Lyrics –

I heard a knock upon my door the other day
I opened it to find death staring in my face
The feel of mortal stalking still reverberates
Everywhere I go, I drag this coffin just in case

My body’s trembling, sends shivers down my spine
Adrenaline kicks in, shifts into overdrive
Your secrets keep you sick, your lies keep you alive
Snake eyes every single time you roll with crooked dice

I felt the darkness as it tried to pull me down
The kind of dark that haunts a hundred year old house
I wrestle with my thoughts, I shook the hand of doubt
Running from my past, I’m praying, feet don’t fail me now

I’ve lost my goddamn mind, it happens all the time
I can’t believe I’m actually meant to be here
Trying to consume, the drug in me is you
And I’m so high on misery, can’t you see?

I got these questions always running through my head
So many things that I would like to understand
If we are born to die and we all die to live
Then what’s the point of living life if it just contradicts?

I felt the darkness as it tried to pull me down
The kind of dark that haunts a hundred year old house
I wrestle with my thoughts, I shook the hand of doubt
Running from my past, I’m praying, feet don’t fail me now

I’ve lost my goddamn mind, it happens all the time
I can’t believe I’m actually meant to be here
Trying to consume, the drug in me is you
And I’m so high on misery, can’t you see?

I’ve lost myself
You tried to reach me, but you just can’t help me
So long, goodbye
You tried to save me, it wont work this time

‘Cause now I’ve lost my fucking mind, and there’s no fucking time
I can’t believe I’m actually meant to be here
Trying to consume, the drug in me is you
And I’m so high on misery, can’t you see?

Oh, can’t you see?
Can’t you see?

My 2 cents –

Like Last week this one has a feel of the lyrics blaming the person the song is about, but this time it is less generalized. This one is more personal. And in some ways that feels better? The singer feels like they are doubting the hold they feel this person has on them. It is an interesting video. And a slightly relatable song.

Lyrics –

I can’t stop from spinning
Down the rabbit hole
The deeper that you push
The deeper I will go
They said that God’s a woman
I’ll worship you the same
Cause all I do is think about
Saying your name in vain
You might as well marry me

My sinful confession
You’re my obsession (yeah)
If God is a woman
Then God is a weapon (yeah)

I can’t stop from sinning
My halo’s just a hole
The deeper that I get inside you
The deeper you will fall
They Say that God’s a weapon
Well I’m a hand grenade
Try to take this ring from me
Watch me detonate
You might as well bury me

My sinful confession
You’re my obsession (yeah)
If God is a woman
Then God is a weapon
(Yeah)

My Sinful Confession
You’re my obsession
If God is a woman
Then God is a weapon

My 2 cents –

This song bothers me. I enjoy the music. I enjoy the way it is sung. I am bothered by the lyrics. This speaks of obsession and strong ideals of blaming women for male obsession. I cannot put into words the reason fully…
It feels like it is a backhand compliment to the woman in the spotlight. I worry that the lyrics will be misunderstood as a love song…and this is the farthest thing one could find from that.

Lyrics –

“Alien Blues”

Was it the best you ever had?
Was it the worst? You’d never know
I’d try to tell you what I think and play it off like it’s a joke
Oh no, more surprises, guess it’s like this
I’d do anything for you, Mrs. Highness

Na-na-na-na-na-na-na
Na-na-na-na-na-na
Na-na-na-na-na-na-na
Oh-oh, oh-oh, oh-oh
Na-na-na-na-na-na-na
Na-na-na-na-na-na
Na-na-na-na-na-na-na
Oh-oh, oh-oh, oh-oh

The sun is fun, the land is dandy
I only talk to dogs because they don’t understand me
My teeth are yellow, hello world
Would you like me a little better if they were white like yours?
I need to purge my urges, shame, shame, shame
I need an alibi to justify, somebody to blame
It’s a halibut, “party bitch”, give it a name and say, “Hey, hey”

Na-na-na-na-na-na-na
Na-na-na-na-na-na
Na-na-na-na-na-na-na
Oh-oh, oh-oh, oh-oh
Na-na-na-na-na-na-na
Na-na-na-na-na-na
Na-na-na-na-na-na-na
Oh-oh, oh-oh, oh-oh

Na-na-na-na-na-na-na
Na-na-na-na-na-na
Na-na-na-na-na-na-na
Oh-oh, oh-oh, oh-oh
Na-na-na-na-na-na-na
Na-na-na-na-na-na
Na-na-na-na-na-na-na
Oh-oh, oh-oh, oh-oh

My 2 cents –

This one was recommended by my son. It is such a strange little song but it speaks to me about being ostracized. The outsider in society. So often that feels like the weight that hangs on our shoulders.

Lyrics –

“HER”

I’ve been seeing stars
Every time I get up
It’s been getting hard
To keep on playing dress up
I’m body positive
Until it’s mine
Fighting for an hourglass
And running out time

Just an innocent compliment
I bet they didn’t mean it
Even if they did
I bet I still wouldn’t believe it
Thought when I got older
That this feeling would be gone
But I’m losing touch all at once
With everything I once was

If I could go back in time
I would tell her she looks divine
And I would guide her till she changed her mind
And never questioned who she was
And we’d go run outside
And play for hours in the sun
And I’d tell her all about the woman
That she will become
And I’d say you’re so much more than just a body
That needs measuring
So instead of counting calories
You can count on me

I think that I’m
Addicted to this sickness
And I’m slowly dying
But I’m the only witness
And I’m
Losing more than just a gap between my thighs
Fighting for an hourglass
And fighting for my life

Just an innocent compliment
I bet they didn’t mean it
Even if they did
I bet I still wouldn’t believe it
Thought when I got older
That this feeling would be gone
But I’m losing touch all at once
With everything I once was

If I could go back in time
I would tell her she looks divine
And I would guide her till she changed her mind
And never questioned who she was
And we’d go run outside
And play for hours in the sun
And I’d tell her all about the woman
That she will become
And I’d say you’re so much more than just a body
That needs measuring
So instead of counting calories
You can count on me

I’ve been
Unlearning
Un-hurting
Un-telling myself
I have to earn it
Is it worth it?
Is it worth it?
It’s not worth it

I’ve been
Unlearning
Un-hurting
Un-telling myself
I have to earn it
Is it worth it?
Is it worth it?
It’s not worth it

If I could go back in time
I would tell her she looks divine
And I would guide her till she changed her mind
And never questioned who she was

My 2 cents –

Self esteem is so hard. it’s multi faceted and can be destroyed by so much. it is possible to logically understand that you deserve to eat and still have issues…it is possible to see yourself as a person and still not be able to take compliments because the person in the mirror is distorted.

Lyrics –

Ha, ha, ha
Ha, ha, ha
Ha, ha, ha
Ha, ha, ha
Ha, ha, ha
Ha, ha, ha
Ha, ha, ha
Ha, ha, ha

Harpy Hare, where have you buried all your children?
Tell me so I say
Harpy Hare, where have you buried all your children?
Tell me so I say

All the arrows that you’ve stolen
Split in half, now bum and broken
Like your heart that was so eager to be hid
You can’t keep them all caged
They will fight and run away
Mother, tell me so I say (La-la-la, la-la-la, la-la-la)

Harpy Hare, where have you buried all your children?
Tell me so I say
Harpy Hare, where have you buried all your children?
Tell me so I say

Forest walls and starry ceilings
Barren curtains that you’re weaving
Like the stories that you keep inside your head
She can’t keep them all safe
They will die and be afraid
Mother, tell me so I say (Mother, tell me so I say)

Harpy Hare, where have you buried all your children?
Tell me so I say
Harpy Hare, where have you buried all your children?
Tell me so I say

Ha, ha, ha
Ha, ha, ha
Ha, ha, ha
Ha, ha, ha

Harpy Hare, where have you buried all your children?
Tell me so I say
Harpy Hare, where have you buried all your children?
Tell me so I say (Tell me so I say)

Ha, ha, ha
Ha, ha, ha
Ha, ha, ha
Ha, ha, ha
Ha, ha, ha
Ha, ha, ha
Ha, ha, ha
Ha, ha, ha
(Ha, ha, ha) She can’t keep them all caged
(Ha, ha, ha) They’ll be far and fly away
Mother, tell me you will stay
We’ll be far and fly away

My 2 cents –

I feel like I cannot keep up. My brain has so many ideas….So I end up feeling like I am burying the ones I cannot write.

Lyrics –

My brain won’t shut the fuck up when I try to go to bed
Suddenly all kinds of thoughts start racing round my head
Sometimes creative visions and sometimes just creeping dread
Or re-evalutions of the stupid things I’ve said
Lying in the darkness in the silence on my own
Trying hard to go to sleep and not look at my phone
Wanting to wake somebody but staring at the void instead
My brain won’t shut the fuck up when I try to go to bed

My brain won’t shut the fuck up when I want to go to sleep,
Thoughts of past embarrassments each night upon me creep,
Some random song from years ago gets stuck there on repeat
Or worries about the week ahead just make my want to weep,
Regulating temperature by flipping over my pillow
Convinced I need the bathroom but not able to go,
Trying everything from reading books to counting sheep,
My brain won’t shut the fuck up when I want to go to sleep,

My brain won’t shut the fuck up when I try to close my eyes,
Concerns I’d long forgotten about come back and say ‘Surprise!’
Smartphone internet seems like a curse now in disguise
And the bed suddenly feels too small for someone of my size
Jealous of my partner who drifts off so easily
Turning over in frustration to watch them sleeping peacefully
Only managing to doze off just before it’s time again to rise
My brain won’t shut the fuck up when I try to close my eyes.

My 2 cents –

insomnia has had claws lately

Lyrics –

I can feel the darkness around me
Hottie drives a little white Audi
I don’t know how, but she found me
Yeah, she got my cell and my address
And she’s the reaper in a black dress
Got myself in another mess
Blame it on the whiskey
She don’t even miss me
She comin’ in hot, she a bad bitch
Cuttin’ my heart like a savage
Trade in my soul, she can have it
Let me introduce you to my new bad habit
I got a disease, yeah, I got an addiction
I’m down on my knees, truth is stranger than fiction
If the drugs don’t kill me, then the loneliness will
I wanna breathe you in (breathe you in)
I wanna be your fool (be your fool)
I wanna be your drug
And I wanna lick your wounds
She comin’ in hot, she a bad bitch
Cuttin’ my heart like a savage
Trade in my soul, she can have it
Let me introduce you to my new bad habit

My 2 cents –

I was recently introduced to this one. it has a few interesting lines.