My brain won’t shut the fuck up when I try to go to bed Suddenly all kinds of thoughts start racing round my head Sometimes creative visions and sometimes just creeping dread Or re-evalutions of the stupid things I’ve said Lying in the darkness in the silence on my own Trying hard to go to sleep and not look at my phone Wanting to wake somebody but staring at the void instead My brain won’t shut the fuck up when I try to go to bed
My brain won’t shut the fuck up when I want to go to sleep, Thoughts of past embarrassments each night upon me creep, Some random song from years ago gets stuck there on repeat Or worries about the week ahead just make my want to weep, Regulating temperature by flipping over my pillow Convinced I need the bathroom but not able to go, Trying everything from reading books to counting sheep, My brain won’t shut the fuck up when I want to go to sleep,
My brain won’t shut the fuck up when I try to close my eyes, Concerns I’d long forgotten about come back and say ‘Surprise!’ Smartphone internet seems like a curse now in disguise And the bed suddenly feels too small for someone of my size Jealous of my partner who drifts off so easily Turning over in frustration to watch them sleeping peacefully Only managing to doze off just before it’s time again to rise My brain won’t shut the fuck up when I try to close my eyes.
I can feel the darkness around me Hottie drives a little white Audi I don’t know how, but she found me Yeah, she got my cell and my address And she’s the reaper in a black dress Got myself in another mess Blame it on the whiskey She don’t even miss me She comin’ in hot, she a bad bitch Cuttin’ my heart like a savage Trade in my soul, she can have it Let me introduce you to my new bad habit I got a disease, yeah, I got an addiction I’m down on my knees, truth is stranger than fiction If the drugs don’t kill me, then the loneliness will I wanna breathe you in (breathe you in) I wanna be your fool (be your fool) I wanna be your drug And I wanna lick your wounds She comin’ in hot, she a bad bitch Cuttin’ my heart like a savage Trade in my soul, she can have it Let me introduce you to my new bad habit
My 2 cents –
I was recently introduced to this one. it has a few interesting lines.
Something takes a part of me Something lost and never seen Every time I start to believe Something’s raped and taken from me, from me Life’s gotta always be messing with me (you wanna see the light) Can’t they chill and let me be free? (So do I) Can’t I take away all this pain? (You wanna see the light) I try to every night, all in vain, in vain Sometimes I cannot take this place Sometimes it’s my life I can’t taste Sometimes I cannot feel my face You’ll never see me fall from grace Something takes a part of me You and I were meant to be A cheap fuck for me to lay Something takes a part of me Feeling like a freak on a leash (you wanna see the light) Feeling like I have no release (so do I) How many times have I felt diseased? (You wanna see the light) Nothing in my life is free, is free Sometimes I cannot take this place Sometimes it’s my life I can’t taste Sometimes I cannot feel my face You’ll never see me fall from grace Something takes a part of me You and I were meant to be A cheap fuck for me to lay Something takes a part of me Boom-da-da-mmm-dum-na-ee-ma Da-boom-da-da-mmm-dum-na-ee-ma Da-boom-da-da-mmm-dum-na-ee-ma Da-boom-da-da-mmm-dum-na-ee-ma Da-boom-da-da-mmm-dum-na-ee-ma Da-boom-da-da-mmm-dum-na-ee-ma Da-boom-da-da-mmm-dum-na-ee-ma Da-boom-da-da-mmm-dum-na-ee-ma Da-boom-da-da-mmm-dum-na-ee-ma Da-boom-da-da-mmm-dum-na-ee-ma Da-boom-da-da-mmm-dum-na-ee-ma Da-boom-da-da-mmm-dum-na-ay, go So fight, something on the ming-a-ooh Fight, some things they fight So, something on the ming-a-ooh Fight, some things they fight Fight, something off the hee-a-hoo No, some things they fight Fight, something on the ming-a-hoo Fight, some things they fight Something takes a part of me You and I were meant to be A cheap fuck for me to lay Something takes a part of me Part of me Part of me Part of me Oh
My 2 cents –
my pain is on display at times because I don’t hide my past or my life. I will stumble on occasion but I will not fall.
Since I was 17 I’ve always hated my body And it feels like my body’s hated me Can somebody find me a pill To make me un-afraid of me? Seen every therapist, but I’m a cynical Don’t like to talk about my feelings I take another hit, I find another fake fix ‘Cause it’s easier than healing I don’t wanna be this way forever Keep telling myself that I’ll get better Every time I try, I always stop me Maybe I’m just scared to be happy Since I was 22 I’ve been with somebody who loves me And I’ve been tryna believe it’s true But my head always messes up my heart No matter what I do Seen every therapist, but I’m a cynical Don’t like to talk about my feelings I take another sip, I swear it’s my last fix ‘Cause it’s easier than healing I don’t wanna be this way forever Keep telling myself that I’ll get better Every time I try, I always stop me Maybe I’m just scared to be happy I don’t wanna be this way forever Keep telling myself that I’ll get better Every time I try, I always stop me Maybe I’m just scared to be happy Maybe I’m just scared to be happy Maybe I’m just scared to be happy I’m so scared of having something to lose I’m scared of being somebody new I’m so scared of all them seeing the truth ‘Cause right now I’ve got nothing But I don’t wanna be this way forever Keep telling myself that I’ll get better Every time I try, I always stop me Maybe I’m just scared to be happy Maybe I’m just scared to be happy (Maybe, yeah) Maybe I’m, I’m scared to be happy
My 2 cents –
This one hits hard for me. It feels like I am being called out.
[Intro: Addie Nicole] I’ll bite my tongue ’til it bleeds Metallic tranquility The pain gets buried beneath When I bite my tongue ’til it bleeds
[Verse 1: Addie Nicole] I know the guilt and shame you hide Kept your secrets deep inside I internalized them, blamed myself and Stepped in the line of fire Sacrificed myself but why You resent me every time So when you point that finger point it at the mirror like
[Chorus: Addie Nicole] I’ll bite my tongue ’til it bleeds Mеtallic tranquility The pain gets buried bеneath But I’ll bite my tongue ’til it bleeds ‘Til it bleeds
[Verse 2: Bradley Amick] I could destroy you with one line And the world would take my side But I’d never go that low like you seem to go every time Just be human, fuck your pride You’re addicted to the fight I want off this ride so I won’t spend another night
[Chorus: Addie Nicole & Bradley Amick] I’ll bite my tongue ’til it bleeds Metallic tranquility The pain gets buried beneath The road is high and it’s steep I waive white flags, keep the peace In Eden’s garden of trees You place the traps, plant the seeds But I’ll bite my tongue ’til it bleeds
[Bridge: Bradley Amick, Addie Nicole] Pain, pain, I put you through this Pain, pain, I put you through Pain, I put you through this Pain, I put you through Enjoy the hell that you need Deploy the darkness you seek Destroy yourself without me I’ll bite my tongue ’til it bleeds
[Pre-Chorus: Addie Nicole] I know that you don’t believe
[Chorus: Addie Nicole & Bradley Amick] I’ll bite my tongue ’til it bleeds Metallic tranquility The pain gets buried beneath The road is high and it’s steep I waive white flags, keep the peace In Eden’s garden of trees You place the traps, plant the seeds But I’ll bite my tongue ’til it bleeds
[Post-Chorus: Addie Nicole] I’ll bite my tongue ’til it bleeds
My 2 cents –
I actually had a hard choice with this song. There is this version and the official version. The imagery is amazing. I decided to do a volume of cut poetry because of this song. (I have done Cut Poems before but this one made me realize I had a ton more to write). The vocals are amazing.