I hurt myself today
To see if I still feel
I focus on the pain
The only thing that’s real

— Johnny Cash

I totally let myself get worked up over something that really isn’t a big deal. I had a meltdown. I cried just enough to make it hard to sleep (not that I generally sleep at “normal” times, anyway). You know the feeling, dull headache and burning eyes to match. And for WHAT?

A small but necessary change in my schedule gave me a mental nuclear meltdown. The thing I got upset about even feels dumb to me in retrospect (which, I’m sure, is going to be a topic of conversation with my therapist this afternoon).

I did, however, have…