don’t get chased
I think I oughta walk with you for a ways

What full lips you have
They’re sure to lure someone bad
So until you get to Grandma’s place
I think you oughta walk with me and be safe

Gonna keep my sheep suit on
‘Til I’m sure that you’ve been shown
That I can be trusted walking with you alone

Little red riding hood
I’d like to hold you if I could
But you might think I’m a big bad wolf so I won’t

What a big heart I have
The better to love you with
Little red riding hood
Even bad wolves can be good

I try to keep satisfied
Just to walk close by your side
Maybe you’ll see things my way
‘Fore we get to Grandma’s place

Little red riding hood
You sure are looking good
You’re everything a big bad wolf could want

Little red riding hood
I don’t think little big girls should
Go walking in these spooky old woods alone

What big eyes you have
The kind of eyes that drive wolves mad
Just to see that you don’t get chased
I think I oughta walk with you for a ways

What full lips you have
They’re sure to lure someone bad
So until you get to Grandma’s place
I think you oughta walk with me and be safe

My 2 Cents-
I know I have posted the song before. It is a favorite of mine. I felt like it is whimsical enough to bring a smile. I want to create smiles.

Tuesday Tunes

A day for me to discuss music

Lyrics
How can you see into my eyes, like open doors
Leading you down into my core
Where I’ve become so numb
Without a soul
My spirit’s sleeping somewhere cold
Until you find it there and lead it back home
Wake me up inside (save me)
Call my name and save me from the dark (wake me up)
Bid my blood to run (I can’t wake up)
Before I come undone (save me)
Save me from the nothing I’ve become
Now that I know what I’m without
You can’t just leave me
Breathe into me and make me real
Bring me to life
Wake me up inside (save me)
Call my name and save me from the dark (wake me up)
Bid my blood to run (I can’t wake up)
Before I come undone (save me)
Save me from the nothing I’ve become
Bring me to life
I’ve been living a lie
There’s nothing inside
Bring me to life
Frozen inside without your touch
Without your love, darling
Only you are the life among the dead
All this time, I can’t believe I couldn’t see
Kept in the dark, but you were there in front of me
I’ve been sleeping a thousand years it seems
I’ve got to open my eyes to everything
Without a thought, without a voice, without a soul
Don’t let me die here
There must be something wrong, bring me to life
Wake me up inside (save me)
Call my name and save me from the dark (wake me up)
Bid my blood to run (I can’t wake up)
Before I come undone (save me)
Save me from the nothing I’ve become
Bring me to life
I’ve been living a lie
There’s nothing inside
Bring me to life

My Two Cents
I think that we have a part of us that questions if we even have a reason to go on. Not meaning die, but just change who we have become. A reason to be more. The person the song is talking to could be anyone, but I half wonder if she is not begging herself. Just wishing for a chance to become something more.

Tuesday Tunes

A day for me to discuss music

Supervillain by Stilletto & Silent Child

Lyrics –

Why am I the bad guy?
Maybe I wanna be the hero sometimes
So used to people treating me like I’m evil
Yeah no one ever wants to play nice
I just wanna be the good guy
But every time I try someone loses their life
Maybe I wasn’t born to be a hero, I should be evil
Well
Fuck it I’ll try it
Monster
Demon
Savage
Heathen
If I’m no, hero
Maybe I should bе a super villain
Maybe I should be a supеr villain
Maybe I should be a super villain
Maybe I should be a super villain
I’ve been, fucked up
Time to give into my demons
Heartless, bad blood
Like medusa undo ya, ice cold like the queen of hearts (of hearts)
Got a head full of snakes now they all gonna pay
I’m done
I’m done
Yea I’ma be a
Monster
Demon
Savage
Heathen
If I’m no, hero (hero)
Maybe I should be a super villain
Maybe I should be a super villain
Maybe I should be a super villain
Maybe I should be a super villain
Maybe I should be a super villain

My 2 cents –

Again a song about labels. How hurtful they are. I feel like this one takes that and turns it around. Oh you see me as this evil thing? Fine I am gonna rock it!

Tuesday Tunes

A day for me to discuss music

Lyrics –
Hey, your glass is empty
It’s a hell of a long way home
Why don’t you let me take you?
It’s no good to go alone
I never would have opened up
But you seemed so real to me
And after all the bullshit I’ve heard
Refreshing not to see
That I don’t have to pretend
She doesn’t expect it from me
So, don’t tell me I
Haven’t been good to you
Don’t tell me I
Have never been there for you
Just tell me why
Nothing is good enough
Hey little girl, would you like some candy?
Your Momma said it’s okay
The door is open, come on outside
No, I can’t come out today
It’s not the wind that cracked your shoulder
And threw you to the ground
Who’s there that makes you so afraid?
You’re shaken to the bone
And no, I don’t understand
You deserve so much more than this
So, don’t tell me why
He’s never been good to you
Don’t tell me why
He’s never been there for you
Don’t you know that why
It’s simply not good enough
Oh, so just let me try
I will be good to you
Just let me try
And I will be there for you
I’ll show you why
You’re so much more than
Good enough
So, don’t tell me why
He’s never been good to you
Don’t tell me why
He’s never been there for you
Don’t you know that why
It’s simply not good enough
Oh, so just let me try
I will be good to you
Just let me try
And I will be there for you
I’ll show you why
You’re so much more than
Good enough

My 2 cents –
It’s Pride month Y’all. For those who don’t know, I am Pan sexual. I am Non Binary. And I will be posting more on that topic throughout June. For now, enjoy a great song, and here is a playlist that I made of Girlfriend songs.