Friday Share

Friday Share

So you found a new book?

Or maybe you just published one?

Did you find a new webcomic that you like?

Or a song you think everyone should hear?

No need for explanation…Just Share it.

You find a good deal that you think we should all see? Just share!

Or hey even a joke you think too fun not to share, Just share it.

Post links in the comments.

Occasionally I will too.

Artsy Fartsy Thursday

Artsy Fartsy Thursday
Arsty Fartsy Thursday

Titled: Abstract Dragon
Artist: Serenity Rose
medium: Digital

Wednesday Whispers

Serena Mossgraves
Serena Mossgraves

The Reaper’s Child


The world seems to be a place where myths are taken for granted. Everyone knows the myth of the pilot of the River Styx. The Ferryman who ferries souls over to the afterlife for a cost. They all have it wrong though. The Reaper doesn’t want coin. They are an immortal being. Such creatures have no need for money. The ferry driver instead takes the best story each soul has to tell. Sometimes just the telling of the story is too much for a soul to bear. Words carry weight. They are the most painful things in existence. They can also be the most gratifying things that life has to offer. 

     The ferryman has so many names, and most of them are just the myths coming to signify the way the mortal beings see them. For me, they are my creator.  I guess you could call me the reaper’s child. It is not exactly correct, but it is the closest term for what I am. I am a story that became too much for even an immortal mind to bear. So, I grew sentience. Now I search the world for the others like myself, dark stories and memories that weigh heavy on mortality. Stories of killers, and crime, heartache, and such twisted thoughts that they are relegated to impossible fiction. That is the sort of thing that I collect. Like the ferryman I take these weights from the ones who cannot bear them any longer. I think of it as saving those souls who would break under such terrible weights.

  I save each story in a notebook, lovingly hand written. My creator kept the stories told to them in perfect memory…I am not quite that blessed. Instead I will keep my notebooks…Stacked full of nightmares. The only story I have been able to remember without writing it down is the one that caused my creation. Perhaps someday I will meet the snowman…I would love to collect all of Frosty’s stories. I can only imagine what notebooks I could fill with that.

I have collected the tale of a vampire that would use it’s victims for the creation of art.

And the tale of the ghost who used to be a mercenary in a rainforest expedition that went badly. He was a wealth of stories. He gave me my own nightmares for weeks after taking his stories.

I collected the story of the nun who was cursed with immortality. It drove her mad. She spoke of becoming a killer, and how it was a kindness to save the women from the hands of the priests.

Each tale has it’s own power to describe a different aspect of life, a different aspect of death.

The story of the woman who went back after she died to steal away the child that her husband loved more than he loved her…She sang it sweet lullabies as she took it to the edge of the River Styx.

I could easily entertain so many with my tales. Which story should I share? Perhaps about the creature named Harvey? The flesh-eater that enjoyed driving it’s meals mad first?

I have considered passing myself off as a horror writer. Telling my tales as if they were fiction to see if anyone would recognize. It is not as if I do not have thousands of dark and dismal tales.

There is the one about the three ghosts who tried to get a rich man to change his ways before it was too late. Or the one about the Witch who gave five teens their wish…but at what cost?

My notebooks are a treasure. I do not write the story whilst the teller yet lives. I make sure to leave them a tale to pay the ferry with. I can at least be that kind. Though I have considered what would happen in this world if there where not enough stories left to pay the ferry. Would all of the storytellers end up stuck here? And if they did would that just create more interesting tales?

I don’t dare allow myself to consider it too closely. I might just decide that I want all of the stories.

Therapy thoughts

Meme - Overthinking

I have never had great self esteem. I honestly do not see myself with the eyes others have. And you know what? That is perfectly fine. I struggle with where I fit in society. Perfectionism and imposter syndrome war for control of my life. But then there is all I am capable of.

I can make candles. I can make lovely jewelry. I make resin art. I paint. I sketch. I do digital art. I do watercolor art and other multimedia art. I code in c++. I sew. I crotchet. I garden. I bake. I cook. I edit. I write poetry. I write stories. I do amateur photography. I have random bits of useless knowledge in my head. I help people. I do cover design.  and sometimes I am even a decent person.

in the social life I struggle with interacting and being friends. I don’t see the beauty of my own body but I am able to see the intelligence and kindness within.

so maybe it’s just me over thinking what self esteem really means.

Tuesday Tunes

Lyrics –

[Verse 1]
Take me back to old Yazoo
Everything up here is new
I can’t stand it, just must landed
Going back to Old Yazoo

[Verse 2]
Everything you do
People got their eyes on you
It’s compelling, y’have me yelling
Going back to Old Yazoo

[Bridge]
If you don’t like beans and rice
Get your rice and beans
If you don’t like greens and ham
Just get your ham and greens

[Verse 3]
How long will I have you wait?
Standing at the station gate
Broken hearted, gotta get started
Going back to Old Yazoo

[Chorus]
Oh, take me back to Old Yazoo
Everything up here is new
I can’t stand it, just must landed
Going back to Old Yazoo
Everything you do
Peoplе got their eyes on you
It’s compеlling, y’have me yelling
“Take me back to Old Yazoo”

[Post-Chorus]
If you don’t like beans and rice
Get your rice and beans
If you don’t like greens and ham
Just get your ham and greens
Lordy, lordy

[Verse 4]
How long will I have to wait
Standing at the station gate
I’m broken hearted
Gotta get started
Going back to old Yazoo

[Refrain]
Yazoo (Yazoo)
Yazoo (Yazoo)
Yazoo (Yazoo)
Yazoo (Yazoo)
I am going to Yazoo, that’s where I belong
Everything I tell you seems to be all wrong
Yazoo (Yazoo)
Yazoo (Yazoo)

[Vocalizing Interlude]

[Outro]
Going back to old Yazoo
(Going back to old Yazoo)

My 2 cents –

My son felt like this was a silly song. To me it feels like old Jazz. It has a lovely feel to it. And it is different than the music you hear today.

Monday Poetry

Poetry




Size is the judge

Meme

so I had the first visit with a new dr Friday. Yesterday I got in email notes from the visit. Now before I get to the reason why I was upset about the notes…I need to state a bit of history. I have been 450 lbs at the largest I ever got. I have been on every diet possible as a teenager. I have been fighting with disordered eating for years. I barely eat once a day and I eat a proper portion when I do. it’s all in my chart.

so I looked at the notes and the doctor said I should be assigned behavioral counseling for obesity. I am sitting at 278. which is even 10 lbs less than the last time I was there.

I am still around 50 lbs more than I want to be…,but I will always be obese as I am 5’2. according to the bmi chart I would hit obese at 120. I have no way to get that small.

so I will be looking for a new dr and I had a good cry.

Book I Have Read

For Whom The Belle Tolls by Jaysea Lynn

AN INSTANT NEW YORK TIMES AND USA TODAY BESTSELLER!

From Hell’s Belles BookTok sensation Jaysea Lynn comes a hotter-than-hell romantasy about love, magic, and found family in the Afterlife, perfect for fans of Sarah A. Parker and Callie Hart.

They told her to go to Hell.
She went, but on her own terms.


Lily isn’t exactly thrilled with her arrival in the Afterlife, but what awaits her there is more fantastical than she ever could have imagined: Deities wait in line at the coffee shop. Fae flit between realms. Souls find ways to make death a beginning.

As she explores the many corners of the Afterlife, Lily finds herself surprisingly drawn to a place most people would avoid at all costs: Hell. Armed with years of customer service experience and pent-up sarcasm, Lily carves a job out for herself amongst Hell’s demons, sending souls to their rightful circles with more than a hint of sass.

Lily’s expectations are subverted every day in Hell—especially by Bel, a demon general with a distractingly sexy voice. The two meet by chance and form an immediate, deeply healing friendship, but the undeniable heat between them threatens to combust.

Meanwhile, something stirs beyond the boundaries of their world, threatening to destroy everything they’ve known and everything that could be…unless they fight like Hell to stop it.

This debut novel from BookTok sensation Jaysea Lynn invites you to lose yourself in a world where love ignites in the unlikeliest of places, magic defies the rules, and the Afterlife proves more thrilling than anyone could imagine.

My 2 cents –

I was lucky enough to read this when it was on AOC. The actual book has a lot of differences. She did a wonderful job of cleaning it up. The world is richly designed. The characters are well written. And you are just drawn into the story. I highly recommend anyone read this.

Friday Share

Friday Share

So you found a new book?

Or maybe you just published one?

Did you find a new webcomic that you like?

Or a song you think everyone should hear?

No need for explanation…Just Share it.

You find a good deal that you think we should all see? Just share!

Or hey even a joke you think too fun not to share, Just share it.

Post links in the comments.

Occasionally I will too.

Artsy Fartsy Thursday

Artsy Fartsy Thursday
Arsty Fartsy Thursday

I decided a while back to do my art under the Name Serenity Rose.

I did this because I wanted to separate the art from the writing. So I will be Posting Serenity Rose’s Art for Thursday. Just thought I should put a head’s up.

This one was Titled: Traveler

medium: Digital