I have never made secret of the fact that I am a survivor of childhood sex abuse. And yesterday was a very emotional day.
Survivors know that most monsters wear human skin. My monster was a quiet man that everyone believed was a good person. He told me that no one would believe me if I told about how he hurt me. He made me believe that I deserved the pain. That is what monsters do. They convince you that you deserve every bit of what they do. Even in death he haunts me, as I find myself feeling like a bad person for enjoying the fact that he committed suicide.
Monsters are among us. And now the world has one less. Though I am relieved I will not celebrate any farther. I will instead work on creating beauty to combat the monsters that remain in this world. I will be an advocate for those who have had their voice stolen.
This means that I am going to need to step back and breathe, I need to calm the emotional roller-coaster this has created. I will be back on Monday. Until then, avoid the monsters and be kind
Pattimouse 
Take you time and be well.
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Pattimouse taking a break
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That, is how these, abusers, make their victims, feel it’s their, faults, and, we will, blame ourselves, for allowing them to take advantage, even when we weren’t, the ones, at fault over what, happene. It takes us, a very long time, to finally, get into our minds, that it isn’t, our faults…
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Take your time to heal! It wasn’t your fault.
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