Category: coping mechanisms

Tuesday Tunes

A day for me to discuss music

Lyrics

[Intro]
(Pa-pa-pa-pa-pa-pa-ra)
(Pa-pa-pa-pa-pa-pa-ra)
Feelin’ like a psychofreak-freak-freak
(Pa-pa-pa-pa-pa-pa-ra)
(Pa-pa-pa-pa-pa-pa-ra)

[Chorus]
Feelin’ like a psychofreak sometimes
Tryna get connected, no Wi-Fi
Tell me that you love me, are you lying?
Give me lemonade, I’ll give you limes
House in the hills is a house of cards
Blink and the fairytale falls apart
Sorry, didn’t mean to get so dark
Maybe I’m an alien, Earth is hard

[Verse 1]
Sometimes, I don’t trust the way I feel
On my Instagram talkin’ ’bout “I’m healed”
Worryin’ if I got sex appeal
Hopin’ that I don’t drive off this hill
When we’re makin’ lovе, I wanna be there
And I wanna feel you pullin’ my hair
And bеlieve the words you say in my ear
Gotta go outside, I need some air

[Pre-Chorus]
I want to, want to, want to touch you
Want to touch you, but my fingertips are numb
I want to, want to, want to love you
Want to love you, but my chest is tightenin’ up
I want to, want to, want to feel like I can chill
Not have to leave this restaurant
Wish I could be like everyone
But I’m not like anyone

[Chorus]
Feelin’ like a psychofreak sometimes
Tryna get connected, no Wi-Fi
Tell me that you love me, are you lying?
Give me lemonade, I’ll give you limes
House in the hills is a house of cards
Blink and the fairytale falls apart
Sorry, didn’t mean to get so dark
Maybe I’m an alien, Earth is hard

[Post-Chorus]
Pa-pa-pa-pa-pa-pa-ra
Pa-pa-pa-pa-pa-pa-ra
Pa-pa-pa-pa-pa-pa-ra
Pa-pa-pa-pa-pa-pa-ra

[Verse 2]
Sorry, couldn’t focus on the movie
Everybody says they miss the old me
I been on this ride since I was fifteen
I don’t blame the girls for how it went down, down
Thinkin’ out loud
In the bathroom while my friends laugh on the couch
Wow, moment’s gone now
Know you wanna stay, but I think I gotta leave right now

[Pre-Chorus]
I want to, want to, want to touch you
Want to touch you, but my fingertips are numb
I want to, want to, want to love you
Want to love you, but my chest is tightenin’ up
I want to, want to, want to feel like I can chill
Not have to leave this restaurant
Wish I could be like everyone (Wish I could be)
But I’m not like anyone

[Chorus]
Feelin’ like a psychofreak sometimes
Tryna get connected, no Wi-Fi
Tell me that you love me, are you lying?
Give me lemonade, I’ll give you limes
House in the hills is a house of cards
Blink and the fairytale falls apart
Sorry, didn’t mean to get so dark
Maybe I’m an alien, Earth is-

[Post-Chorus]
Pa-pa-pa-pa-pa-pa-ra
Pa-pa-pa-pa-pa-pa-ra
Feelin’ like a psychofreak
Pa-pa-pa-pa-pa-pa-ra
Pa-pa-pa-pa-pa-pa-ra

My 2 Cents –

There is a lot of days where I feel alone, and like no one understands me. This song makes me feel less so…

Tuesday Tunes

A day for me to discuss music

Lyrics

Send your kisses my way
Bring your sweet heart to me
I’ve been waiting for so long
Tell me all your stories
Leave some open for me
Write your name into this song
I walk through the fire
Run through the rain
I’ll wait for forever
If love is your name
Catch your wind from heaven
Send them while you’re sleeping
Wake me with the morning sun
I’ll dream of you until you come
I walk through the fire
Run through the rain
I’ll wait for forever
If love is your name
Valentines keep knocking
My heart keeps on walking
Darling I’ll hold on for you
For You, for you
I’ll walk through the fire
I’ll run through the rain
I’ll wait for forever
If love is your name
If love is your name
If love is your name

My 2 Cents –

So, last week I shared Dolly doing a Rock song. It brought up a conversation with a friend about how genre limits were not really a thing anymore because Steven Tyler did country and Dolly was doing Rock. My view has always been that limiting your mind based on genre is not a good idea. Why should we limit ourselves and the enjoyment that music brings? I do enjoy this song as well. Steven Tyler has been an amazing voice through most of my life.(My childhood was limited to country music as my mom did not like rock. I was a teenager before I got to hear anything but country or bluegrass music)

Tuesday Tunes

A day for me to discuss music

Lyrics

Liar, liar the world’s on fire
Whatcha gonna do when it all burns down?
Fire, fire burning higher
Still got time to turn it all around

Now I ain’t one for speaking out much
But that don’t mean I don’t stay in touch
Everybody’s trippin’ over this or that
What we gonna do when we all fall flat?

Liar, liar the world’s on fire
What we gonna do when it all burns down?

I don’t know what to think about us
When did we lose in God we trust
God Almighty, what we gonna do
If God ain’t listenin’ and we’re deaf too

Liar, liar the world’s on fire
Whatcha gonna do when it all burns down?
Fire, fire burning higher
Still got time to turn it all around

Don’t get me started on politics
Now how are we to live in a world like this
Greedy politicians, present and past
They wouldn’t know the truth if it bit ’em in the ass

Now tell me what is truth?
(Whatcha gonna do?)
Have we all lost sight
(Whatcha gonna do?)
Of common decency?
(Whatcha gonna do?)
Of the wrong and right?

How do we heal this great divide?
Do we care enough to try?
Liar, liar the world’s on fire
What we gonna do when it all burns down?

Billy got a gun, Joey got a knife
Janey got a sign to carry in the fight
Marching in the streets with sticks and stones
Don’t you ever believe words don’t break bones

Oh, can we rise above?
Can’t we show some love?
Do we just give up
Or make a change?
We know all too well
We’ve all been through hell
Time to break the spell
In Heaven’s name

Liar, liar the world’s on fire
Whatcha gonna do when it all burns down?
Fire, fire burning higher
Still got time to turn it all around

Liar, liar the world’s on fire
Whatcha gonna do when it all burns down?
Fire, fire burning higher
Still got time to turn it all around

Show some love (liar, liar, the world’s on fire)
(Still got time to turn it all around)
Let’s rise above (liar, liar, the world’s on fire)
(Whatcha gonna do when it all burns down?)
Let’s make a stand (liar, liar, the world’s on fire)
(Whatcha gonna do when it all burns down?)
Let’s lend a hand (liar, liar, the world’s on fire)
(Still got time to turn it all around)
Let’s heal the hurt (liar, Liar, the world’s on fire)
(Whatcha gonna do when it all burns down?)
Let kindness work (liar, liar, the world’s on fire)
(Whatcha gonna do when it all burns down?)
Let’s be a friend (liar, liar, the world’s on fire)
(Whatcha gonna do when it all burns down?)
Let hatred end (liar, liar, the world’s on fire)
(Whatcha gonna do)

Liar, liar, the world’s on fire
Whatcha gonna do when it all burns down?
Liar, liar, the world’s on fire
Whatcha gonna do when it all burns down?

My 2 Cents –

Okay…Wow. I have always loved Dolly. She is such a powerful singer and she always chooses lyrics that are worth hearing. But I am just blown away by this one all around.

Tuesday Tunes

A day for me to discuss music

Lyrics

I saw somebody leap to the other world
Jumping off the edge left behind his hope
But he could fly for a second incredible
I wonder what it was like when he finally fell

They say you hit the water and then it’s gone
All the tears you cried all the pain you felt
But is it worth all the hurt that you’ve probably caused
When they find that you don’t make it back to shore

To be honest
Sometimes I think about all of the same things
I wish I could go back so I could change all of my memories
‘Cause all of them are sad
All the drinks I had
Turned into a pool of misery
I wonder if I’m better drowning

I tell myself
No no no no no no no no
No
I try to tell myself
No no no no no no no no
No

They celebrate the life that they never knew
Can’t point out the elephant in the room
Most people can’t understand what you’re going through
So in the end does it matter the path you choose?

To be honest
Sometimes I feel like I’m feeling the same things
I wish there was a way that I could tell this to my family
But they’d only be sad
Maybe I don’t have
Any point in being here
It’s so unclear if I’m swimming or sinking

I tell myself
No no no no no no no no
No
I try to tell myself
No no no no no no no no
No

I’ll turn my headlights on
Speeding ‘cross the bridge
No it won’t be long
But I got to be strong

And I tell myself
No no no no no no no no
I gotta tell myself
No no no no no no no no

And I tell myself
No no no no no no no no
I gotta tell myself
No no no no no no no no

I tell myself

My 2 Cents –

This song is so poetic. I love the way it flows.

Tuesday Tunes

A day for me to discuss music

Lyrics

In the woods I met a man
Old as oak and staff in hand
Sunken eyes but gentle smile
We sat down and talked awhile

And he said I can see it in your eyes
You’ve been hurt a couple times
I’ve got the perfect antidote
To cure a heart of stone

Tiny red pills in a big blue bottle
He put them right in my hands
Said this stuff can do wonders take you to nirvana
Make you a better man

I should’ve known something was amiss
When I saw his smile turn to a grin
But
Then as he left me
There so perplexed
He turned and said

One to numb the hurt
Two to ease the pain
Three to clear your mind
Forget all the hate
Take as I advised
Not more than prescribed
Several weeks ahead
You’ll be fine again

One to numb the hurt
Two to ease the pain
Three to clear your mind
Forget all the hate
Take as I advised
Not more than prescribed
Several weeks ahead
You’ll be fine again

So I went home
My heart confused
Didn’t know just what to do
I popped the cap
And took a dose
After all what could I lose

And then I touched the clouds and bathed in sky
A magic broom a carpet ride
Before I fell and woke in bed
Tried to repeat the words he said

One to numb the hurt
Two to ease the pain
Three to clear my mind
Forget all my hate
What did he say next
I forget the rest
But several weeks ahead
I’ll be fine again

One to numb the hurt
Two to ease the pain
Three to clear my mind
Forget all my hate
Five could never hurt
Just to calm my nerves
Several weeks ahead
I’ll be fine again

Tiny red pills in a big blue bottle
Wish I had the strength back then
Need to get a refill chase away the evil
All the whispers in my head

But I can’t find the man I knocked on his door
His neighbors say no one lived there before
So now all my days
Just blur in a haze
They go like this

One to stop the chills
Two to ease the pain
Three to wash my guilt
Forget all my shame
Five could never hurt
Six couldn’t be worse
Seven days it’s been
Here we go again

One to stop the chills
Two to ease the pain
Three to wash my guilt
Forget all my shame
Five could never hurt
Six couldn’t be worse
Seven days it’s been
Here we go again

Here we go again
Here we go again
Oh

To stop the pain
Forget my shame
Ah

One
Two
Three
Four
Five
Six

My 2 Cents –

This has a fun feel but it talks about addiction. I feel like that is ofttimes how addiction is…it seems fun on the outside, but It is not near as fun inside.

Wild Wednesday

Okay…I have been thinking of the options for Wednesday.

I have had a few suggestions for what I could do…

And I have a few Ideas…but I am still on the fence because it feels like I am setting myself up for extra work…

I love the idea of doing some of the random things on the blog…but I am overwhelmed by the amount of work that I have as is.

I will keep Wednesday for the random stuff that pops in my brain.

I just don’t guarantee that I will do it every week.

If I do a video Book club discussion on Fae Corps Publishing’s YouTube Channel once a Month would anyone be interested? It is another thing I am being pushed to do that I am not sure if I should.

The current suggestions for Wednesday is to do a discussion on other people’s poetry…or a book club… or go back to the Webcomics… thing….or basically do a journal day(not really sure that is a great idea)…

Wild Wednesday

Well…I started wild Wednesday so I was not limited on topic…to get some leeway for me to do blogging about… and I am finding out that though I have an open day for discussion…. I have no idea what to say.

Part of the reason why is because I don’t know what I have that anyone wants to hear. My poetry and my art are unique. So I feel like they are things that are interesting. Everything else is stuff you can find in other places online. Why would anyone be interested in my view on the normal?

This is a sincere question for me. I love doing the blog but I am struggling with the everyday thing. I am seriously considering dropping Wednesday unless I have some reason to post.

Tuesday Tunes

A day for me to discuss music

Lyrics

The voices in my head keep on telling me to pray
‘Cause I’m spinning like a carousel, circling the drain
Hit the bottom of the bottle, I don’t wanna feel the pain
But that is all I got for now, I don’t wanna talk about it
The voices in my head keep on begging me to stay
If I pull the trigger now then the demons go away
And I know my time is coming so there ain’t no time to waste
So that is all I got for now, I don’t wanna talk about it
The voices in my head keep telling me to choose a side
It’s heaven or hell like it’s do or die
I’m a sad boy, you know better
Please don’t make this last forever
The voices in my head keep telling me I’m not okay
It’s feeling like a hurricane in my brain
Dark clouds, hard times, bad weather
Please don’t make this last forever
The voices in my head keep telling me I’m gonna (die)
And I don’t wanna talk about the drama, I’m trauma (tized)
They’re tellin’ me I’m fine but we both know that’s a fuckin’ (lie)
I’m losing my mind but I don’t wanna talk about it
The voices in my head keep giving me the worst advice
Kamikaze crash like a suicide
I’m a lost boy, you know better
Please don’t make this last forever
The voices in my head keep telling me I’m insane
And maybe I’m a little bit, that won’t change
Dark clouds, hard times, bad weather
Please don’t make this last forever
The voices in my head keep telling me I’m gonna (die)
And I don’t wanna talk about the drama, I’m trauma (tized)
They’re tellin’ me I’m fine but we both know that’s a fuckin’ (lie)
I’m losing my mind but I don’t wanna talk about
The voices in my head keep telling me I’m cursed
I’m paranoid, I don’t wanna make it any worse
We’re all gonna die but first things first
I’m a take the world with me when they put me in the dirt
The voices in my head keep telling me I’m cursed
I’m paranoid, I don’t wanna make it any worse
We’re all gonna die but first things first
I’m a take the world with me when they put me in the dirt
Move
(Move)
Voices in my head keep telling me I’m cursed
I’m paranoid, I don’t wanna make it any worse
We’re all gonna die, first things first
I’m a take the world with me when they put me in the dirt
The voices in my head keep telling me I’m gonna (die)
And I don’t wanna talk about the drama, I’m trauma (tized)
They’re tellin’ me I’m fine but we both know that’s a fuckin’ (lie)
I’m losing my mind but I don’t wanna talk about it
The voices in my head keep on telling me to pray
‘Cause I’m spinning like a carousel, circling the drain
Hit the bottom of the bottle, I don’t wanna feel the pain
I’m losing my mind but I don’t wanna talk about it

My 2 Cents –

So close…April has been a wild ride Y’all. I feel like being this busy is enough to drive anyone insane.

Wild Wednesday

Wild Wednesday!

So many topics…. what should I talk about?

I will admit I am out of topics…Whew. This month is whupping my backside…and I don’t know what to say!

Tuesday Tunes

A day for me to discuss music

Lyrics

My lover’s got humor
She’s the giggle at a funeral
Knows everybody’s disapproval
I should’ve worshiped her sooner
If the Heavens ever did speak
She’s the last true mouthpiece
Every Sunday’s getting more bleak
A fresh poison each week
“We were born sick”, you heard them say it
My church offers no absolutes
She tells me, “Worship in the bedroom”
The only Heaven I’ll be sent to
Is when I’m alone with you
I was born sick, but I love it
Command me to be well
A-, Amen, Amen, Amen
Take me to church
I’ll worship like a dog at the shrine of your lies
I’ll tell you my sins and you can sharpen your knife
Offer me that deathless death
Good God, let me give you my life
Take me to church
I’ll worship like a dog at the shrine of your lies
I’ll tell you my sins and you can sharpen your knife
Offer me that deathless death
Good God, let me give you my life
If I’m a pagan of the good times
My lover’s the sunlight
To keep the Goddess on my side
She demands a sacrifice
Drain the whole sea
Get something shiny
Something meaty for the main course
That’s a fine looking high horse
What you got in the stable?
We’ve a lot of starving faithful
That looks tasty
That looks plenty
This is hungry work
Take me to church
I’ll worship like a dog at the shrine of your lies
I’ll tell you my sins so you can sharpen your knife
Offer me my deathless death
Good God, let me give you my life
Take me to church
I’ll worship like a dog at the shrine of your lies
I’ll tell you my sins so you can sharpen your knife
Offer me my deathless death
Good God, let me give you my life
No masters or kings when the ritual begins
There is no sweeter innocence than our gentle sin
In the madness and soil of that sad earthly scene
Only then I am human
Only then I am clean
Oh, oh, Amen, Amen, Amen
Take me to church
I’ll worship like a dog at the shrine of your lies
I’ll tell you my sins and you can sharpen your knife
Offer me that deathless death
Good God, let me give you my life
Take me to church
I’ll worship like a dog at the shrine of your lies
I’ll tell you my sins and you can sharpen your knife
Offer me that deathless death
Good God, let me give you my life

My 2 Cents –

I have always made my view of religion clear. I am pagan. I maybe did not tell the story of what got me to that point though. I started out Baptist.. I have read the Bible. I actually attended a catholic Mass. I have read the Quran. I am pagan because it feels the least like a lie to me. But what started me questioning? The deacons at the First Baptist Church of LaPlata Maryland told me I was a bad influence on the children there and told me I was not welcome to attend church anymore. I was 14, Pregnant, and they had not the first clue what my situation was. They did not ask. They did not care. This was In 1989. I was a scandal. And They were not good Christians.