2026 PAD Challenge Day 9
my response:
Let us live together
as shadow people,
outside of society
outside of the binary
outside of the world
in its current state.
it was tried in the sixties
as communes but again
did human nature invade.
I do not want to be human
I do not want to be afraid
I just want to exist in my life
im my own way.
I forgot to do the book review for today and I overslept. I thought about hurrying up and trying to post it but I didn’t really feel like it..
so I will try to get it done next week
okay I will admit that a lot of the poetry I write has a darker tone. my art is more childish but it too has some dark tones. I will say it is because of my life thus far.
There’s whimsy and love notes mixed in the dark things. I recently got a comment on one of my poems that bothered me. I am sure that it was from a good place, but what if it wasn’t.
I mean I don’t want my poetry or art to push someone to the point of no return. please if my words make you feel like you need to do something drastic ….stop. you are a light in the world whether you realize it or not.
No one in all of heaven or earth is unimportant.
if you need to send me a message. I will always respond even if I only get to do so once.
This felt more important than Tuesday Tunes. that returns next week.
I know I missed the post yesterday. i was mostly imitating a corpse. Saturday night I was feeling pretty exhausted and I checked my blood sugar. it was 595 before I ate. so I ate and took my night meds then went to bed.
Yesterday my youngest son forced me to get up to eat and take my shot and meds. my blood sugar was 210. but I was still so tired.
i woke up around 630 am this morning. my sugar was 200. and I am feeling better. I believe that the high blood sugar was the reason why I crashed. so I apologize for the missing post yesterday but I was just too sick to deal with it.
This one was the one with the most votes. I will be using the other ones as the choices for the next one. Due to the chaos of my life and health I believe Rising Madness will be releasing in April.
I am currently looking for people who are interested in review copies (ebook only ) of any of my own books in exchange for an honest review on any of the online outlets. I want to boost my books on the algorithm a bit. This includes my work and Serena Mossgraves work. If you are interested just let me know and we’ll talk about the format you would like to get and an email to share it to.
I am already starting the new volume so maybe I can get back into the daily routine again.
Rising Madness is done. I normally do this before I finish the current one but my writing block broke and I didn’t have the time to ask.
Today I am alive.
Everything hurts, my health is uncertain, and my mental health is in the toilet. This is the first time in the last decade I have failed to do the pad challenge.
For me it means I am being unreliable for the people who are depending on me, and I hate it. I have never been the one that needed expensive things…but today I needed a pick me up.
I needed to get out of the house.
I needed a dirty Chai tea. (this is a Chai tea with a shot of espresso)
I needed five minutes when no one was depending on me while I was wanting to fall apart.
That feels so selfish.
I can’t remember a time when I didn’t have responsibilities…expectations…obligations. And I have always been able to do it. I gave of myself until everyone else had. Now I have to put my self first. and it’s so strange.
Yesterday I couldn’t find the energy to do the work I needed to do. Now after I enjoyed the Chai I will be able to do some of it.
I am still struggling, and I won’t be able to even get answers about my health issues until February.
This is the first time in a while I have struggled with the pad challenge. I am going to try to get it caught up…but I don’t know if I will be able to. I’m sick. Not the normal this time of year thing, though I wish it was. I just got over a nasty sinus infection, but I am still working on dealing with other issues that are making me feel like sleeping all the time.
I will get over it, I think…but I am not sure how long it will take. Until I get back to 100 % I am probably gonna be behind on everything. I am going to try to keep up…but I can’t promise anything right now.
I realize that I have been absent for a week….it was however not intentional. between Dr’s appointments and books releasing….I just brain fogged. Though I did have a nice surprise. went to the Dr because I have a sinus infection and the check in notes acknowledged that I have fibromyalgia and Autism. both of them previous doctors were not willing to diagnose me with. though other doctors had? I am sure that they are correct and having a dr agree just feels so good.
I should be doing the daily thing again through November but I don’t think I’ll be doing the normal week posts as I am doing 2 pad challenges and trying to do the Fae 50k.
so I have been busy as can be with doctor appointments and work. so I am not able to handle Saturday’s post this week. I will be putting the book review up tomorrow. thanks for your patience
Pattimouse 