Since I was 17 I’ve always hated my body And it feels like my body’s hated me Can somebody find me a pill To make me un-afraid of me? Seen every therapist, but I’m a cynical Don’t like to talk about my feelings I take another hit, I find another fake fix ‘Cause it’s easier than healing I don’t wanna be this way forever Keep telling myself that I’ll get better Every time I try, I always stop me Maybe I’m just scared to be happy Since I was 22 I’ve been with somebody who loves me And I’ve been tryna believe it’s true But my head always messes up my heart No matter what I do Seen every therapist, but I’m a cynical Don’t like to talk about my feelings I take another sip, I swear it’s my last fix ‘Cause it’s easier than healing I don’t wanna be this way forever Keep telling myself that I’ll get better Every time I try, I always stop me Maybe I’m just scared to be happy I don’t wanna be this way forever Keep telling myself that I’ll get better Every time I try, I always stop me Maybe I’m just scared to be happy Maybe I’m just scared to be happy Maybe I’m just scared to be happy I’m so scared of having something to lose I’m scared of being somebody new I’m so scared of all them seeing the truth ‘Cause right now I’ve got nothing But I don’t wanna be this way forever Keep telling myself that I’ll get better Every time I try, I always stop me Maybe I’m just scared to be happy Maybe I’m just scared to be happy (Maybe, yeah) Maybe I’m, I’m scared to be happy
My 2 cents –
This one hits hard for me. It feels like I am being called out.
[Intro: Addie Nicole] I’ll bite my tongue ’til it bleeds Metallic tranquility The pain gets buried beneath When I bite my tongue ’til it bleeds
[Verse 1: Addie Nicole] I know the guilt and shame you hide Kept your secrets deep inside I internalized them, blamed myself and Stepped in the line of fire Sacrificed myself but why You resent me every time So when you point that finger point it at the mirror like
[Chorus: Addie Nicole] I’ll bite my tongue ’til it bleeds Mеtallic tranquility The pain gets buried bеneath But I’ll bite my tongue ’til it bleeds ‘Til it bleeds
[Verse 2: Bradley Amick] I could destroy you with one line And the world would take my side But I’d never go that low like you seem to go every time Just be human, fuck your pride You’re addicted to the fight I want off this ride so I won’t spend another night
[Chorus: Addie Nicole & Bradley Amick] I’ll bite my tongue ’til it bleeds Metallic tranquility The pain gets buried beneath The road is high and it’s steep I waive white flags, keep the peace In Eden’s garden of trees You place the traps, plant the seeds But I’ll bite my tongue ’til it bleeds
[Bridge: Bradley Amick, Addie Nicole] Pain, pain, I put you through this Pain, pain, I put you through Pain, I put you through this Pain, I put you through Enjoy the hell that you need Deploy the darkness you seek Destroy yourself without me I’ll bite my tongue ’til it bleeds
[Pre-Chorus: Addie Nicole] I know that you don’t believe
[Chorus: Addie Nicole & Bradley Amick] I’ll bite my tongue ’til it bleeds Metallic tranquility The pain gets buried beneath The road is high and it’s steep I waive white flags, keep the peace In Eden’s garden of trees You place the traps, plant the seeds But I’ll bite my tongue ’til it bleeds
[Post-Chorus: Addie Nicole] I’ll bite my tongue ’til it bleeds
My 2 cents –
I actually had a hard choice with this song. There is this version and the official version. The imagery is amazing. I decided to do a volume of cut poetry because of this song. (I have done Cut Poems before but this one made me realize I had a ton more to write). The vocals are amazing.
To all things housed in her silence Nature offers a violence The bear that keeps to his own line The wolf that seeks always his own kind The world that hardens as the harsher winter holds The parent forced to eat its young before it grows
Every bird, gone unheard Starving where the ground has froze The winter sunrise, red on white Like blood upon the snow Like blood upon the snow
The ground walked here is a wonder It ceases never to hunger And all things nature’s given She takes all things back from the living
I’ve walked the earth and there are so few here that know How dark the night and just how cold the wind can blow I’ve no more hunger now to see where the road will go I’ve no more kept my warmth Than blood upon the snow Blood upon the snow Blood upon the snow Blood upon the snow
It’s not my arms that will fail me But this world takes more strength than it gave me The trees deny themselves nothing that makes them grow No rain fall, no sunshine No blood upon the snow Blood upon the snow Blood upon the snow Blood upon the snow
To all things housed in her silence Nature offers a violence
My 2 cents –
This is such a lovely song. It feels more like a poem being sung than a song to me.
[Verse 1] Gazing through the window at the world outside Wondering will mother earth survive Hoping that mankind will stop abusing her sometime
[Verse 2] After all, there’s only just the two of us And here we are still fighting for our lives Watching all of history repeat itself time after time
[Chorus] I’m just a dreamer I dream my life away I’m just a dreamer Who dreams of better days
[Verse 3] I watch the sun go down like everyone of us I’m hoping that the dawn will bring a sign A better place for those who will come after us this time
[Chorus] I’m just a dreamer I dream my life away, oh yeah I’m just a dreamer Who dreams of better days
[Bridge] Your higher power may be God or Jesus Christ It doesn’t really matter much to me Without each other’s help there ain’t no hope for us I’m living in a dream of fantasy, oh, yeah, yeah, yeah
[Guitar Solo]
[Verse 4] If only we could all just find serenity It would be nice if we could live as one When will all this anger, hate and bigotry be gone?
[Chorus] I’m just a dreamer I dream my life away, today I’m just a dreamer Who dreams of better days, okay I’m just a dreamer Who’s searching for the way, today I’m just a dreamer Dreaming my life away, oh, yeah, yeah, yeah
My 2 cents –
I notice the celebrity deaths…I can’t help it. This one hurts, but I am grateful that he was able to do a goodbye concert. It feels like he went out on his own terms. I realize that everyone’s playing Mama I’m coming home … I understand the reason why , and I love that song but I feel like he had such a good discography that I wanted to share a different one. Ozzy was a legend . I cannot help but pay tribute to that. May he rest well and his memory be a blessing.