I realize that I have been absent for a week….it was however not intentional. between Dr’s appointments and books releasing….I just brain fogged. Though I did have a nice surprise. went to the Dr because I have a sinus infection and the check in notes acknowledged that I have fibromyalgia and Autism. both of them previous doctors were not willing to diagnose me with. though other doctors had? I am sure that they are correct and having a dr agree just feels so good.
I should be doing the daily thing again through November but I don’t think I’ll be doing the normal week posts as I am doing 2 pad challenges and trying to do the Fae 50k.
I heard a knock upon my door the other day I opened it to find death staring in my face The feel of mortal stalking still reverberates Everywhere I go, I drag this coffin just in case
My body’s trembling, sends shivers down my spine Adrenaline kicks in, shifts into overdrive Your secrets keep you sick, your lies keep you alive Snake eyes every single time you roll with crooked dice
I felt the darkness as it tried to pull me down The kind of dark that haunts a hundred year old house I wrestle with my thoughts, I shook the hand of doubt Running from my past, I’m praying, feet don’t fail me now
I’ve lost my goddamn mind, it happens all the time I can’t believe I’m actually meant to be here Trying to consume, the drug in me is you And I’m so high on misery, can’t you see?
I got these questions always running through my head So many things that I would like to understand If we are born to die and we all die to live Then what’s the point of living life if it just contradicts?
I felt the darkness as it tried to pull me down The kind of dark that haunts a hundred year old house I wrestle with my thoughts, I shook the hand of doubt Running from my past, I’m praying, feet don’t fail me now
I’ve lost my goddamn mind, it happens all the time I can’t believe I’m actually meant to be here Trying to consume, the drug in me is you And I’m so high on misery, can’t you see?
I’ve lost myself You tried to reach me, but you just can’t help me So long, goodbye You tried to save me, it wont work this time
‘Cause now I’ve lost my fucking mind, and there’s no fucking time I can’t believe I’m actually meant to be here Trying to consume, the drug in me is you And I’m so high on misery, can’t you see?
Oh, can’t you see? Can’t you see?
My 2 cents –
Like Last week this one has a feel of the lyrics blaming the person the song is about, but this time it is less generalized. This one is more personal. And in some ways that feels better? The singer feels like they are doubting the hold they feel this person has on them. It is an interesting video. And a slightly relatable song.
Pattimouse 