Tuesday Tunes

Lyrics

I live inside my own world of make-believe
Kids screaming in their cradles, profanities
I see the world through eyes covered in ink and bleach
Cross out the ones who heard my cries and watched me weep
I love everything
Fire’s spreading all around my room
My world’s so bright
It’s hard to breathe but that’s alright
Hush
Shh
Tape my eyes open to force reality (oh no, no)
Why can’t you just let me eat my weight in glee?
I live inside my own world of make-believe
Kids screaming in their cradles, profanities
Some days I feel skinnier than all the other days
And some days I can’t tell if my body belongs to me
I love everything
Fire’s spreading all around my room
My world’s so bright
It’s hard to breathe but that’s alright
Hush
Shh
I wanna taste your content
Hold your breath and feel the tension
Devils hide behind redemption
Honesty is a one-way gate to hell
I wanna taste consumption
Breathe faster to waste oxygen
Hear the children sing aloud
It’s music ’til the wick burns out
Hush
Just wanna be care free lately, yeah
Just kicking up daisies
Got one too many quarters in my pockets
Count ’em like the four-leaf clovers in my locket
Untied laces, yeah
Just tripping on daydreams
Got dirty little lullabies playing on repeat
Might as well just rot around the nursery and count sheep

My 2 cents
The problem with being so open minded with music is that choosing just one a week to share is tough. Today I went looking for a song that reflected the confusion in my mind most of the time, the creative draw, the pain, the uncertainty… and I came across this. it made sense. so it got selected to share.

Coffee House

My poem

My friend Tish’s article

My friend SB’s article

Tuesday Tunes

Lyrics –

The houses around me
Are filled with people who panic
They hear the noise and the static
And then we all become frantic
We hear the omens and legends
We’re praising gold and our pleasures
We’re looking over our shoulders
Pretend we got it together
Draw the blinds
Check under your bed
Hide your gold
And hold your breath
Feel the ghost
In your chest
Check your pulse
You’re scared to death
Para paranoia
You know what’s coming for ya
Venom in your blood
And there’s no one here to warn ya
Para paranoia
You’ve been here before
Ya can lock up all your doors
But there’s a phantom in your foyer
Para paranoia
Para paranoia
Para paranoia
Controlled by the tension
That’s taking all our attention
To busy with expectations
We’re losing all our convictions
Draw the blinds
Check under your bed
Hide your gold
And hold your breath
Feel the ghost
In your chest
Check your pulse
You’re scared to death
Para paranoia
You know what’s coming for ya
Venom in your blood
And there’s no one here to warn ya
Para paranoia
You’ve been here before
Ya can lock up all your doors
But there’s a phantom in your foyer
Para paranoia
Para paranoia
Para paranoia
Draw the blinds
Check under your bed
Hide your gold
And hold your breath
Feel the ghost
In your chest
Check your pulse
You’re scared to death
Para paranoia
You know what’s coming for ya
Venom in your blood
And there’s no one here to warn ya
Para paranoia
You’ve been here before
Ya can lock up all your doors
But there’s a phantom in your foyer
Para paranoia
You know what’s coming for ya
Venom in your blood
And there’s no one here to warn ya
Para paranoia
You’ve been here before
Ya can lock up all your doors
But there’s a phantom in your foyer
Para paranoia

My 2 Cents-
I asked my daughter for a song for the week, and this was her suggestion. It is a fairly upbeat tune. I like the way the lyrics go. It is not a song I would normally go for admittedly. Still it is not a bad song in all.

Tuesday Tunes

Lyrics:
I let myself fall into a lie
I let my walls come down
I let myself smile and feel alive
I let my walls come down
No matter how I try I don’t know why
You push so far away
You wrapped your hands tight around my heart
And squeezed it full of pain
With this knife I’ll cut out the part of me
The part that cares for you
With this knife I’ll cut out the heart of me
The heart that cares for you
I can’t believe the way you took me down
I never saw the pain
Coming in a million broken miles
Like poison in my veins
With this knife I’ll cut out the part of me
The part that cares for you
With this knife I’ll cut out the heart of me
The heart that cares for you
The hate and the fear
The nightmares that wake me up
In the tears
The nightmares and (the hate)…

My 2 Cents:
This song gets a bad rap I think. so many see it as emo. It is expressive and poetic. It feels like a song that I can relate to. sometimes that idea of taking a knife and cutting out the heart that wants to hang onto a toxic love…is strong.

Tuesday Tunes

Lyrics-
Smoke a little weed, smoke a little weed
I’ve been feelin’ low
Pressure in my head, lay awake in bed
I’m against the rose
Been tryin’ to recover but nothin’ i do works
‘Cause hidin’ under the covers is only makin’ it worse
I’m stuck
Think this is growin’ up
Too much is on my mind, always on my mind
Need a little space
Spend my days alone, can’t get off my phone
Nothing goes my way
Miss all of my friends and barely can file my taxes
I’m halfway through my twenties
Like, how the hell did this happen?
I’m stuck
My life is in a rut
And i’ve been hopin’ these doors might open
And i’ll be running from this place, free
Constant pacing; this time, i’m wasting
I can’t control these emotions in me
Growin’ up
I think i’ve seen better days, it’s gettin’ tough
Always tryna seem like i’m okay
I’m growin’ up
Whatever that means, anyway
I don’t know enough
I’m just growin’ up
Girlfriend wanna chill, girlfriend wanna chill
I’ve been workin’ late
I don’t got no time, workin’ all the time
Too much on my plate
And i don’t wanna fail, i’m bringin’ myself stress
I can’t sit on my sofa, i’m lost and depressed
And stuck
I can’t say that enough
Anxiety is high, i can’t even lie
I’m not doin’ great
Dishes in the sink, think i need a drink
They gon’ have to wait
Stay inside my room that now’s become a prison
I hate these four walls, but only feel safe in ’em
I’m stuck
But no one gives a fuck
And i’ve been hopin’ these doors might open
And i’ll be running from this place, free
Constant pacing; this time, i’m wasting
I can’t control these emotions in me
Growin’ up
I think i’ve seen better days, it’s gettin’ tough
Always tryna seem like i’m okay
I’m growin’ up
Whatever that means, anyway
I don’t know enough
I’m just growin’ up
Growin’ up
I think i’ve seen better days, it’s gettin’ tough
Always tryna seem like i’m okay
I’m growin’ up
Whatever that means, anyway
I don’t know enough
I’m just growin’ up
Growin’ up

My 2 Cents –
Well here lately I have been wondering who made me a grown up? I am struggling with responsibility and the urge to just have fun…so I really related to this one. I can’t imagine with the last year being the way it has that I am alone. so my song choice reflects it. It is ok to feel like you want to have fun, just don’t let it make you do something stupid.

Spoken Verse

Maybe making a habit.

So I am enjoying, sort of, reading my poems…. We just won’t discuss how many takes it took to get a version I was not embarrassed by…. Lol

Tuesday tunes

Lyrics –
All gone is here today
Finding room to breathe
Go on beyond your way
And see
And though the sounds of someday
May be home
And though the sounds of someday
May be home
Even the fires on the road
Trying to get away
And all the stars seem on a roll
Out of control today
Though the sounds of someday
May be home
And though the sounds of someday
May be home, yeah
Though the sounds of someday
May be home
Though the sounds of someday
May be home, ay
And though the sounds of someday
May be home, ooh

My 2 Cents –
This song talks of hope…in a world gone crazy it feels like we need hope…in abundance. Jensen has a gorgeous voice, and I need hope…so I went with it.