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Tuesday Tunes

A day for me to discuss music

Lyrics

I hate the world today
You’re so good to me
I know but I can’t change
Tried to tell you
But you look at me like maybe
I’m an angel underneath
Innocent and sweet

Yesterday I cried
You must have been relieved
To see the softer side
I can understand how you’d be so confused
I don’t envy you
I’m a little bit of everything
All rolled into one

I’m a bitch
I’m a lover
I’m a child
I’m a mother
I’m a sinner
I’m a saint
And I do not feel ashamed
I’m your hell
I’m your dream
I’m nothing in between
You know you wouldn’t want it any other way

So take me as I am
This may mean you’ll have to be a stronger man
Rest assured that when I start to make you nervous
And I’m going to extremes
Tomorrow I will change
And today won’t mean a thing

I’m a bitch
I’m a lover
I’m a child
I’m a mother
I’m a sinner
I’m a saint
And I do not feel ashamed
I’m your hell
I’m your dream
I’m nothing in between
You know you wouldn’t want it any other way

Just when you think you’ve got me figured out
The season’s already changin’
I think it’s cool you do what you do
And don’t try to save me

I’m a bitch
I’m a lover
I’m a child
I’m a mother
I’m a sinner
I’m a saint
And I do not feel ashamed
I’m your hell
I’m your dream
I’m nothing in between
You know you wouldn’t want it any other way

I’m a bitch
I’m a tease
I’m a goddess on my knees
When you hurt
When you suffer
I’m your angel undercover
I’ve been numb
I’m revived
Can’t say I’m not alive
You know I wouldn’t want it any other way

My 2 Cents –

I am struggling with a migraine. It is a day before my 48th birthday. I want to be brave enough to have this kind of ballsy attitude…but most of the time…

Wednesday will likely not be a thing this week… I will try.

Monday Poetry

Not today.

Wild Wednesday will return next week. I just didn’t get it done in the weekend and I am struggling with juggling the appointment calendar and my responsibilities. Add the fact that I am fairly certain that I have probably torn the rotator cuff… I am in pain and in general not feeling up to getting my stuff done today.

Tuesday Tunes

A day for me to discuss music

Lyrics

Theories, I know you got your theories
I know you got this feeling
Everyone’s out to get you (To get you)
Faceless, enemies always faceless
Somehow, you’re always blameless
But that don’t make you bulletproof (Bulletproof)

You hear whispers when we’re just talkin’
See pointin’ fingers
When we touch, yeah, when we touch
You hear footsteps when no one’s comin’
But you keep runnin’, there’s no use runnin’

You know you’re your own assassin
You don’t need no help with that
It’s your back that you been stabbin’
When you gonna understand?
You know you’re your own assassin
You don’t need no help with that
You know you’re your own assassin
You know you’re your own assassin

When did, when did you start pretendin’?
You don’t know why it ended
You think the fault is all mine (Is all mine)
Mirror, you never checked the mirror
Or you woulda seen the killer
Starin’ right back with your eyes (With your eyes)

You hear whispers when we’re just talkin’
See pointin’ fingers
When we touch, yeah, when we touch
You hear footsteps when no one’s comin’
But you keep runnin’ there’s no use runnin’

You know you’re your own assassin
You don’t need no help with that
It’s your back that you been stabbin’
When you gonna understand?
You know you’re your own assassin
You don’t need no help with that
You know you’re your own assassin
You know you’re your own assassin

You know you’re your own assassin (Assassin, assassin, assassin)
You know you’re your own assassin (Assassin, assassin)
You know you’re your own assassin (Assassin, assassin, assassin)
You know you’re your own assassin
You know you’re your own assassin

Ah, ah, ah, ah

You know you’re your own assassin
You don’t need no help with that
It’s your back that you been stabbin’
When you gonna understand?
You know you’re your own assassin
You don’t need no help with that
You know you’re your own assassin
You know you’re your own assassin

My 2 Cents –

Self sabotage… lately and the closer to my birthday it gets… the more I feel like I am fighting with this. I know that I am not the only one that struggles with this problem.

Monday Poetry

Wild Wednesday

Wild Wednesday!

So many topics…. what should I talk about?

It’s Sunday when I am doing the blog posts… and I find myself struggling to find a topic for the week. This week has been longer than usual for me… and we are going to be heading into a rough area of the year.

Why is that you might ask? Because of my birthday. It is the 13th of March. I struggle with my own birthday. The reason is that I honestly never expected to make it to 30… and I am going to be 48. I don’t know what to do with myself.

So I don’t know if I will be able to get the blog up for the week surrounding the 13th. I am already stressed out and struggling with my mental health.

I plan on trying to get it done… but I want to warn you that I am struggling with this one. That way if I don’t manage it no one is surprised. Yes, I do realize that I have a week before then… but I’m also starting to feel the quicksand of the birthday blues. So I am going to state the issue now and hope that I can overcome it by then.

Tuesday Tunes

A day for me to discuss music

Lyrics

I can’t still remember me and Miss November Rain
Beautiful and strange
Always so inclined, coloring outside the lines
Yeah, you were never on time

You’ve always been slightly awkward, kinda weird
Upside down and not all here
What’s a-wrong with me and you is crystal clear

Sometimes I’m in a room where I don’t belong
And the house is on fire and there’s no alarm
And the walls are melting too
How about you?
I’ve never been the favorite, thought I’d seen it all
‘Til I got my invitation to the lunatic ball
And my friends are comin’ too
How about you?
Don’t worry, it’s all just a symptom of being human

Unpack all your baggage
Hide it in the attic, where
You hope it disappears
This all seems so familiar
But it doesn’t feel like home
It’s just another unknown

You’ve always been slightly awkward, kinda weird
Upside down and not all here
Right a wrong, it’s all so crystal clear

Sometimes I’m in a room where I don’t belong
And the house is on fire and there’s no alarm
And the walls are melting too
How about you?
I’ve never been the favorite, thought I’d seen it all
‘Til I got my invitation to the lunatic ball
And my friends are comin’ too
How about you?
Don’t worry, it’s all just a symptom of being human

We’re all just passing through
Passengers on a ship of fools
We’re all just passing through
Passengers on a ship of fools

Sometimes I’m in a room where I don’t belong
And the house is on fire and there’s no alarm
And the walls are melting too
How about you?
I’ve never been the favorite, thought I’d seen it all
‘Til I got my invitation to the lunatic ball
And my friends are comin’ too
On a ship of fools
Don’t worry, it’s all just a symptom
Of being human

My 2 Cents –

This song just kinda hit… I so often feel like I am a weird little oddity and I don’t fit in. Even if I know that I am just human… I feel like I am so very strange… and it is nice to hear that I am not alone…

Wild Wednesday

Wild Wednesday!

So many topics…. what should I talk about?

I am currently looking at the idea of doing some cosplay.

This is really stretching out of my comfort zone. I love the idea of dressing up, but I don’t like the idea of doing anything that puts me in the spotlight.

Just doing the reading of my own poetry on TikTok requires a lot of work to get me to feel like I am not putting my own feet hip deep in my head.

I have been eyeing the mushroom hats. Apparently there is a wonderful tutorial on making them on YouTube…

I found several…I think that I really want to make this one…

What craft has caught your eye?

Tuesday Tunes

A day for me to discuss music

Lyrics

Once upon a time in a far away land
A little girl lived under her father’s hand
She wept in silence and never talked
Her father made sure that he called the shots
He nailed the door shut so she couldn’t leave
Blew out the lights so she couldn’t see
But one night she broke through the window pane
Nothing could stop her great escape
‘Cause this girl had plans
That he’d never understand
All the miracles she saw in her dreams
All the amazing things that she could be
So the little girl ran away from home you see
Little girl go on and write your story
Little girl rejoice ’cause you’re finally free
Little girl be who you wanna be
You already know the strength inside your heart
You don’t need someone to tell you who you are
Go and say the words you know you long to speak
Little girl little girl be who you wanna be
Go and say the words you know you long to speak
Little girl little girl be who you wanna be
Twenty years later through the hourglass
The little girl grew up in the time that’s passed
All those late nights ’cause she worked three jobs
Started from pennies now she’s her own boss
One day she opens up the door to meet
A stranger at window guess who she sees
Her father shows up with a face of red
Head down low he looks up and says
I know you can’t forgive
All the things that I did
But I’m hoping that you’ll understand
For you I always had a plan
So the little girl showed him all the things she achieved
The world she saw from all the highest peaks
How she moved the mountains with her fingertips
Head to toe her father finally admits
You already know the strength inside your heart
You don’t need someone to tell you who you are
Go and say the words you know you long to speak
Little girl little girl be who you wanna be
Go and say the words you know you long to speak
Little girl little girl be who you wanna be
Go and say the words you know you long to speak
Little girl little girl be who you wanna be
Be who you wanna be
Little girl little girl be who you wanna be
Ah
Little girl little girl be who you wanna be

My 2 Cents –

Okay I was going to post this last week but I realized it was going to be V-day and changed my mind because of that. This song made me cry 😭. I have been that little girl. Every girl in my generation has. Expectations are a heavy load.

Tuesday Tunes

A day for me to discuss music

Lyrics

Another love taken to the grave
Another one goes right down the drain
I keep making all the same mistakes
Running out of reasons I can blame

Thought I had a heart of gold
Everything I touch turns to stone
Is it my fault I always end up alone?

Maybe I’m just difficult
Maybe I’m impossible
Maybe I’m just one step over the edge
You’re one foot out the door

Maybe I’m emotional
Too much to handle or
Maybe I’m unlovable

Is there anyone left to believe?
Is there any good still left in me?
I keep slipping further underneath
I just want a love that never leaves

Thought I had a heart of gold
Everything I touch turns to stone
Is it my fault I always end up alone?

Well, maybe I’m just difficult
Maybe I’m impossible
Maybe I’m just one step over the edge
You’re one foot out the door

Maybe I’m emotional
Too much to handle
Maybe I’m unlovable
Unlovable

Maybe I’m just difficult
Maybe I’m impossible
Maybe I’m just one step over the edge
You’re one foot out the door

Maybe I’m emotional
Too much to handle oh-oh-oh, oh-oh-oh
Maybe I’m unlovable
Unlovable

Maybe I’m unlovable

My 2 Cents –

It’s freaking valentine’s day…yeah I am leaving this and leaving it alone. enjoy your day.