Lyrics
I gotta know that your heart beats fast and
I gotta know I’m the only one for you
What have I become?
I’m a fucking monster
When all I wanted was something beautiful
My love too much
Your love not enough
My love too much
Your love
Oh, what it takes out of me to lay by your side
Oh, well it aches and it aches
You make me wanna die
I gotta kill you my love
I gotta kill you my love
Oh, what it takes out of me to lay by your side
You said forever, now you look right through me
You said forever, did your words fall short like you?
What have I done?
I’m a fucking monster
When all I wanted was something beautiful
My love too much
Your love not enough
My love too much
Your love
Oh, what it takes out of me to lay by your side
Oh, well it aches and it aches
You make me wanna die
I gotta kill you my love
I gotta kill you my love
Oh, what it takes out of me to lay by your side
My love too much
Your love not enough
My love too much
Your love
My 2 Cents-
There is a lot of things that can make someone feel like they are to blame for relationship failings. This song makes me feel like I am not alone. I have been dealing with personality changes in the man I love due to brain abnormalities…and It makes me feel like a monster that sometimes I don’t love the person he has become. Sometimes when life changes those we love sitting there wondering if we can handle it is normal, even if it doesn’t feel like it.
Pattimouse 