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Tuesday Tunes

Lyrics –

[Verse 1]
I must be the kings of gambling
‘Cause I’m no ace of hearts babe, as you know, mmm
People say pick yourself up from the ground
But I just keep on sinking, like a stone, mmm

[Post-Verse]
When I drift closer you float further, out
And I hate, yeah I hate it
It’s like I’m the story’s villain
And you are the heroine
And I can’t win

[Pre-Chorus]
I tried to say I’m sorry but it sounds like it’s your fault
And every compliment just sounds like you’re no good at all
Yeah I hate to be the reason for you walking out that door
But right before I fix it, I fuck it up

[Chorus]
Fuck it up some more
I fuck it up, fuck it up
Fuck it up some more
I fuck it up, fuck it up
Fuck it up some more
I fuck it up, fuck it up
Fuck it up some more
I fuck it up, fuck it up
Fuck it up some more

[Verse 2]
You’re the best I’ve ever had
Hope I’m not your worst, but I don’t know, mmm
Sorry I’ve dragged you down through every circle
Down through my inferno
Should’ve cleaned first, mmm, mmm

[Post-Verse]
When I drift closer you float further, out
And I hate, yeah I hate it
It’s like I’m the story’s villain
And you are the heroine
And I can’t win

[Pre-Chorus]
I tried to say I’m sorry but it sounds like it’s your fault
And every compliment just sounds like you’re no good at all
Yeah I hate to be the reason for you walking out that door
But right before I fix it, I fuck it up

[Chorus]
Fuck it up some more
I fuck it up, fuck it up
Fuck it up some more
I fuck it up, fuck it up
Fuck it up some more
I fuck it up, fuck it up
Fuck it up some more
I fuck it up, fuck it up
Fuck it up some more
I fuck it up, fuck it up
Fuck it up some more
I fuck it up, fuck it up
Fuck it up some more

My 2 cents –

I can’t help feeling like this song is reading my mind. I often feel like a screw up. Whether I am or not. This one has been stuck in my head lately.

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Tuesday Tunes

A day for me to discuss music

Lyrics –

Lost in a dream
I had when I was young
No I never woke up
From itI broke a chain
I turned and ran
No I never looked back
AgainIs there anybody out there?
Hello can you hear me?
Or am I just screaming to the void?
I’m not looking for a savior
I just need somebody
Telling me I’m not in this alone
Cause I’m feeling like a creep here
Standing on the outside
Tunnel vision stares cut to the bone
I’m not looking for a savior
I just need somebody
Telling me I’m not in this alone
Is there anybody out there?
Are you a freak like me?
Getting kicked out somewhere
Are you a freak like me?
Tell me where you wanna go
And baby we’ll go
You don’t gotta walk that way alone
Fuck this place
We don’t gotta go back there
Is there anybody?It’s all on me
Yeah everything’s my fault
Locked in a bathroom stall right now
Death of a dream
It’s running down my cheeks
Won’t let ’em see me weak
Like thisIs there anybody out there?
Hello can you hear me?
Or am I just screaming to the void?
I’m not looking for a savior
I just need somebody
Telling me I’m not in this alone
Cause I’m feeling like a creep here
Standing on the outside
Tunnel vision stares cut to the bone
I’m not looking for a savior
I just need somebody
Telling me I’m not in this alone
Is there anybody out there
Are you a freak like me?
Getting kicked out somewhere
Are you a freak like me?
Tell me where you wanna go
And baby we’ll go
You don’t gotta walk that way alone
Fuck this place
We don’t gotta go back there
Is there anybody out there?
Is there anybody out there?
Is there anybody out there?
Hello can you hear me?
Or am I just screaming to the void?
I’m not looking for a savior
I just need somebody
Telling me I’m not in this alone
Is there anybody out there?
Are you a freak like me?
Getting kicked out somewhere
Are you a freak like me?
Tell me where you wanna go
And baby we’ll go
You don’t gotta walk that way alone
Fuck this place
We don’t gotta go back there
Is there anybody out there?
Is there anybody out there?

My 2 Cents –
Don’t we all feel alone sometimes? This song speaks to that lonely feeling. I often feel like this. I sit alone typing into a void…Is there anybody out there?

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Tuesday Tunes

A day for me to discuss music

Lyrics –

Oh, oh
Oh, oh
I should be living the dream
But I’m livin’ with a security team
And that ain’t gonna change, no
I got a paranoia in me
And you wouldn’t believe
Everything that I seen, no
Comin’ apart at the seams
And no one around me knows
Who I am, what I’m on
Who I’ve hurt and where they’ve gone
I know that I’ve done some wrong
But I’m tryna make it right
To the one I love, paint me wrong
Give me a light now (Oh-oh)
You know that I love you
But I’m still learnin’ to love myself
(To love my, to love my, to love my)
I’m still learnin’ to love myself
(To love my, to love my, to love my)
Yeah, yeahI should be livin’ the dream
But I go home and I got no self-esteem (No)
You think I’m swimmin’ in green
But it’s passed around my family tree
No man wants to really commit
Intimidated ’cause I get paid and shit
In the crowd, you’re readin’ my lips
But no one around me knows
Who I am, what I’m on
Who I’ve hurt and where they’ve gone
I know that I’ve done some wrong
But I’m tryna make it right
The same mistakes on and on
To all my friends, I’m sorry for
You know that I love you
But I’m still learnin’ (I’m still learnin’) to love myself
(To love my, to love my, to love my) Yeah, yeah
I’m still learnin’ (I’m still learnin’) to love myself (To love myself)
(To love my, to love my, to love my) Yeah, yeah (Oh, oh)
Oh, I try and I try to remember sometimes
If I breathe, it’s alright, but some things don’t change
I’m still learnin’ (I’m still learnin’) to love myself (To love myself)
(To love my, to love my, to love myself)
Who I am, what I’m on
Who I’ve hurt and where they’ve gone
I know that I’ve done some wrong
But I’m tryna make it right
To the one I love, paint me wrong
Give me a light now
(To the ones I love) To the ones I love
I’m still learnin’ to love myself
(To love my, to love my, to love my) Yeah, yeah
I’m still learnin’ (I’m still learnin’) to love myself (To love myself)
(To love my, to love my, to love my, ooh)
And I try and I try to remember sometimes
If I breathe, it’s alright, but some things don’t change
I’m still learnin’ (I’m still learnin’) to love myself (Love myself)
To love myself
I’m still learnin’ to love myself


My 2 Cents –
I find it so easy to love everyone else. I struggle to love myself. I see too easily the flaws. So forgive me if I take a few…I’m Still Learning to love myself…

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Tuesday Tunes

A day for me to discuss music

Lyrics –

Please, forgive me, I’ve got demons in my head
There’s something in the water
I don’t like the flavour, I don’t like the taste
Searching for nirvana
Something that’ll take it all away from me
Don’t bother me, my misery
It’s holding me
Won’t let me speak
Please, forgive me, I’ve got demons in my head (in my head)
Please, forgive me, I’ve got demons in my head
Tryna eat me, tryna feed me lies until I’m dead (’til I’m dead)
Please, forgive me, I’ve got demons in my head (in my head)
It’s creeping in, it’s gonna get me by the end of the night
I’m sinking deeper, still I’m reaching for the end of the light
Burning in the lava
You can’t go and pray this type of pain away
Don’t bother me, my misery
It’s holding me
Won’t let me speak
Please, forgive me, I’ve got demons in my head (in my head)
Please, forgive me, I’ve got demons in my head
Tryna eat me, tryna feed me lies until I’m dead (’til I’m dead)
Please, forgive me, I’ve got demons in my head (oh, head!)I feel like I can’t breathe
I feel like I can’t sleep
How did I not see?
I’m unwell
I feel like I can’t breathe
I feel like I can’t sleep
How did I not see?
I’m unwell
Please, forgive me, I’ve got demons in my head (in my head)
Please, forgive me, I’ve got demons in my head (oh, head!)
Please, forgive me, I’ve got demons in my head (in my head)
Please, forgive me, I’ve got demons in my head
Tryna eat me, tryna feed me lies until I’m dead (’til I’m dead)
Please, forgive me, I’ve got demons in my head (oh, head!)In my head
Please, forgive me, I’ve got demons in my head (in my head)
Please, forgive me, I’ve got demons in my head

My 2 Cents-
Ok…. I am behind on Loki. Just got to watch episodes 3 & 4 this weekend. (Me and a couple of friends are watching it together. This song began episode 3 and I just had to look it up. The lyrics feel, much like many of my favorite songs, like someone is watching my life too closely. The best songs always feel like they rip your heart out. You can understand it far better than you really want to. What song tears you apart?

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Tuesday Tunes

A day for me to discuss music

Lyrics –
[Verse 1]
Thought I’d bite my tongue
Just this once, maybe twice, but the harder I bite
Now it’s drawing blood
There’s a trace on my lips, leaves a taste when we kiss
Try to cover up
All of the lies and all of the lines that I
Bottle up
To keep you safe and sound

[Pre-Chorus]
But echoes of warnings
Like whispers of morning, like
It creeping through cracks in my memory
It’d make me lose my mind

[Chorus]
But every time I close my eyes
It’s calling in like a siren
Threatening to comе alive
Unless I pay the pricе, yeah
But if my heart is right this time
And I can finally bear my secrets
Maybe you won’t run and hide
But love the monster inside me

[Verse 2]
Maybe all the love
Is a switch that we flip when we’re losing our grip
And it’s close enough
Taking good with the pain, go a little insane
All we really want
Is someone to hold until we grow old
And no matter what (No matter)
Can’t be scared away

[Pre-Chorus]
Echoes of warnings
Like whispers of morning, like
It creeping through cracks in my memory
It’d make me lose my mind

[Chorus]
But every time I close my eyes
It’s calling in like a siren
Threatening to come alive
Unless I pay the price, yeah
But if my heart is right this time
And I can finally bear my secrets
Maybe you won’t run and hide
But love the monster inside me
[Bridge]
Beauty in the chaos, all that’s left to save us
Now
Beauty in the chaos, all that’s left to save us
Now
Beauty in the chaos, all that’s left to save us
Now
Echoes of warnings like
Beauty in the chaos, all that’s left to save us now
Echoes of warnings like
Beauty in the chaos, all that’s left to save us now

[Chorus]
But every time I close my eyes
It’s calling in like a siren
Threatening to come alive
Unless I pay the price, yeah
But every time I close my eyes
It’s calling in like a siren
Threatening to come alive
Unless I pay the price, yeah
But if my heart is right this time
And I can finally bear my secrets
Maybe you won’t run and hide
But love the monster inside me

My 2 Cents –
I have always fought the stigma of my mental health. I am a survivor. That being said, sometimes the labels are easier to fight than others. Now I am trying to help my teenager fight them. She wants to write horror. She is into the creepy and dark. When she told her therapist that (New therapist) the therapist tried to claim that she was homicidal. She doesn’t want to hurt anyone. She is a gentle soul with a rich imagination. She wants to write dark stories so she is apparently Homicidal. I raised all kinds of hell with the office. The supervisor talked to my daughter and agreed that the therapist was way off base. So I am left with a wonderful beginning writer who is struggling because of labels. Seems to me that the world wants to label madness too easily and the monsters that truly exist are allowed too much leeway. so today at least I think I love the monster inside me and will revel in the beauty in chaos.