Lyrics –

“HER”

I’ve been seeing stars
Every time I get up
It’s been getting hard
To keep on playing dress up
I’m body positive
Until it’s mine
Fighting for an hourglass
And running out time

Just an innocent compliment
I bet they didn’t mean it
Even if they did
I bet I still wouldn’t believe it
Thought when I got older
That this feeling would be gone
But I’m losing touch all at once
With everything I once was

If I could go back in time
I would tell her she looks divine
And I would guide her till she changed her mind
And never questioned who she was
And we’d go run outside
And play for hours in the sun
And I’d tell her all about the woman
That she will become
And I’d say you’re so much more than just a body
That needs measuring
So instead of counting calories
You can count on me

I think that I’m
Addicted to this sickness
And I’m slowly dying
But I’m the only witness
And I’m
Losing more than just a gap between my thighs
Fighting for an hourglass
And fighting for my life

Just an innocent compliment
I bet they didn’t mean it
Even if they did
I bet I still wouldn’t believe it
Thought when I got older
That this feeling would be gone
But I’m losing touch all at once
With everything I once was

If I could go back in time
I would tell her she looks divine
And I would guide her till she changed her mind
And never questioned who she was
And we’d go run outside
And play for hours in the sun
And I’d tell her all about the woman
That she will become
And I’d say you’re so much more than just a body
That needs measuring
So instead of counting calories
You can count on me

I’ve been
Unlearning
Un-hurting
Un-telling myself
I have to earn it
Is it worth it?
Is it worth it?
It’s not worth it

I’ve been
Unlearning
Un-hurting
Un-telling myself
I have to earn it
Is it worth it?
Is it worth it?
It’s not worth it

If I could go back in time
I would tell her she looks divine
And I would guide her till she changed her mind
And never questioned who she was

My 2 cents –

Self esteem is so hard. it’s multi faceted and can be destroyed by so much. it is possible to logically understand that you deserve to eat and still have issues…it is possible to see yourself as a person and still not be able to take compliments because the person in the mirror is distorted.

Lyrics –

Ha, ha, ha
Ha, ha, ha
Ha, ha, ha
Ha, ha, ha
Ha, ha, ha
Ha, ha, ha
Ha, ha, ha
Ha, ha, ha

Harpy Hare, where have you buried all your children?
Tell me so I say
Harpy Hare, where have you buried all your children?
Tell me so I say

All the arrows that you’ve stolen
Split in half, now bum and broken
Like your heart that was so eager to be hid
You can’t keep them all caged
They will fight and run away
Mother, tell me so I say (La-la-la, la-la-la, la-la-la)

Harpy Hare, where have you buried all your children?
Tell me so I say
Harpy Hare, where have you buried all your children?
Tell me so I say

Forest walls and starry ceilings
Barren curtains that you’re weaving
Like the stories that you keep inside your head
She can’t keep them all safe
They will die and be afraid
Mother, tell me so I say (Mother, tell me so I say)

Harpy Hare, where have you buried all your children?
Tell me so I say
Harpy Hare, where have you buried all your children?
Tell me so I say

Ha, ha, ha
Ha, ha, ha
Ha, ha, ha
Ha, ha, ha

Harpy Hare, where have you buried all your children?
Tell me so I say
Harpy Hare, where have you buried all your children?
Tell me so I say (Tell me so I say)

Ha, ha, ha
Ha, ha, ha
Ha, ha, ha
Ha, ha, ha
Ha, ha, ha
Ha, ha, ha
Ha, ha, ha
Ha, ha, ha
(Ha, ha, ha) She can’t keep them all caged
(Ha, ha, ha) They’ll be far and fly away
Mother, tell me you will stay
We’ll be far and fly away

My 2 cents –

I feel like I cannot keep up. My brain has so many ideas….So I end up feeling like I am burying the ones I cannot write.

Lyrics –

My brain won’t shut the fuck up when I try to go to bed
Suddenly all kinds of thoughts start racing round my head
Sometimes creative visions and sometimes just creeping dread
Or re-evalutions of the stupid things I’ve said
Lying in the darkness in the silence on my own
Trying hard to go to sleep and not look at my phone
Wanting to wake somebody but staring at the void instead
My brain won’t shut the fuck up when I try to go to bed

My brain won’t shut the fuck up when I want to go to sleep,
Thoughts of past embarrassments each night upon me creep,
Some random song from years ago gets stuck there on repeat
Or worries about the week ahead just make my want to weep,
Regulating temperature by flipping over my pillow
Convinced I need the bathroom but not able to go,
Trying everything from reading books to counting sheep,
My brain won’t shut the fuck up when I want to go to sleep,

My brain won’t shut the fuck up when I try to close my eyes,
Concerns I’d long forgotten about come back and say ‘Surprise!’
Smartphone internet seems like a curse now in disguise
And the bed suddenly feels too small for someone of my size
Jealous of my partner who drifts off so easily
Turning over in frustration to watch them sleeping peacefully
Only managing to doze off just before it’s time again to rise
My brain won’t shut the fuck up when I try to close my eyes.

My 2 cents –

insomnia has had claws lately

Lyrics –

I can feel the darkness around me
Hottie drives a little white Audi
I don’t know how, but she found me
Yeah, she got my cell and my address
And she’s the reaper in a black dress
Got myself in another mess
Blame it on the whiskey
She don’t even miss me
She comin’ in hot, she a bad bitch
Cuttin’ my heart like a savage
Trade in my soul, she can have it
Let me introduce you to my new bad habit
I got a disease, yeah, I got an addiction
I’m down on my knees, truth is stranger than fiction
If the drugs don’t kill me, then the loneliness will
I wanna breathe you in (breathe you in)
I wanna be your fool (be your fool)
I wanna be your drug
And I wanna lick your wounds
She comin’ in hot, she a bad bitch
Cuttin’ my heart like a savage
Trade in my soul, she can have it
Let me introduce you to my new bad habit

My 2 cents –

I was recently introduced to this one. it has a few interesting lines.

Lyrics –

To all things housed in her silence
Nature offers a violence
The bear that keeps to his own line
The wolf that seeks always his own kind
The world that hardens as the harsher winter holds
The parent forced to eat its young before it grows

Every bird, gone unheard
Starving where the ground has froze
The winter sunrise, red on white
Like blood upon the snow
Like blood upon the snow

The ground walked here is a wonder
It ceases never to hunger
And all things nature’s given
She takes all things back from the living

I’ve walked the earth and there are so few here that know
How dark the night and just how cold the wind can blow
I’ve no more hunger now to see where the road will go
I’ve no more kept my warmth
Than blood upon the snow
Blood upon the snow
Blood upon the snow
Blood upon the snow

It’s not my arms that will fail me
But this world takes more strength than it gave me
The trees deny themselves nothing that makes them grow
No rain fall, no sunshine
No blood upon the snow
Blood upon the snow
Blood upon the snow
Blood upon the snow

To all things housed in her silence
Nature offers a violence

My 2 cents –

This is such a lovely song. It feels more like a poem being sung than a song to me.

Lyrics –

[Verse 1]
Gazing through the window at the world outside
Wondering will mother earth survive
Hoping that mankind will stop abusing her sometime

[Verse 2]
After all, there’s only just the two of us
And here we are still fighting for our lives
Watching all of history repeat itself time after time

[Chorus]
I’m just a dreamer
I dream my life away
I’m just a dreamer
Who dreams of better days

[Verse 3]
I watch the sun go down like everyone of us
I’m hoping that the dawn will bring a sign
A better place for those who will come after us this time

[Chorus]
I’m just a dreamer
I dream my life away, oh yeah
I’m just a dreamer
Who dreams of better days

[Bridge]
Your higher power may be God or Jesus Christ
It doesn’t really matter much to me
Without each other’s help there ain’t no hope for us
I’m living in a dream of fantasy, oh, yeah, yeah, yeah

[Guitar Solo]

[Verse 4]
If only we could all just find serenity
It would be nice if we could live as one
When will all this anger, hate and bigotry be gone?

[Chorus]
I’m just a dreamer
I dream my life away, today
I’m just a dreamer
Who dreams of better days, okay
I’m just a dreamer
Who’s searching for the way, today
I’m just a dreamer
Dreaming my life away, oh, yeah, yeah, yeah

My 2 cents –

I notice the celebrity deaths…I can’t help it. This one hurts, but I am grateful that he was able to do a goodbye concert. It feels like he went out on his own terms. I realize that everyone’s playing Mama I’m coming home … I understand the reason why , and I love that song but I feel like he had such a good discography that I wanted to share a different one. Ozzy was a legend . I cannot help but pay tribute to that. May he rest well and his memory be a blessing.

Lyrics –

Who’s sorry now?
Who’s sorry now?
Whose heart is achin’ for breakin’ each vow?
Who’s sad and blue? Who’s cryin’ too?
Just like I cried over you

Right to the end
Just like a friend
I tried to warn you somehow
You had your way
Now you must pay
I’m glad that you’re sorry now

Right to the end
Just like a friend
I tried to warn you somehow
You had your way
Now you must pay
I’m glad that you’re sorry now

My 2 cents –

I notice the celebrity deaths…I can’t help it. I remember listening to Connie Francis as a teen. (One of my Aunts really liked the 50’s rock.) I come by my eclectic music tastes naturally. She wasn’t one of the ones that I listened to relentlessly but I did like a few of the songs. I cannot help but pay tribute to that. May she rest well and her memory be a blessing.