Category: Life

New Volume and details of the rest

This one was the one with the most votes. I will be using the other ones as the choices for the next one. Due to the chaos of my life and health I believe Rising Madness will be releasing in April.

I am currently looking for people who are interested in review copies (ebook only ) of any of my own books in exchange for an honest review on any of the online outlets. I want to boost my books on the algorithm a bit. This includes my work and Serena Mossgraves work. If you are interested just let me know and we’ll talk about the format you would like to get and an email to share it to.

I am already starting the new volume so maybe I can get back into the daily routine again.

it really is the little things

Meme - Feeling Invisible

Today I am alive.

Everything hurts, my health is uncertain, and my mental health is in the toilet. This is the first time in the last decade I have failed to do the pad challenge.

For me it means I am being unreliable for the people who are depending on me, and I hate it. I have never been the one that needed expensive things…but today I needed a pick me up.

I needed to get out of the house.

I needed a dirty Chai tea. (this is a Chai tea with a shot of espresso)

I needed five minutes when no one was depending on me while I was wanting to fall apart.

That feels so selfish.

I can’t remember a time when I didn’t have responsibilities…expectations…obligations. And I have always been able to do it. I gave of myself until everyone else had. Now I have to put my self first. and it’s so strange.

Yesterday I couldn’t find the energy to do the work I needed to do. Now after I enjoyed the Chai I will be able to do some of it.

I am still struggling, and I won’t be able to even get answers about my health issues until February.

Illness has me

Meme-emotional description

This is the first time in a while I have struggled with the pad challenge. I am going to try to get it caught up…but I don’t know if I will be able to. I’m sick. Not the normal this time of year thing, though I wish it was. I just got over a nasty sinus infection, but I am still working on dealing with other issues that are making me feel like sleeping all the time.

I will get over it, I think…but I am not sure how long it will take. Until I get back to 100 % I am probably gonna be behind on everything. I am going to try to keep up…but I can’t promise anything right now.

Pad challenge Day 8 Patricia

Poetry
Monday Poetry

Expectations 

Ever expanding 

Ever exceeding 

 

Equating Ego Erroneously 

Extra expected... 

Everything Establishing 

Extra!

Pad challenge Day 7 Patricia

Poetry
Monday Poetry
Wake me 

wake me,

for I must be

stuck in a dream...



wake me,

as I have all

I ever wanted.



wake me,

before I decide 

to ne'er leave.

Pad challenge Day 6 Patricia

Poetry
Monday Poetry
Bohemian 

I've been a thousand places
I don't know where I'm going
It's hard to find a place to call home
Every demon, every ghost from your pastAnd every memory you've held backFollows you home

Oh, home, let me come home
Home is wherever I'm with you
I'll go wherever you will go

And it don't look like
I'll ever stop my wandering
I've been down every road
Felt the sun, I've felt the cold
 

This is a cut poem for the volume Lyrical Recycling,
a cut poetry volume.

Bohemian Songs :
battle born by five finger death punch, nobody drinks alone by Keith Urban, Home by Edward Sharpe and the magnetic zeros, wandering by James Taylor, Home is You by Rozes, wherever you will go by the calling

Pad challenge Day 5 Patricia

Poetry
when the world closed in on me
I needed you so desperately,
I kept looking at the phone 
wondering if you would be
there if I were to call,
if I asked would you be 
there for me at all ?

Perhaps that's my mistake
I counted on you ever
to be the one I could count on.

I needed you,
and hope was gone.

Pad challenge Day 4 Patricia

Poetry
Monday Poetry
So quickly my whole world shattered

the results are in from the test,

you told us years ago

that you needed to be free,

and now there's a problem...



It is nothing new

doctors always doubt,

health is just a cost

and how much money 

you are able to throw about.

Pad challenge Day 3 Patricia

Poetry
Monday Poetry
the madness is but a whisper

that speaks to the chaos within,

tis okay though ... for as long as you 

keep going forward and and don't give up,

it'll all make sense in the end.



the world will always have chaos

madness and drama to forge

the dreams into what makes 

sense in the end

Pad challenge Day 2 Patricia

Poetry
Monday Poetry
in the mind's bouquet

mine seems to be 

gathered wildflowers

wrapped around 

belladonna and foxglove.



Irises and daisies,

violets for sure...

a collection of strange

that suits me so well.



soft, lovely, and deadly,

with beauty to spare.